Disclaimer:        Chapter 10 – You Don't Understand

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They leaned in.

Suddenly, Raven turned away, leaving Beast Boy to smash into a wall of earth and get a small mouthful of dry, brown, dirt, red, slimy, worms, and sharp, small, stones.

"No."

"Whal's wrog?" Beast Boy asked after spitting most of the small stones out. He continued trying to spit the worms and leftover dirt out. They wouldn't come.

"I can't do this."

"Whly nol?" Beast Boy vomited on the side. He still had some remaining mud/dirt on his tongue, and a worm that was cut in half was squirming on top.

She looked away, pretending not to even taking notice of the small green boy trying desperately to get dirt out of his mouth. "Beast Boy, I- I tried. I just want you to know that I tried." A single tear rolled down her face.

"Triel whlat?"

"You don't understand." The sad telepath got up. "Let's go back now. Please." Her voice was cracking. The wind whipped her face fiercely and sent her hair flying everywhere. Her blue cape billowed to her side. "Please."

"Olk," said Beast Boy.

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"Are you coming?" Raven asked after a few minutes.

"Leah, lusl let le get thel reslt of thle sluff oult." Beast Boy had his hands in his mouth, trying to scrape all the dirt/mud off of his tongue. "Ok, thlink I golt moslt olf it oult." Beast Boy got up and changed into a hawk. He cawed. He was still scraping at his tiny tongue with one or two talons.

Raven looked at him with rueful eyes and took off, the small green hawk soon following.

They flew in complete silence, because one, they had nothing to talk about, and two, Raven didn't want to talk.

Beast Boy kept totally silent. He sighed sadly to himself. He looked over at the beautiful girl flying next to him. The poor boy had so many questions, but not one of them could be answered. What was she hiding? What, underneath all of the beauty, what was hidden there? What secrets lie there? Why can't we be together? Why could she not bear to look at me? Why every time she looks at me, why does she have to turn away so suddenly?

So many thoughts ran through Beast Boy's mind, but his puny brain could not sort it all out. (A/N: No offense to Beast Boy fans. None taken, they shout.) He sighed. Is there some way I can help her? He thought. Some way I could help us?

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When the two got back, they found the other three titans having breakfast.
            "Raven, Beast Boy! You are back!" Starfire dashed up to them and gave them each a huge hug.

"Star, you're hugging me," said Raven instantaneously. She let go and blushed.

"I am sorry Raven. I am just joyful to see you have come back." She sat back down. Beast Boy, however, still trying to get the remains of the dirt out of his mouth. Cyborg saw this.

"Ew… Is that dirt?" Everyone stared at Beast Boy.

"Don't ask," said Raven in a dark tone. "I'll be in my room." Like anyone would want to see me enough to go there, she thought sadly. She headed towards the dark gloomy place that was called her room.

When she reached her room, she opened the door carefully and went in. She sighed and sat down on her bed. Raven lifted one hand and the door slammed shut. She cried at the thought of Beast Boy. She knew she had to do it, but deep down inside she knew she didn't want to. She didn't want this horrible life. Who would? Maybe meditating would help me stop thinking about him, she thought. Some minutes later:

Okay. This doesn't have to be hard. Just clear your mind of all thoughts and concentrate like you usually do, she thought to herself, knowing full well it wouldn't work.

She sat down on the bare floor of her room. She began, levitating a few inches off of the floor.

"Azarath… Metrion… Zinthos… Azarath… Metrion… Zinthos… Azarath… Metrion… Zinthos… Azarath… Metrion… Zinthos… Azarath… Metri-"

There was a knock at her door, making her snap out of her concentration and fall to the ground.

"Argh!" she yelled in frustration. "Who are you and what do you want?" she yelled, more of a statement than a question.

Beast Boy peeked out from behind the door. "Um… Maybe this isn't a good time." He closed the door and Raven soon heard his footsteps departing. She sighed and continued meditating, but somehow, Beast Boy always seemed to come into her mind one way or another. Raven tried so hard to get him out of her mind, but he was stuck there and there was no getting him out. The girl yelled in frustration. Why couldn't she stop thinking about him?! Why was she having these thoughts about him?! Raven sighed. It was no use trying to meditate now.

She ventured out of her room. I just have to stay away from him, she thought.

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Beast Boy was in his room, thinking.  Why did Raven want to stay away from him? That was all he thought about. What did he have to do to redeem himself? And most of all… Why couldn't he stop thinking about her? He only had one solution. I just have to stay away from her, he thought. Just until I can find a way to help her, to help us.

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From then on, when both Beast Boy and Raven are in a room together, the both make up an excuse to leave and do so. Either that, or one of them does it and the other stays, trembling.

            Robin was eyeing them suspiciously. He walked over to Cyborg, who was watching TV.

"Um, hey Cyborg?" he asked. Cyborg turned to look.

"What?"

"Don't you think something's going on between Raven and Beast Boy?" They both watched as Raven, who was drinking her herbal tea, left after Beast Boy came into the kitchen.

"No!" said Cyborg sarcastically. "You think?"

"Do you think we should do something?" he asked.

"Nah, if he's smart enough, Beast Boy'll figure something out." Cyborg turned back to the TV.

"But you know as well as I do that-"

"I know, I know. You think Beast Boy's not smart enough. You know, you give him a lot less credit than he deserves."

"D-did- did you j-just stick up for B-Beast Boy?" asked Robin.

"Yes."

Robin fainted on the spot.

Starfire came into the room where Cyborg was watching TV.

"Cyborg, have you seen Robin? I wish to "hang out" with him." Starfire held her hands behind her back hopefully. Robin was the only person who was sane in this tower besides Raven, and Raven was probably busy meditating, according to her. Cyborg let out a small laugh.

"He's down there." The huge metal man pointed to an unconscious Robin on the floor behind the couch.

"Robin!" Star rushed to his side. "Robin wake up!" she shook him violently. "No! Robin!" The upset girl began crying.

"Relax, Star, he's not dead. He's just knocked out. Unconscious?" The metal man laughed again.

"How can somebody fall unconscious because too many people knocked?" She took her hand and knocked on Robin's skull. Cyborg sweat dropped. "'Knocked out' is another way to say 'unconscious', Star."

"Oh." She went into the kitchen. 2 minutes later:

"Is Robin awake yet?" Starfire called from the kitchen.

"No." 3 minutes later:

 "Is Robin awake yet?"

"No." 1 minute later:

"Is Rob-"

"No."

Star came out of the kitchen, bowl in hand. "I will try to wake Robin up now." Cy gasped in horror when he saw the contents was sadness pudding. "I thought that maybe if we ate sadness pudding, Robin would become jealous of us and wake up to eat with us!" The alien girl grinned. Cyborg groaned. And, unluckily for him, just the threat of having to smell the pudding woke Robin. But he still hated Cyborg for doing that to him, so he played dead. 5 minutes later:

A vomiting sound could be heard from the nearest bathroom.

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Raven, meanwhile, was in her room, sipping what was left of her herbal tea. She was completely bored. There was nothing to do. If she tried to meditate, she'd always end up thinking about Beast Boy. She picked up a picture of the team on her bedside table. She saw Beast Boy grinning from ear to ear. Somehow, everything led back to his corny jokes and perpetual smile. Well, no use sticking around here, she thought. I'd just end up thinking about him again. She got up and got a huge stack of spell books from her shelf on the wall. Might as well catch up on some reading. And what better place than the roof? There is nothing up there that can remind me of him. She kicked her door open and stepped outside into the hall.

"Oh… Hi Raven." Beast Boy glumly walked to the side of her. Beast Boy, here's your chance! You've been waiting to help her, so ask if you could help her carry her books, a small nagging voice said at the very back of his head. "Umm… Do you need help carrying those books?"

"No." Raven turned away harshly. It's the only way, she told herself. He doesn't understand.

"Ok, um… do you need anything? Like herbal tea?" he said hopefully.

"No." she said coldly. "Leave me alone." He was getting on her nerves.

"Are you sure because I could-"

"NO, Beast Boy."

She walked off and set her books down on the ground. Behind her, she heard Beast Boy mutter,

"I was just trying to make your life a little easier than it already is." Raven whirled around, seething.

"You think my life is easy?! You think living with a bloodthirsty demon that is your father inside you inside you is easy?!" She was yelling now. Robin, Starfire, and Cyborg came to see what the racket was all about. Raven was rambling on.

"I have so many emotions to handle, to keep bottled up inside me along with my father for the rest of my life, and you call my life EASY?! If I let one of my emotions slip, if I let off my guard for one second, my friends or innocent people could get hurt! You know why?" Tears were running down Raven's face. "And you know why?! Because I'm cursed! I'm cursed! That's right, I'M CURSED WITH THIS GODFORSAKEN POWER! I'M CURSED! DO YOU HEAR ME WORLD?! I'M CURSED!" Raven sat down on a nearby chair, one hand on forehead and her elbow on her knee, crying madly. "I'm cursed," she whispered, over and over to herself. Beast Boy came over and knelt by her side.

"Hey, hey. Don't cry," he whispered.

"Do you see what I mean?" she asked softly between sobs. She pointed to Robin and the other two titans. They were gasping for breath, having just barely escaped the books hurled at them by Raven's powers.

"Yeah, yeah, I know. I got my fair share too." He stepped aside to reveal open books on the ground, some pages torn. He sighed. "Just let it go. I'm here. I understand," he whispered.

"No." Raven got up. "You don't understand. No one does or ever will." With that she left, leaving Beast Boy to stare after her. A few seconds later, you could hear the sound of Raven's door shutting echoing throughout the halls.

The other titans just stood there, jaws dropped to the floor. They all were thinking the same thing. Did that just happen? Did Raven- did she really just have that huge outburst? They all exchanged glances and looked directly at Beast Boy.

"I-I've got t-to return Raven's b-books to her," stammered Beast Boy. He picked up the books and set them in a pile. "Robin, could you- yeah, thanks," he said as Robin put the stack of books on his back as he changed into a rhino.

The green horned animal set off for Raven's room very fast. When he got there he changed back into himself and caught the stack of books. He knocked.

Raven slid the door open to see half of her tear stained face.

"Oh, no- Beast Boy, I-" She started to close the door. Beast Boy caught the door where it was going to shut.

"Could you give someone a chance to understand?" Raven looked back at him.

"Ok…" she said softly, and let him in…

A/N: Cool. 10th chapter done! Please review! It'll make me so happy if I get more! 11th chapter coming soon!