A/N- Sorry for the delay. I have been meaning to update, but I have been so busy, and then I tried to up date on Georgie...well enough excuses here is what you have been asking for.
-The Next Morning-
Derek's eyes were hesitant to open. He knew there was something warm against his chest, but he could not think of what it could be. Reluctantly he opened his eyes. As they came into focus all he saw was red hair. He then realized who it was. He slowly ran his free hand through her hair and inhaled. She still smelled like she always had. He never could explain her smell, but he knew it well. As he laid there he thought back to one of the happiest times of their lives.
-Flashback-
Derek drew lazy circles on Addison's arm. She looked over at him and smiled. "A penny for your thoughts." she offered.
He looked up at her. "I was just thinking how amazing this is." He lifted her tank top slightly to reveal her flat stomach "That in here there is a baby. A human being that will look like you and me." He laid his large hand over her stomach. "No matter how much I know about how the body works I am always amazed by the gift of life." He smiled sheepishly at his child like amazement. "It probably doesn't amaze you as much, seeing as you work with it everyday. I mean you fix mother nature's mistakes."
Addison laid her smaller hand over his. "Everyday I am amazed. It never turns into something that you can't marvel at." She smiled and leaned over to kiss him. He pulled her into his arms and laid both hands on her abdomen. "I know that it doesn't really matter, but what do you want? A boy or a girl?"
Derek chuckled. He knew that this question would be asked eventually. "Well, I could irritate you and say that all I want is a healthy baby, but I'm not going to." He smiled when she gave him a mean look. "Honestly I kind of want a little girl. One with your hair and eyes, but maybe not as much attitude." For that comment he was rewarded with an elbow in the gut.
"Watch it buddy, or you are going to be in trouble." she said in a reprimanding tone.
Derek quickly flipped her on her back and leaned over her. "Oh, and how would I be punished?"
Addison gave him a seductive smile. "I'll tell you." she whispered and motioned for him to lean in. Just as he was off balance Addi pushed him off and turned out the lamp.
"And she can not have your sense of humor."
Again her elbow made contact with his body. "Goodnight Derek." she said happily.
He wrapped his arms around her and pulled her to him. "Goodnight Ninja Girl." He whispered in her ear, then kissed her lovingly on the lips.
-End of Flashback-
Derek sighed and noticed where his hands had wandered. He hand unknowingly laid them on her stomach "Oh Addi where are you? I just want you back. I want to hold you, talk to you, heck I even want to fight with you." He knew that the woman he was holding was biologically Addison Montgomery, but without the memories she was not the same.
-3 weeks later-Thanksgiving Day-
Derek, Addi, Sav, Weiss, Tina, and Chris all sat around Sav and Weiss' dinning room table eating a wonderful Thanksgiving meal. Addison remained quiet all evening. She would listen to the conversations, and soak them up like a sponge. She knew a little about the couples, but only what Derek had told her. She had gotten to know Sav a little during the past week. Derek had had to go back to work, and asked Savy to sit with Addi until he got home. Addison had immediately liked Sav, and the two were becoming close friends, again.
That evening when Derek and Addison were back home they both remained quiet. Addison went to bed early,and Derek staid up working on some charts. About two hors after Addi went to bed Derek heard banging coming from upstairs. "Addi!" He called out. There was no response, except for more banging. He stopped what he was doing and ran upstairs. He ran into their bedroom to find Addison sitting amongst a myriad of photo albums. She looked up at him with tears cascading down her delicate cheeks. He saw a few albums that were across the room. Which he deduced had made the banging sound. "Addi what's wrong?"
"I hate this!" she cried.
"Hate what?"
"Thais..." she gestured around her. "This is what my memory is like; a photo album I have all these memories, but they are in no order. I have feelings I can't explain, feelings so real, but pointless without the memories they go with."
He slowly walked towards her and sat down. "What kind of feelings?"
"Well,let's use you as an example. I know I love you, but I don't know why. Every time you touch me I get a chill up my spine, and my heart races. I know that if I hurt you I would be heartbroken. I also know that I have broken your heart, and I don't know how, to be I honest I don't want to know. I love you Derek, but I have no reason that I can remember for feeling this way. I hate it! I want to love you because I am your wife of eleven years with eleven years of memories to back up my love. I want to be the woman I was!" She cried hard and threw another album
Derek attempted to wrap his arms around her, but she pushed him away. Being determined to help he tried again, and this time she didn't have the strength to fight him off. She melted into his embrace. "Shh... shh." he soothed. "I can't imagine how hard it is for you, but know that I love you and you love me, and the whys and how comes do not matter." He ran his hand over her back, and tear trickled down his face. The other time he had heard Addi cry this hard was when they had lost Elana. That night he held her, closer and tighter then he had in a long time. He had said I love you to her, finally he could say it again. Was it because she was hurting, or because she didn't even remember hurting him? He didn't know, but was scared to find out.
-2 Weeks later-
The next two weeks passed swiftly. Addison was able to get her cast off, and she had become more stable, emotionally. Derek now felt comfortable leaving her at home alone while he was at work. They had tried everything to help bring her memory back, but nothing was working. They were steadily learning how to cope with that. As Derek stood in the kitchen making dinner he saw Addison come in from her jog around the neighborhood. "It is starting to snow." She said happily.
"Well according to the weatherman there is supposed to be two feet by morning." Derek watched Addi's eyes light up like a child's when he said this.
"What are you making?" she asked as she stood behind him. His hair stood up on the back of his neck at her close proximity. All he could think of was wanting to take her in his arms and kiss her. He had to remind himself that she was not the same woman. "Hello...anyone there?" He was snapped out of his reverie by Addison's hand, which had just made contact with the back of his head.
He grabbed the back of his head and looked back at Addi who had a smirk on her face. "What did you say?"
"I asked you what you were making."
"I am making Chicken Fettuccine, and salad."
"That sounds good." She walked to the refrigerator and took out a bottle of water. "I remembered something while I was jogging tonight."
"Yeah? What was it?" He asked interested. He removed the pasta from the hot eye of the stove and placed it on one that had not been used. Then he turned to face her and gave her his full attention.
"Well, it's not totally complete, but it's more then before. It was about when you proposed to me. I remembered that it was snowing, and you took me to the barn at my parents house. You proposed to me in the loft." she stood quiet for a second, then said "Why the loft?"
Derek sighed, he didn't really want to remember all of this, because it hurt too much. "Because that is where we first met."
"I thought that we met at college."
"Well, we did. But later on we realized that we actually met in your parents loft. I came there because a friend of mine was thinking about buying one of your parents horses, and I told him I would check it out while I was in Kentucky. I had to come for a conference before school started. Anyway I came into the barn and no one was there except for you."
"And I was in the loft." she finished for him, and he nodded. "I have a feeling we didn't hit it off did we?"
He began to laugh hysterically. "Defiantly not, I mentioned about how if this place was as good as it was supposed to be then there should be someone other than a stable hand to answer my questions." He burst out laughing again. "You proceeded to inform me that you were the daughter of the man who owned the farm, and that the reason you were the only one there is because one of your horses was in the Kentucky Derby. Boy did I feel like an idiot." He said shaking his head.
"Well from what you said you should be thanking your lucky stars that I actually took you into my life." she said as she snuck a piece of carrot from the cutting board.
Derek gave her a dirty look and pointed the knife at her. "You better watch it. I'm the one with all the knives." Addison just rolled her eyes. "Don't roll your eyes at me." he said sarcastically. Addi ignored him and grabbed another piece. "One more time and you are going to feel my wrath."
"Ooo, I'm scared." As she laughed she grabbed another piece and bolted out of the kitchen.
"That's it! You better not get that carrot anywhere near your mouth!" He yelled and began to run after her. He heard her scream as he almost caught her. "Did you eat it!" "Yes." she yelled back. He chased her up the stairs laughing all the way. She again let out a scream. "I'm so going to get you Addison Elizabeth Montgomery!" Addison ran into their bedroom and jumped onto their bed. Derek didn't stop coming towards her, but simply toppled onto the bed pinning her down. Addison was out of breath and laughing uncontrollably. Derek laughed and looked down at Addi's face. He gently moved her hair out of her eyes. He simply stared at her not saying anything.
"What?" she asked with a smile.
"I...I think I've fallen in love with you." He said huskily. Addison stared at him speechless, then without any thought she leaned up and kissed with all she had. He quickly released her arms, which instinctively went around his waist. He followed her lead and began to run his hands through her hair. "Wait!" he pushed up and tried to catch his breath. "Are you sure about this?"
She smiled tenderly. "I have never been more sure of anything in my life." He nodded and went back to what he had been doing. "Wait! Derek what about dinner?"
"I turned the stove off, and it will reheat." That was the last full sentence uttered for a while.
-6 am- the next morning-
Derek heard the alarm go off, but didn't want to acknowledge it. He felt something heavy on his chest and looked down to see Addi's head. "Addi wake up." she didn't move. "Addison you have got to wake up."
"No." she mumbled into his chest. "It's too early."
"I know, but you have to move so I can go to work."
"Ugh." She groaned as she slid over to her side of the bed. Derek slipped out and got ready for work. As he was about to leave Addison padded downstairs in her silk robe and house shoes. He walked up to her and pulled her to him. "I have to go, but I will see you tonight." He kissed her softly on the lips. She began to deepen it, but he pulled away. "We can't do this or I will never make it to work. But tonight..." He raise his eyebrow and gave her a quick kiss. "Bye, love you." He left quickly before he gave in to her charms. All the way to work he was grinning like an idiot. Last night they had turned over a new leaf, and everything was going to be good. If only he had the ability to see into the future, then he would have known that that same day was going to change their life.
A/N- Okay, I am sorry I took so long. I know you don't like waiting, and I am sorry, but here you go. I will try to update soon. You have to understand that I am also writing this still, it is not finished. It is in my head, but not on paper.
