Chapter 6, here we go! I'm finally getting around to writing it, it's been a while since I've worked on the story but there's just so much going on atm. I'm going to try and finish this in two days but idk about that yet.

I just want to warn everyone beforehand, you're going to hear some stuff about Nigari and Ga Eul that you would not expect from her in the drama. I just want to remind everyone that this is my version of Ga Eul and this is how I make her up to be. Her past does not define who she is sexually, I believe that she would be strong enough to get through it and allow Nigari to touch her in that way as well. They had been together for ages after all. I also believe that Nigari could really be the rock that she needed to start coming out of her shell. So, just know that Ga Eul will be talking about stuff that could make you wonder what the hell happened to her.

Hope you enjoy x


After being locked up in the Song estate for a full week, I was very happy when Nigari agreed to take me out for lunch on Friday afternoon. That's how we ended up in a diner near the porridge shop at 13 in the afternoon, sitting across from each other and glaring at the other person. I'd said something Nigari was not happy about and ever since then, we'd been glaring at each other.

It had made the server feel awkward when he put the dish in front of us. One look between the two of us and he quickly set it down without saying anything and hurried away.

"You're not doing it." He snapped before picking up his utensils and starting to eat.

I rolled my eyes and copied his movements, not even saying anything to him. A couple of minutes went by like that, eating in silence while occasionally giving each other a hard glare. Both too stubborn to actually comment on what had happened because we were both convinced that we knew best. It was one of the reasons we called it quits in the end, because we both were too stubborn to admit anything was wrong which meant we kept it to ourselves until we exploded.

And we did. We exploded multiple times.

It did not always lead to hot, earth-shattering make up sex. More often than not it just led to us leaving the other with banging doors and not talking for days and then going back to each other as if nothing had happened.

Yeah, we're great friends and once upon a time we were an even better couple but these days? We'd destroy each other fully if we were to ever try again.

The bell above the door chimed and Nigari looked up, seeing who'd entered. Whoever it was, was quite shocking to the Japanese male as his eyes grew round as saucers. I didn't even have to turn around to find out who it was as the person yelled out to us, "Nigari, Ga Eul... I didn't know you two were here."

"Let's join them."

Woo Bin and Ha Jae Kyung... Would the others be with them as well?

Would Yi Jeong be with them?

Dear God, let it only be those two.

Two tables were pulled up next to our table and more than two chairs were added to the set up.

Yi Jeong was with them. All of the F4 was here. Jan Di was not around though. At least one good thing.

I loved her, I really did but I'd been gone for a week without so much as a peep and she has not called once or sent a text to check up on me. According to Woo Bin, she wasn't even that concerned at school, did not ask if any of them had seen me.

Did she really not notice my disappearance?

So much for being best friends.

Jae Kyung sat down next to Nigari, who in turn grew red in his face. Jae Kyung herself was not her chatty or bubbly self and looked rather awkward sitting next to the Japanese male. Woo Bin sat down next to me on one side and the other side became occupied by Ji Hoo, who offered me a kind smile. It made me smile in return, his presence had something calming about it.

Woo Bin leaned in closer to me, "Is it just me or are those two awkward around each other?"

His whispered words were only heard by myself and Ji Hoo, who nodded in agreement. At the same time both Yi Jeong and Jun Pyo came into the shop and occupied the two remaining chairs. Still no Jan Di.

I whispered as well, "Yes, exactly. As if they have a past together."

"And not a good one." Ji Hoo completed.

Realization dawned on me and I threw down the metal chopsticks which made all the others at the table look at me, "It's her, isn't it?"

"What?" Nigari played dumb.

I rolled my eyes, "She's the reason, isn't she? She's the reason you left me! You left me for Ha Jae Kyung, did you not?"

"You're his ex?" Jae Kyung asked, sitting upright and looking at me with wide eyes. Sadness instantly filled them and I knew, I knew that she knew and that Nigari had told her. "You were the one who wa-"

"Yes!" The only four people, myself included, who knew interrupted her.

"So you went from me to her?" I sneakily winked at Jae Kyung so she knew I was joking, "That's quite the step down."

"Ga Eul!" Nigari cried.

Jae Kyung scoffed, "Pff, little girl. I did things to him that you could never dream of."

I laughed, "Like fucking in the garden of a Buddhist Temple?"

"Ga Eul!" Nigari's eyes grew even wider, shocked that I would talk so openly about it. "That's-"

"Or give him road head while he was driving 90 miles per hour?" I went on, "Wait, did you two also have sex in an elevator that went up and down in a hotel, with the risk of getting caught at any moment."

Jun Pyo looked scarlett red in the face, Ji Hoo looked uncomfortable as well but the two players were the ones who shocked me the most. They were literally speechless. Didn't know what to say.

Jae Kyung broke character and leaned closer, "Wait, you two actually did that?"

"Yes, we did but I didn't know we were sharing sex stories, to be honest." Nigari intervened, "What the hell, Ga Eul?!"

"Oh, she did you a favor, Nigari." Jae Kyung quickly interjected, "There are two women behind you who have been eyeing you for a while. They'll be sure to approach you now that they know just how... liberal you are. One question though-"

"The garden of a temple?" Woo Bin cut her off, "For real? That is real."

I nodded, "Yeah. Noshimuro and his son wanted to go pray. Nigari and I had limited time together so we tagged along but neither of us are particularly religious and so we just went around the property and one thing led to another. It just happened."

"It just happened?" Yi Jeong repeated, his face dark as he glared at Nigari, "What? You just slipped and fell on his dick? What kind of a s-"

"Don't finish that sentence, So Yi Jeong." Nigari quickly stopped him, "Do not even think that of her. At that point, Ga Eul and I had already been together for 3 years and had been through hell and back. What we did was normal for a couple. You're the Casanova of Korea, are you not? You cannot tell me that you've bedded all of your women in an actual bed. No, last week you were seen fucking some random girl in an alley so if anyone is a slut here, it is you. At least Ga Eul and I were never caught."

"Well-"

"When we were out in public." My ex quickly said, "Yeah, some people barged in on us in our bedroom but we were never caught in public. So what? Ga Eul and I liked to be adventurous, so do you. What's the difference between you and this angel here? Except for the fact of course that Ga Eul has only ever been with one man and that's me."

"Well, that's not exactly true, is it?" He bit out.

His tone made me shut up, not that I could or would have said anything to him about it because he was right. Nigari was not my only bedpartner, as much as I had wanted him to be, there'd been another man who'd been there.

"Bro." Woo Bin snapped, "Not okay. You know what happened. That went too far."

"No, he's right." I said, silently staring ahead of me, not meeting anyone's eye. "Whether I wanted to with that man or not, he did sleep with me."

"Wait-" Jun Pyo finally interrupted, "Ga Eul, were you..."

"Yes, when I was 13 in Japan." I rushed out but could not stay there anymore.

Was I overreacting? Probably. That night did not define me anymore but on the other hand, I'd kept it silent for 6 years and it was not something I was proud of. In fact, I was ashamed of myself. I allowed myself to be used like that. I didn't fight back, it was pathetic. I just laid there, not moving. I couldn't, no matter how much I tried and it wasn't as if he had drugged me to do it.

With tears in my eyes, I stood up and rushed out of the diner. I didn't care that I was under threat, I didn't wait for anyone to follow me but instead got lost in the crowd. From behind me I could hear So Yi Jeong calling my name, telling me to wait for him but I didn't listen to his orders and just sped up, quickly weavnig through the people and losing Yi Jeong behind me. After a couple of minutes I couldn't hear him anymore and thought I was safe.

If only I knew.