Disclaimer: Chapter 8 – Why Me?
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Beast Boy's POV:
I followed Raven into the dark, mysterious night, and I realized she had almost stopped crying. Not stopped- I could still hear some sobs- but less frequent and slower. Good, I thought. I couldn't bear the sight of her crying that hard.
She finally took to the skies, obviously going somewhere far. She flew for some time; my tiny wings were getting tired from the long journey. Finally she landed in the middle of a small beautiful clearing. Oh, how it was peaceful and serene. Bright moonlight lit the wonderful place, showing me some color. Small waterfalls one beside another, on top of each other, all leaded down to a pool that leads on to one last big waterfall. Trees were thin and bamboo shot up from the ground. There were thick bushes, full of yellow and orange daffodils dancing in the mid-night wind. Some spread between the waterfalls, and clear water glided through them, sending some trickling down to the earth. The water was smooth and lucid; you could see the bottom. Not a single soul disturbed the water until another waterfall came before it. White foam gathered where the feet of the biggest falls, so white and pure, like Raven. The last fall led into a river that ran through a grassy plain, sand somewhere in the distance, a valley. But there was only one single, flat stone rising out of the middle of the great place, where Raven, the lovable goddess, landed and sat down.
I myself landed behind the thick bushes of green leaves and became my human self again for a soothing while. Then I morphed to a squirrel. Thank goodness she can't see much color, I thought as I darted around the trees, not making a sound. I stopped behind a small dirt mound where the moonlight from above hit Raven at a perfect angle. I settled down and watched her as she prayed.
"Please forgive me for what I am about to do," she whispered to no one. "I'm sorry to everyone for any mayhem this may cause in the world besides here." Silent tears flowed rapidly down her pale cheeks. She took a deep breath.
"Ok. It's time."
You could hear a slow, soft chant of
"Azarath, Metrion, Zinthos," and anything 20 feet away from her, such as me, were encased in small black walls on all four sides, but rounded. We were trapped in this bubble all together with her like a force field. Then she stopped what she was doing, still holding the black cylinder around us. She broke into full loud sobs, and put her head in her hands.
"Why… Why…" she started out. "W-why d-did he h-have to k-kiss me!?!" she yelled into the trees that now seemed depressing, dark and dismal along with the other surroundings.
"Me… Me…. Me….", the echo from the open valley ahead answered gloomily.
"Why me?!" she whispered. "Now I only know that… He loves me… And I can't take it!" She burst into tears, not stopping for breath. While this was going on, things inside the sphere were going crazy. I had to duck constantly to avoid plants and rocks outlined in black flying at my head. I see… She lets her feelings out here… I thought. Now I knew what the bubble was for. It was to keep anything from going out to the world and causing destruction besides anything else outside of it.
"But…" she stopped crying and looked up from her wet hands. " Why… Why do I f-feel this way? This different feeling?" she asked as my heart did a flip-flop for joy.
"Why-Why d-does it m-make me feel this w-way? Why, when h-he is doing something and s-smiles at me… why d-does this make m-me happy th-that he is?" she asked to no one. "I'm h-happy for everyone that they are, but this is… different." She sighed and choked on a sob and another one.
"I'm so confused…" Then and there she sat in a puddle of tears on a flat stone, confused and cold. "What to do…" More tears came forward as she said this. Even more things were crashing into the black wall of energy as she released all her feelings. Her stunning, velvet purple eyes were brimming with water and they were so… sad and full of worry.
"Why… Why do I have this terrible, confusing life?! What have I done to deserve this?! Why…" she screamed into the midnight sky above. Her sudden shout made me jump. But I started to cry all the same. Her wistful tears and words were too much for me to take. Just too much for me. There I sat, just 3 feet away from her, a green, crying squirrel.
Then…
"Why…" and the black orb disappeared. She cleaned up the mess of trees and rocks using her powers and left for the ominous, navy blue sky above.
Every night at 12:00, she would come here to this small clearing land on the rock, and encase it in a black energy bubble. Then she'd ask everyone to forgive her for everything. Every night at 12:00, she always let her feelings out.
"Why me?! Why do I have this miserable no good life! What have I done to deserve this?! Why…"she would always say at the end. "Why me…" Every night at 12:00, she would use her powers to make the place in order again. And every night at 12:00, a small green fly would follow her into the deep, dark blue, star-full sky, content with what he had heard for that one, lonely night.
One special night she was silent as she floated to the small spot next to the valley, no tears strewn down her face. It was strange; she did everything in silence. It consumed the air around us, scaring me plenty. She is usually crying when she comes. Me, a small fly, landed and changed into a sparrow. I flew up and landed on one of the branches sticking out from the thin trees that surrounded half of the clearing. She landed, put the bubble around the part and sat. She just sat and closed her eyes. A single small tear rolled out of her eye. There was nothing that she said the whole entire time. She just sat there, occasionally sending one or two tears rolling down her cheek to just fall off the edge.
"Why me?" I heard her ask herself in the middle of it all, startling me. "Why…" She took off her boots and dipped her feet into the limpid and effervescent water and let them run with the strong current. She laid herself down and rested on her elbows, looking up at the stars. Tears streamed down her face faster. I looked up. White blinding light shone brightly against the endless shady sky that was literally black as night.
"Why do I have to have these stupid powers that get set off by emotion? Why can't it be someone else?" she whispered softly to herself and the stars that twinkled above her beautiful wet face.
"Why do I have to suffer when no one else has to? No one knows my pain. No one knows what I go through, just to keep my powers from hurting them! I do this to protect them… and yet I'm left out… I can't laugh or cry… I am forbidden to do anything fun… I can't feel anything without something exploding or falling over… Who else is forbidden to feel a certain way or feel joy or sadness? Who knows how I feel? And worst of all… There is nothing I can do to stop this… Nothing I can do… Nothing…" It made my heart shatter into a million pieces to see Raven this depressed and miserable. I couldn't say I knew how she felt. No one on this planet does or will ever. No one.
Amazingly, only a few objects were hurled at me during this melancholy speech. I was glad for a second. But the sadness overwhelmed my heart and the gladness and engulfed it in sorrow as she spoke again.
"Why can't I just get rid of these stupid powers? Why do I have to be picked on? Why did they pick me? Why me? Why… What's so special about me…"Everything, I thought. From the way you walk to the way you eat, you do everything in a special way that no one else can copy. But only I could hear that. She could not hear what I had to say about her, how she always is under control, how she is always controlling me. No one but me knew all I had to say. And not even she could hear my comforting words.
She cried for a long time, but in that time my heart only saddened while I watched her. As she got up to go, I changed into a fly again. She took flight and a small green fly followed her into the sky. We flew in silence, just as before. Then, she turned around. My small fly body froze and my wings working stopped in mid-air. She was looking straight at me.
"Beast Boy, I know you've been following me every night. You can give up the whole hiding from me thing. I knew you were there since day two. I can sense you. So don't even try to play dumb with me. I'm annoyed enough. You can change back already. I'll catch you." I didn't change back. I was scared and her menacing look didn't help either. Let me put it this way. I was NOT going to change back. EVER! Heh… Or so I thought. Making it simple, I changed back.
"Don't even try to change into anything else," she said menacingly as a black glow surrounded me. "You are lucky I don't drop you right now! After all, I should. You had no right, NO RIGHT, to follow me even once! How would you like it if I invaded your privacy EVERY SINGLE NIGHT?! I should have done this WEEKS ago! DO YOU LIKE YOUR PRIVACY?! Huh? Would YOU be this mad if you were me?! God! The NERVE of some people! UGH!!!!!!" She let out an exasperated sigh.
Meanwhile, havoc was wreaking everywhere below. Car alarms were going off and people were coming out of their houses to see their lawns on fire. A fire hydrant was shooting gallons of water everywhere. Some people were trying to gain control, others were screaming, and still others were sleeping through it all. A ghostly scream came from a woman directly below me as a nearby mailbox exploded. The street cracked in two and a boy almost fell in as his mother tried to call for help.
"Oh, God…" Raven whispered as she looked down at the scene below. "I did this… it was all my fault… No one would have gotten hurt if it weren't for me… Oh, God…" her eyes glowed white and the fires stopped burning. The fire hydrant sealed. The mailbox came together, and the car alarms stopped. She was panting now, and I was getting worried.
"Raven?! Don't try to stop everything if you can't!" I banged on the bubble that she had put around me.
"I did it… I can't fix the mess I made," she replied in a small, soft whisper.
The little boy was lifted out of the crack and the road sealed together. The street lamps straightened and up righted themselves quickly. Everyone stopped screaming and running around. People went back into their houses and shut the doors. Soon all the lights in the city were off except the street lamps that hung over a thousand homes every night. Some people were still running amok and were going crazy, but that was the least of my worries.
Raven had collapsed. And now it was time for me to say, "Why me?"
A/N: And yet, ANOTHER cliffie! I love it! Thank you for all the reviews, but I'm not satisfied yet, sorry to say! REVIEW! Tell me what you think!