IN THE WAITING LINE.

BY: A-LASTING-IMPRESSION

Title: In The Waiting Line
Type: 7th Heaven Fan Fiction
Rating: PG-13 (Sex, Alcohol, Drugs, Violence)
Disclaimer: I don't own the characters of 7th Heaven. I do own all my original characters and this story, though. Don't take.
Summary: Ruthie Camden has become something she's not. How did she get there and why is she so angry with herself? Shifts from present, past, and future. Please R&R.

NOTES.

Thanks for the reviews. I'm glad you've read it. ;)

Daisuke-n-Dark- I appreciate your review. I'm glad you like the story and I'm thankful for the constructive critisism. There's no dialogue in this chapter either, but expect a lot in the chapters to come. I'm obsessed with dialogue and have been trying to get away from that so much. I'm also glad you mentioned the rating. I'm leaving it T for now because it's not graphic, but I'll post a warning in the prologue and the rating may up eventually. Thanks for that!

CHAPTER ONE: MUSES IN MAY.

May, 2005 -- Ruthie

He broke up with me. I don't know what I did wrong. I thought that I'd been a good girlfriend, but maybe I was just kidding myself. He probably goes for the more popular girls. It seems like those are the only kinds of girls that guys are interested in these days. Maybe it's always been like that. I'm not sure, but it makes me angry. It's sad that in high school, everything is one big popularity contest. When I say everything, I'm not exaggerating. When the school was having elections for class offices for next year, everyone laughed at the serious-minded kids and promoted the popular kids. Who won? Take a big, fat guess. That's right, Elaine Moore.

Elaine is the most popular girl in school and has been since I can remember. I don't have any problems with her personally, but I've heard from reliable sources that she's a real bitch. I've also heard that she's slept with most of the student body. I don't know why guys go for the easy girls. I guess it makes them feel more satisfied physically, but I think it's stupid. Those aren't the kind of girls that guys are going to want to marry and have children with someday. Then again, do I want to get married and have children? That seems to be what ruined my own mom's life. She says she has no regrets about her choices in life, but sometimes I wonder if she's really telling the truth. Mom used to be different, but lately she's changed. I don't believe that it's all menopause crap that made her change. I think she's starting to have those 'what if' questions rise in her mind. If I was her, so would I.

People make fun of me because I'm the 'preacher's kid'. I don't want to be the preacher's kid forever. Sure, it's cool that my dad helps other people with their problems. After awhile, though, it gets annoying that he's always at the church. I can't remember a Sunday that I didn't go to church. Other kids don't even go to church. I like church, but I wish I didn't have the pressure of having to go every single Sunday. Since I'm a teenager now, I'm expected to 'help out' with everything. I can't even drive yet, but I basically know how to run a church.

I'm not a normal teenage girl. Maybe that's why Vincent ended it. I really liked him. I guess I didn't think that he'd be my true love, but having a boyfriend was the closest I'd ever come to being normal. I don't know why I wanted to be normal so much, but it seemed to be what I strived for more. I'm like a freak in my own town. Mary and Lucy were dating when they were younger than me. Maybe it's because I always seemed like the baby that it's so uncomfortable for me to be growing up. The thing that my family doesn't understand is that I want to grow up. I want to grow up more than anything I've ever wanted in my life. If I could, I'd get on a plane today and fly to God knows where just to get away from family and Glen Oak for once.

Mac is visiting Martin. They're probably studying or talking about girls in his apartment. Part of me wishes that Martin hadn't moved into the garage apartment. I liked it when Mac would come over to the house. At night, when most everyone was asleep, I would sneak to Martin's door and listen to them talk. They never talked about me, though. Then again, why would they mention me? I'm just the minister's daughter. That's probably all I am to them. That's probably the only reason they're even nice to me. Maybe they feel sorry for me because I have Eric Camden for a father. Thinking about it now, I would feel sorry for me too if I was in their shoes.

Maybe if I acted like all the other girls at school, Vincent or Mac would like me again. If I dressed like them and wore more makeup, would I be more attractive to them? Guys always go for the pretty girls with the blonde hair and the big boobs. If I dyed my hair blonde and got implants, would I be a magnet for guys? Probably not. I'm still the minister's daughter. It's not like I'd completely change myself for a guy, but what if I just changed small things? Maybe I should try putting myself out there a little more. Maybe it will work. Maybe I'll become the girl that all the guys, including Vincent, want and dream about. Maybe I'll be that girl for once in my stupid life. Maybe, maybe.