Disclaimer: Chapter 11- I Can't
I don't own Teen Titans.
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"Ok…" Raven retreated back into her room and sat down on her bed by the window. Beast Boy followed hesitantly. He peered inside and slowly stepped in the gloomy-looking room. The violet-haired girl was looking out towards the ocean beyond smooth glass.
Raven marveled at the ocean's beauty even though what she was about to tell Beast Boy saddened her heart to the point of crumbling. Her bags were packed, and she had no need to turn back now.
She saw a dolphin break the surface gleefully and settle back down into the dark water to find its family. They swam up and nuzzled it and together they swam on, jumping out of the water and twirling every so often. Raven wished right then she could trade places with it. It was so carefree, no troubles, not a care in the world. It had family, friends to play with, to understand. It was free to express whatever feeling it had inside it; free to do whatever it wanted to. Not one of its family or friends would get hurt if its emotions slipped. Not one…
Tears streamed down her face as she looked up into the midnight sky above them. Misty clouds parted for her to see the full moon. Light raindrops fell from them, as if they were shedding tears for poor Raven. The full moon lit up the sky sorrowfully and moved away in shame. Stars blinked their comfort but it did no good. Birds looked down to her with long faces and some settled on her windowsill. They chattered slowly and softly to her as if their words could help. She lightly tapped on the window, motioning for them to go away. They flew off into the woods, but one stayed behind and turned back to look once more as if it understood all the vicissitudes of her life. Raven motioned for it to go, and it flew away fast to catch up with its family. The wind whistled a low note, a sad note, as if it could understand her worries. Trees waved their arms gracefully and tried to console her. But none of these things could undo all of the sorrow, sadness and worry firmly planted in poor Raven's soul.
Beast Boy saw this and his own heart saddened. A lot.
"Raven?" he whispered softly, making her snap out of her daze suddenly.
"Oh… Sorry… I-I got carried away…" She slid down onto her bed, looking down. He walked over and sat down next to her.
"So?" he said softly.
"Oh… That… Beast Boy?" she said slowly.
"Yes?"
"You heard me in the small clearing by the waterfalls, right?" Beast Boy nodded. "Then you heard what I said about me not being able to feel… right?" He nodded again slowly. "Well it's sort of the same thing here… except about a different emotion besides having fun and being happy… It's sort of the same thing, though… but it's stronger… much stronger…" Beast Boy looked puzzled. He looked towards the wall quickly. Cracks were beginning to show creeping up them. For the first time, he realized, the room was bare. Oh well, he thought.
Raven sighed softly, tears beginning to well up in her eyes. "Beast Boy…What I'm trying to say is that we can't- I can't- I can't…love you…" With that she got up slowly and left with a brown bag in hand.
Beast Boy just sat there on her bed, mouth open, and eyes wide. He was shocked. S-H-O-C-K-E-D. He felt like 100 electric volts had been shot through his body. He was blind as to what was happening in his head at that moment. In his mind, thoughts were wreaking havoc. What- Where- When- How- Why- AAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! Help! He screamed helplessly, trapped in his own mind. Ok. WHAT just happened? , he thought, after trying to sort out his thoughts. He went through the whole 'conversation' with Raven. She said that… she couldn't… love me… So does that mean she did? Or…does?
Beast Boy tried once more to sort out his mind, but no avail. He and his mind were stuck like that forever… Unless… He found someway to make her see that it's ok to love him… That's never going to happen, he thought sadly. Never…
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Raven glided out of her room sadly, tears streaming down her face for everyone to see. Her hood was down and the arm that was holding the bag crossed her middle, while the other rested on it, wiping away any tears that came by. Robin passed her in the halls, heading to her room.
"Raven? Are you crying?" He looked just as shocked as Beast Boy (if possible). Raven did nothing but glide silently past him, not even seeming to notice he was there. Robin said nothing more, not wanting to disturb her. Instead he walked on.
Before he had come, the other three titans had voted who should go see what was happening. It turned out to be Robin. He thought they cheated and teamed up on him, but all the same he thought it was fair. After all, there was no proof that they did cheat.
So there he was, walking down the hall to Raven's room, whistling softly as he went. Hands in pockets, (A/N: Does his uniform have pockets?) he reached Raven's open door and peered inside. Beast Boy was sitting on Raven's bed, frozen. He was not moving a muscle, not even to blink. He just sat there, frozen like a concrete statue in a park.
Robin waved his hand in front of Beast Boy's face.
"Hello? Anyone in there?" He knocked on his skull, awakening him from his 'sleep'. "Jeez, it looked like you were dead!" Beast Boy just stared at him, looking really dazed.
"Huh?" was all Robin could get from him. He rolled his eyes and helped him up.
"So, what happened?" Beast Boy looked really shaken while Robin said this. In fact, he was shaking.
"Raven- Said she- I- Could- She could not- me-" Beast Boy was hyperventilating by now.
"Whoa, calm down! Ok, lets get you somewhere where you can rest better than this and maybe tell us what happened." Beast Boy shook his head furiously. "NO!" he shouted suddenly. Robin backed off.
"Ok, you don't have to tell us what happened, that's ok. But we still have to get you someplace else. Raven's probably going to want her room back." Robin lugged Beast Boy to the door. Then he stopped, panting.
"Beast Boy, it would help if you could try to walk," he said between huge breaths. Beast Boy turned into a mouse. The green mouse didn't move more than he did in his own form, unfortunately.
"Ok, that helps too…I guess…" Robin shrugged it off and picked up the mouse with ease. He walked back to the kitchen where everyone was waiting for him to return. Starfire squealed when she saw them.
"Hello, my friends! How did it go?"
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Raven floated to the front door the long way so that she would not have to face the others. Sadly, still crying, she scribbled a note, put it in an envelope, put in a very small speaker and taped it on the door. It said this:
Dear Titans,
I have gone for a walk and I probably won't come back today. Maybe I won't ever come back… I'll find a place to stay, so don't worry about me. I'll somehow manage. I just… need some time by myself to think… and maybe leave for Azarath…I've left a small speaker in here if for some reason I ever need or want to contact you. Thank you for understanding.
RavenThe morning came and Starfire awoke sleepily. Getting dressed, she remembered what had happened last night. It wasn't pretty.
Flashback:
Robin walked in holding a small green mouse that they all knew was Beast Boy.
"He seems to be in a weird sort of zombie like state," Robin said. "Beast Boy? You can change back now." The mouse transformed quickly into a shivering Beast Boy.
"Jeez it's cold out here," he said the second he was in his own form. Star found a blanket and gave it to him.
"So, what happened?" asked Cyborg.
"He's not going to tell us that." Robin crossed his arms.
"Well, then, he's no use." Cy sighed.
"I can't tell you."
"Why not?"
"It's sort of …personal."
"Well then, off to bed!" Beast Boy sighed.
"Ok, I can tell you one thing." They all came rushing back to meet a very exasperated Beast Boy. Cy looked sort of…happy for some reason. Robin just looked… like nothing. Star was…jubilant.
"Oh good!" she squealed.
"Well?" they said eagerly.
"Her room was bare and it looked like…she was going to leave…" The room became silent.
"No, Raven wouldn't leave us! We're her friends!" Star said.
"Yeah, Raven wouldn't leave!" They all went back to their own rooms. Four 'good night's could be heard throughout the tower.
Goodnight, thought Beast Boy to himself. Good night.
End FlashbackStar glided out of her room happily humming to herself. She went into the kitchen, where the boys were already eating.
"Hello my friends! Have you seen Raven?"
"No," they all chorused. "Maybe she slept in." Cy and Robin were eating like pigs as usual, but Beast Boy was not. He was picking at his food and not even complaining about the meat. It was totally unlike him.
"I'm going to take a walk," he said as all eyes turned on him. He walked to the front door, where he found an envelope. He opened it and read the letter inside of it. His eyes grew wide with shock.
"Guys, come here, NOW!" the Titans scrambled out of their chairs to come look.
"What?" Robin asked.
"See for yourself," Beast Boy said grimly. They huddled around Robin as he read it out loud.
"Dear Titans, I have gone for a walk and probably won't come back today. Maybe I won't ever come back… I'll find a place to stay, so don't worry about me. I'll somehow manage. I just… need some time by myself to think… and maybe leave for Azarath… I've left a small speaker in here if for some reason I ever need or want to contact you. Thank you for understanding. Raven" The room was silent. Suddenly Beast Boy spoke up, whispering softly.
"She's gone…"
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Raven was sleeping in the streets peacefully, when cold woke her up. She hadn't gone very far; in fact, she was just 3 blocks away from the tower. She opened her eyes sleepily and jumped up with cold. Great. Snow and mist, she thought.
"The one day you had to let it snow! Today of all days!" she yelled to the skies. Groaning, she stood up. A blast of cold air hit her face, making her shiver and wrap her arms about her. It's colder than I thought, her mind said to no one but herself. She was beginning to feel faint.
"So…cold…" Her legs buckled underneath her weight and she fell to the ground on her knees.
Pure white snow fell lazily from the sky, getting tangled in Raven's hair. It seemed to whisper to her, Go back… go back… Snow was gathering around the psychic in piles. The wind whipped her bare legs harshly, pointing in the direction of the tower. Leaves rode the wind and cut her face as they flew by.
"No," she whispered to them. "No…" Raven hardly noticed these things. She wasn't hearing anything. Her mind went blank from the cold. She needed help… Grabbing a small speaker from her bag, she spoke into it.
"Titans… Help…" With that, her world became enveloped in darkness, and she fell to the ground and landed face-first into a pile of snow…
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Beast Boy was sitting in front of the speaker, waiting for Raven to call. He sighed.
"Robin?" he called.
"Yeah?"
"If Raven were to call, could we track her?" Beast Boy's eyes showed worry.
"Yeah, I guess, in maybe, 30 minutes…(A/N: Could they?) But there's no point in trying to get her to come back… she'll just run away again… Huh… I wonder what it was that made her leave…" He shook his head sadly.
"Don't you get it? She left because of me!"
"No, I really doubt that. There's nothing wrong with you."
"Yes, there is to Raven! And I know what it is! She left because of me because I'm me! Don't you get it?" Robin shook his head. Beast Boy groaned. "Uh, never mind…"
Suddenly, the small device beeped. Beast Boy gasped. Someone came on.
"Titans…Help…" a raspy voice called out.
"Guys! Come quick! Raven called! She needs help!" he yelled. Starfire, Cyborg, and Robin all came running.
"She did?"
"Yeah! Ok, Robin, start tracking from where Raven called. Here. Start with this." Beast Boy tossed him the speaker. "Cy, Star, get whatever medical things she might need. Blankets, bandages, ect. We need whatever we can bring we don't know what condition she's in. she might be sick, or frozen, or – Just bring whatever we can." Cy and Robin exchanged glances that said, Since when does he take charge? But Star knew. Since Raven needed help… her eyes said. They all did what they were told, and ½ an hour later, they were all in the living room again, sharing their information and supplies.
"Ok," said Beast Boy. "Let's go."
When Raven came to, a knife was pressed to her throat. Her eyes flew open and she gasped softly. Two men were positioned in front of her, one holding a gun, and the other holding nothing. A third was pressing the knife to her throat.
"Hello, girlie," said the one holding the gun. "My name's Ralph. And these are my goons. Jack," He motioned to the one with the knife. ", and Mike."
"What do you want?" Raven asked coldly.
"Whoa, harsh! This is just a game!" he smiled a very fake smile. His expression turned back to grim in a blink. "We just want your money," said Ralph. He laughed maniacally, which was just creepy to the psychic.
"I don't have any money. All I have is this bag, my clothes, and the rest of my belongings, which is not much." She narrowed her eyes. "I don't have any money." She was actually telling the truth.
"Really now? Well, we'll just take all of that then." He moved closer.
"Obviously you aren't familiar with the Teen Titans," Raven said in a mocking voice. "Azarath, Metrion, Zinthos!" she yelled at the top of her lungs. The two men were flung back by a blast of black energy. She took the knife and flung it behind her. She took the other guy's hand and threw him onto his back. She was breathing heavily. She stumbled over to Ralph and kicked his gun away.
"Game over." She said n a menacing tone.
"Not just yet," a voice behind her said. "Not just yet." Jake (the goon with the knife) came up behind her and again put the knife to her throat.
"I hate you…" Raven muttered angrily. Meanwhile the other two had recovered. Ralph got his gun and pointed it at Raven.
"Now we can do this the hard way," He cocked the gun. " or we can do the easy way and no one gets hurt. Got it?" Raven nodded angrily. "Now here are the rules. Touch one of my men and you die. We take your bag, and you don't do anything drastic. You don't use your freakish power, and you don't call the police. Got it?" Raven nodded again. "Now there's a good girl," he said, making her angry.
Just then, the Titans arrived. Beast Boy peeked out from the corner.
"Raven!" he shouted. Raven turned to look. So did Ralph.
"Beast Boy!" Raven gasped. The Titans dropped what they were holding, ready to fight. Beast Boy was the first to move. He transformed into a giant T-rex and roared. The three men yelled in fright. Beast Boy picked them up by the legs so that they were hanging upside down and hung them straight over his open mouth. They whimpered loudly.
"Now, don't ever touch my friend here again, got it?" They nodded. "Ok, good." He set them down and they ran.
Cy and Robin exchanged looks.
"Since when is he so mad," whispered Robin.
"I don't know, but remind me not to piss him of," Cy replied.
Meanwhile, Beast Boy reverted back to his normal form. He ran over to Raven. "Are you okay?" He offered an arm. Raven took it and with the help of Beast Boy, stood up. She was slightly wobbling.
"Yeah, I'm fine," she said. "Thanks." She began to walk away, bag in hand
"Wait! Aren't you going to come back to the tower with us?" Raven stopped and turned around.
"What's that supposed to mean?"
"Well, you obviously can't survive on your own out here on the streets." Raven put her hands on her hips.
"And that is why, I AM GOING BACK TO AZARATH!" she yelled at him, making him jump. She kept on walking until she disappeared into the mist.
"Come on, BB, we gotta go," Robin said after a few minutes of silence.
"Ok, you go and I'll catch up later." Robin had the feeling something fishy was going to happen, but he shrugged it off and ran to catch up with the other Titans. Beast Boy became determined. Shape-shifting into a lizard, he darted after her into the darkness…
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