I felt awful about what happened at Adam's house between Ed and I, I think I really hurt him. He was trying to warn me that Jerry was most likely a vampire and I blew up in his face saying he was an immature idiot and that my life was so much better without him. I will never forget the look on his face, it was so intense. He stormed out before I could say anything else, but then again I don't know what I would have said if he didn't. We used to be best friends, we did everything together; like he mentioned, we were inseparable.
My immediate reaction was to run after him, to put my arms around him and never let go. I wanted to say I was sorry for always treating him like this, but I didn't; I was frozen in place.
I got an image in my mind of what might have happened if I did run after him.
I bolted out of the house, ran down the sidewalk (my heart pounding because I was so scared of losing him), and grabbed hold of his shirt, yanking him towards me. I clung to him as he tried to pull away. I wouldn't let him go, I couldn't...
But that was just in my head. And with that thought in mind I swear I would have kissed him, anything to make him believe I couldn't live without him. I couldn't help but think that the fear of him never forgiving me and the fear of losing him had brought up hidden feelings I've had for him. Yes, I think I would have kissed him if he came back to me before the events that followed.