Oh look, another chapter way ahead of schedule. Anyone happy? And I already posted my happy little one shot called A Moment in Eternity. Anyone who likes happy feelings should go read it if you haven't. So wow, 12 chapters. This is now the longest fic I have ever written, and I think it is only half way done. Can you say wow again? I can, but I won't. So, I was sick from school today, I had a lot of time on my hands, and I had most of this chapter written, I just had to finish it and edit. And now it's all done. Enjoy!

Disclaimer: do I have to do this every time? I own nothing! Have you suddenly become stupid? Can you not read the disclaimer on all of the other chapters? Ah! Ok, I'm calm again.

Italics are thoughts.

Chapter 12: Nightmares lead to Freak-outs

Lorelai woke up suddenly. She was covered in sweat and was panting. She had just had another one of her nightmares,

But this one was where Rory had taken Jake from Lorelai and then handed the baby Luke. Rory, Luke, and Jake had then somehow disappeared, leaving Lorelai crying. The odd thing was that she had had a crib appear in front of her and just as she went to pick up the baby from inside, the crib disappeared leaving Lorelai all alone in an empty black room.

This was the dream that she had just woken up from. She quickly pushed the covers off herself and rushed to the bathroom. She ended up emptying the contents of her stomach into the toilet. After about 5 minutes of that unpleasant experience, she leaned back against the wall. Why am I always left alone in this same position? She asked herself.

She slowly rose from the floor and walked over to the sink. She splashed some water on her face. She could see the circles that had formed under her eyes and she wondered if any amount of makeup could cover them up. Probably not, she thought.

She then felt a yearning to hold Jake suddenly wash over her. She wanted to hold her baby. He was he only thing that could make her forget about real life for even just a few minutes. She quickly rushed back to the guest room and grabbed her coat, pulled on some shoes, and then rushed down the stairs and out the front door. She didn't know why but she found herself quickly making her way home.

When she got there she rushed inside to find Luke sleeping on the couch. He didn't stir when she closed the door, and so she tiptoed over to Rory's room. She slowly opened the door to find Jake sleeping peacefully in his crib. She walked over to the crib.

"Hey baby. I'm sorry I left you with daddy ALL night long. It's amazing that he even got you to sleep." she whispered to him. She carefully lifted him out of the crib. He started to move slightly but as soon as he felt the warmth of Lorelai's body against his, he fell back into a deep slumber. Lorelai lay down on Rory's bed and repositioned Jake so that his head was placed between her breasts. Lorelai wrapped her arms around his tiny body and fell asleep peacefully-- without any reoccurring nightmares.

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Luke had seen it all. He had heard her come in, but he had not moved because he was afraid that she would decide to leave again. He couldn't risk it. He then watched her from the doorway. He saw her talk to Jake. He saw her pick him up. He saw how Jake responded to his mother. He watched how Lorelai had laid down on the bed and fallen fast asleep. He smiled. Lorelai was always wonder woman to Luke. She had always had some power over every person she was around. Her bond with Jake was even stronger than the one that Lorelai and Luke shared.

It was understandable considering that Jake had grown inside of her for 9 months, but Luke had never thought that any other person would be as close to Lorelai as himself. He just stood there in the doorway for about half an hour before he forced himself to go lay back down and get some sleep. He would have time in the morning to talk to Lorelai.

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Lorelai woke up to the smell of coffee and French toast. God did her nose pick up more! She looked down at the little baby that was still fast asleep in her arms. She would never be able to explain how much she loved him. No one would ever understand the magnitude of love that Lorelai had for Jake. Ever. She slowly rose from the bed trying hard not to wake Jake up. Once up she placed him in his crib and made her way to the door.

Oh no! She had not thought about how Luke would react! She was there, and he probably didn't know! Wait, he would have checked on Jake by now and then would have noticed that I'm home. Plus Luke doesn't eat French toast. She then just decided to just go out and go from there. She exited the room to see a cup of coffee on the table accompanied by the French toast that she had smelled. Also standing over the stove was Luke. Luke turned to look at her and she flashed him a feeble smile.

"Good morning." he greeted.

"Morning. This for me?" she asked gesturing towards the food. Of course it was, but she didn't know where she and Luke stood.

"yeah." he answered. Lorelai sat down at the table and let the hunger overtake her. She dug into the food and within 4 minutes, all of the food was gone. When she looked up from her empty plate she saw Luke staring at her.

"What?" she asked in puzzlement.

"Nothing, it's just, last night, and now this morning…" he started.

"Luke, can you just give me five more minutes before we go into explaining everything." she requested. Luke gave her a confused face. "bathroom." she added. She then exited the kitchen and ran up to the bathroom. Thank god she didn't feel like vomiting because she didn't know how much of that she could take.

When she walked back downstairs she found Luke holding Jake. He was talking to the little baby who was smiling up at his father. Lorelai hid herself from view as he listened in on the "conversation".

"So how did you sleep last night with mommy? Did she hold you? Hm? Yeah, I know she is crazy." Luke said to Jake. Just then Lorelai walked into the kitchen. Luke's smile immediately disappeared and was replaced by an expression of seriousness.

"Come see your mommy!" Lorelai commanded playfully to Jake. He reached out his arms to her. Luke handed the baby over and spoke.

"So…" he started.

"So we need to talk." Lorelai finished as Jake tried to take the cookie he was holding and smash it into Lorelai's face. "Thank you!" she commented as the cookie was pushed into her mouth. "How about you eat it! And then later you try that on daddy!" she suggested.

"Yes we do. Lorelai I'm sorry about last night but you have to understand that I have the right to be worried about you." Luke insisted. Here we go again! I'm Luke's property; he has the right to worry about me because hey, if he doesn't, then who will he sleep with! Did I just think that? Where did that thought come from? She questioned in her head.

"But it doesn't mean that you have a right to yell at me when I refuse to tell you what is wrong. I told you that I was sick! You have to either accept that, or just leave me alone and wait for me to tell you what really is wrong!" she argued back. Oops.

"So are you saying that you were lying when you said that you were sick? Were you? Because I would really like to know where the truth in this relationship went!" he yelled at her. Both Lorelai and Jake jumped. Was this really happening? Was Luke really accusing her of lying? Well she was. Just then the phone rang. What was it with phones and their power to interrupt the tensest of situations? Lorelai picked it up off the table and answered it.

"Hello?"

"Lorelai? Is that you?" Sookie's frantic voice echoed through the phone.

"Yes it is. What's wrong Sookie?" Lorelai asked worriedly. Jake then started to chew on Lorelai's hair--all interest in the cookie was gone now.

"Oh god! You weren't here and I thought something happened to you!" she said as her rapid breathing started to slow down.

"Sookie, it's Stars Hollow. What could possibly happen here?" she asked.

"You're right, but I worried. So, you're at home now? Did you talk it over with Luke yet? Does he know?" Sookie asked.

"I'm at home, not exactly, and no. not even close. So is there something else you need?" Lorelai asked.

"Well, actually, Michel just called and--" Sookie started.

"What did he do now?" Lorelai asked annoyed at the thought that Michel had done something wrong, yet again.

"He didn't do anything, but it seems that half our staff has called in sick, so they need you there." she said hoping Lorelai wouldn't try and kill her over the phone.

Lorelai sighed. What a day. "Ok, can you tell him I will be there in about ten minutes?" she requested of Sookie.

"Ok, I'll see you there." Sookie said and then the line went dead. Lorelai slammed the phone on the table.

"I need to go. Rory said she's going to pick Jake up sometime today, so here." she said as she handed over the little baby. She didn't want to leave him but she couldn't go to work and be distracted by him all day long. She then rushed up the stairs to change quickly. Luke had a stunned expression on his face. Was that the talk? Were they done? Done with what exactly?

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Grammy's are on soon! I must go watch them, so I will make this quick. Please review. I need them after the horrible day I had. Staying at home with the feeling of nausea all day is not fun. Sorry you had to read that.

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