A/N- Okay, okay I know that I haven't updated in a long time. I could use the excuse that I was walking down the street one day and I had my story in my hand, then all of a sudden I bumped into Patrick Dempsey and my story flew out of my hand, and of course I couldn't chase it down the street because I was too busy giving Patrick my number. Would you believe me? Probably not, so I am not going to tell you that. I am sorry that I haven't updated, but here you are the next to the last chapter. Well here goes, hope you enjoy.

-5:30 P.M. - Same Day-

Addison stood barefoot in the kitchen cutting vegetables and listening to Frank Sinatra. She checked her watch and saw that Derek would be home in about an hour. This gave her plenty of time to get dinner ready. She had a recipe for homemade soup and decided she would give it a try. She felt like she remembered Derek liking it, but she could no longer distinguish between what she knew and what she thought she knew. She heard the door open and then checked her watch. "You're home early." She said loudly. She then felt him wrap his arms around her waist. "I missed you." She said warmly.

"I missed you too."

Addison jumped and turned around. The man who she looked at was not Derek. "Who are you?" she asked with her knife pointed at him.

"Come on Ad, I know we haven't seen each other in a while, but how could you forget me?" He asked with his arms out wide as if showing her what she had missed.

"How did you get in my house?" she asked her voice shaky.

"I have a key." He dangled it for her to see. "Remember? Derek made me one. Come on Ad, Derek won't be home for a while so why don't you and I go upstairs." H started to approach her, but she quickly backed farther away from him.

"I don't know who you are, but you better get out of my house, or I promise I will hurt you!"

He walked toward her with a smug grin on his face. "Awe I guess I will have to persuade you like I did the last time. Come on Addi." He grabbed her wrist tight causing her to release the knife.

"No!" She cried as he pushed her backwards. Addison switched to fight mode and kicked him hard in the shin. He let go and grabbed his leg in pain. Just as she was about to get away he grabbed her foot causing her to lose her balance and fall. As she fell her head made contact with the corner of the kitchen table.

Mark stood up painfully then gave her an evil grin. "Come on Ad let's get this over with."

"I don't think so." Mark turned around and was met with Derek's fist. "You jerk!" Derek yelled as he kicked Mark in the side while he was on the ground.

"Derek stop!" Addison yelled as she struggled to get up.

"Are you okay?" he asked as he examined her cut forehead.

"Yeah, I just need a band-aid."

"Are you sure?" He was pulling her eyelids back checking her pupil reactions. They were normal, and then he started to look her over checking for any other wounds.

Addison lovingly took his hands in hers. "Derek I am fine." She looked around at the mess in the kitchen, and chuckled slightly as she heard the soothing sound of Frank Sinatra still going. After everything that had just happened to hear "Come Fly With Me" playing she found it slightly comical. "Can we just get out of here?" she asked softly.

"Yeah, let's go." He helped her stand up then pulled her into his arms. "I love you Addi, I love you." He whispered.

-The Plaza-

Derek and Addison had left as soon as the cops came to haul Mark's sorry butt away. They decided to stay at the Plaza in one of the suites. They both deserved some relaxation. Now they were lying in bed watching an old MASH rerun. "Oh, I love this episode!" Addison said with glee.

"I thought you didn't remember any of these." Derek said as he looked down at her.

"Oh, I don't, I have just seen this one before."

"Oh, okay." After they watched MASH they watched some medical documentary about obstetrics. As they sat together Derek began to walk back through his old memories.

-Flashback-

Derek stood over a patient operating on her spine. He had spent six hours working on her and was just about to close her up. "Dr. Sheppard." An intern asked from the doorway.

"Yes."

"Your wife is here to see you sir."

"Tell her to wait for me in my office. I will be out in about thirty minutes."

"She says it is urgent sir."

Before the intern could get a response Addison had grabbed his mask and pushed him aside. "Derek!" she said frustrated.

"Addi I'm busy." He said annoyed.

"Yeah, well so am I, but I am taking thetime to give birth to your kid, so you better take the time to be there."

Derek stopped and looked at her. "You…you mean…you're in labor?"

"Yes." She said meekly.

"Dr. Walsh, will you close for me?"

"Yes sir, and congratulations."

Derek walked quickly to Addi who had made her way to the scrub room right outside the O.R. "Are you okay? Why didn't you call me? How far apart are your contractions?"

"Derek calm down. I'm fine, and my contractions are about ten minutes apart." She smiled at his unnerved appearance.

He took a deep breath then took her delicate hand. "We are really doing this?"

"Yep, too late to turn back now." She smiled then her face contorted in pain. "Owe, owe, owe." She squeezed his hand tight as another contraction hit.

"After this we have to get you to the 4th floor."

She nodded, and then sighed as the contraction ended. "Let's go before another one hits."

-6 Hours Later-

"Come on Addi you can do this." Derek coached. He knew Addison was exhausted, but she had to keep pushing. He gently wiped her sweat laden forehead.

"Remind me after this is over to get a restraining order on you!" She yelled through gritted teeth. Addison relaxed before she had to push again. "Do you know how much I hate you right now?"

Derek just rubbed her arm. "I know baby."

"All right Addison just a couple more and you will be done." The doctor said calmly.

"Come on baby, you can do it." Derek said lovingly.

"Don't call me baby! You calling me baby is what got me here!" she yelled as she pushed.

"One more push Addison." Coached the doctor. Addison took a deep breath and pushed with all her might. The next thing they heard was a sweet sound. They heard their baby cry for the first time. "It's a girl!" the doctor said as he held the little baby up.

"Is she okay?" Addison asked anxiously.

"Yep, ten fingers and ten toes." the doctor said with a laugh.

"She's beautiful." Derek said as he looked down at Addi. "I love you." He said softly as tears fell down his face.

"I love you too." She said with a watery smile. They shared a quick kiss before Derek cut the cord. The doctor placed the small pink bundle in her mother's arms. "Hello Elaina, I'm your mom, and that handsome man is your daddy."

Derek gently caressed the little girl's soft cheeks. He had never thought that he could love anyone more than he did Addison, but now she and his daughter were tied for first.

-End of Flashback-

"Whatcha thinking about?" Addison asked startling him out of his reverie.

"Oh, nothing. Addison did Mark hurt you" He felt her stiffen when he asked the dreaded question.

"No, he didn't hurt me." She looked back down at her hands. "I, can we go to sleep now?" she asked like a little child.

"Of course." Derek turned the T.V. off, switched off the lamp, and then snuggled close to Addison. "Goodnight Addi."

"Goodnight Derek." Addison laid there in silence. The day she had been waiting for had arrived, she had regained her memory. Now all she wanted was to simply forget again.

-3 Weeks Later-

Addison stood in the walk-in closet trying to find another pair of jeans she could pack. She and Derek were going to drive down to her parent's house for Christmas. Derek came up behind her and wrapped his arms around her. He gently began placing kisses on her bare shoulder. "Derek."

"Hmmm." He said not stopping his current action.

"Now see this is exactly what we can not do at my parents house." She smiled as he rolled his eyes.

"I know that is why I was trying to get it in before we left." He started kissing her again, this time even softer.

"Derek," it took all the control Addison had to make herself not get carried away. She turned and looked at him. "Later." She said softly. He sighed defeated and nodded his head. "Right now I need you to help me get that box down. I am going to see if I can fit into my old jeans."

Derek did as she asked, but wondered how she knew what was in the box, he had never told her. He reached in the open box and pulled out one of the pairs. "Here take these, they are my favorite." He said with a sexy grin.

Addison knew why he liked that pair, but she didn't want him to know she remembered, so she played dumb. "Oh and why are those your favorite?"

"They have a nice, I dun no, snug fit."

Addison playfully slapped him across the arm. "You are such a pervert."

"Only when it come to you." He laughed.

-A Few Minutes Later-

Addison peeked out of the bathroom making surethat Derek was not around. She quietly walked to the suitcase and placed two small boxes beneath her clothes. She was so scared that the results would be what she dreaded, and yet what she secretly prayed for. Just as she was zipping up the suitcase Derek walked up behind her, causing her to jump.

"Did I scare you?"

"Yeah, sorry, I just didn't hear you coming." She tried to make her excuse sound credible, but she was afraid that she had failed miserably.

"You okay?" he asked lovingly.

"Yeah, I am just stressed."

Dereklovingly wrapped her in his arms. "I know how you can release that stress." He said seductively.

"Oh you do?" She asked as he began to kiss her shoulder. Addison was scared to let it happen for fear that when Derek found out that she had been the old Addison that he would be disgusted. Addison closed her eyes and pushed aside her doubts. She needed this intimacy, she had longed for it for so long and now it was here, and she was not going to let fear stand in her way.

-Montgomery Residence-

Derek and Addison had talked all the way to her parent's house. They talked about this and that, nothing serious. When they pulled into the driveway there were five other vehicles. "What is going on?" Addison asked as she stepped out of their black Land Rover. Just then the front door opened and out came Addi's mom and dad, Derek's parents, Addi's two brothers, their wives, and their six children, and then Derek's 4 sisters, and his 12 nieces, along with his four brother-in-laws. A total of thirty-six people came running to greet the couple. They hugged more people in the next five minutes then they had in years. Once they were finally settled into Addison's old room they both flopped down on the bed.

"My arms are tired. Are your arms tired?" Derek asked exhausted.

"Did you know your family was coming?" Addison asked rolling on her side to face him.

"No, did you? Are you okay with all these people here?"

"Yeah, I mean no. I mean…ugh." She laughed as she ran her hand over her face. "I didn't know they were coming, but I am okay with them being here."

"Are you sure?" Derek asked as he pulled her close. "Because if you begin to feel overwhelmed just let me know and we will come up here and be alone. Okay?"

Addison nodded. "I'll be okay, but if I feel 'overwhelmed' I'll let you know." She laid her head on his chest and closed her eyes as he ran his hand through her soft hair. They both took in the silence and comfort of the moment, knowing that it would be one of few for the next week. "I'm sleepy." Addi muttered into his chest.

"Well, why don't you take a nap, and I will wake you up in time for dinner." He said into her hair.

"Okay." She said sleepily.

Derek made sure Addi was settled then went downstairs to talk to his family. He walked into the kitchen and found all of the women cooking, drinking wine, and gossiping about god knows what. He was almost out of the door with a beer in hand when his youngest sister spotted him. "Don't even think about leaving without me." She whispered into his ear. He smiled at her. Riley had always been more of a tomboy, and even though he would never admit it she was his favorite sister. They quickly escaped through the back door and walked casually to the stables. Riley looped her arm in his as they walked. Riley looked more like Derek than any of his other four sisters. She had long wavy dark brown hair, and bright blue eyes. She was medium height, and had a girlish figure. She smiled up at him and poked his side with her finger. "You look happy." She teased.

He looked down at her. "I am happy."

"Good." She said as they sat down on a bench in the barn. She looked over at him and laughed. He had this stupid smile on his face, one she hadn't seen in a long time. "So how is the Addison situation?" She figured that since he was so happy now would be a good time to ask the question she had been meaning to ask for a while.

Derek took a swig of his beer and stared down at the hay beneath his feet. "We were going to get a divorce. She was going to leave me, and I was going to let her go." He looked over at her and smiled. "After the accident it was hard at first, but then it got easier. It was like she became her old fun self. She had her same dry sense of humor, she was…she was Addison again; just without the memories. Somewhere along the way my love for her grew; it was rekindled." Derek finally made eye contact with Riley. "I was so scared at first, but now…now I'm not worried."

Riley took Derek's beer from him and took a swig. "Good, just be careful D." she said softly.

"I will Ri. You know I heard that Mark started hitting on you." He chuckled as she rolled her eyes.

"Yeah, unfortunately. Oh my gosh can he not get it through his head that the Sheppard family wants nothing to do with him. Now his brother, I might consider him." Mark's younger brother Chris was a genuinely nice guy. He and Riley had always been good friends, but lately they had been growing closer.

"You still like him?" Riley nodded. Derek just smiled. "Well you have my permission. He is a nice guy, but his brother on the other hand is not so nice." Derek sighed and stood reaching out his hand to his sister. "Come on lets ride a horse."

Riley took his hand and stood. "Are we allowed to?"

They walked to a stall a few feet away. "Yeah, this is Addison's personal horse, and I have always been allowed to ride it. You coming?" He asked as he began to saddle the horse.

"I'll do anything to get out of that kitchen." She said as she took his hand and mounted behind him.The two siblings settled themselves onto the horseand rode out of the stable.

-Inside the House-

Addison had been sleepy, but the nap was just a ruse to get Derek to leave the room. After he left she crept out of the bed and to her bag. She pulled out one of the rectangular boxes and walked towards the bathroom. "Two pink lines will appear if it is positive." She read aloud. She quickly took the test then placed it on the sink counter to await her fate. As she paced the bedroom she felt like a small child who couldn't imagine how long two minutes could last. Time always seems to creep by when you are small, and now she felt like it wasn't even moving. Finally it was time. She walked into the bathroom and picked up the test. Slumping down on the toilet she laid her head in her hands and began to cry. The test was positive.

-Christmas Eve-

Derek walked downstairs and saw his family staring out of the window. Everyone was there except for Addi. They were all whispering about something that Derek couldn't make out. "What is everybody staring at?"

Addison's mom came over to Derek. "It's Addison sugar. She is sitting outside alone in the cold without a coat or anything. She won't take anything from us, and she won't talk to any of us either. Go talk to her, and when you go take this blanket it with you."

Derek took the blanket and grabbed his leather jacket. Addison's dad ushered everyone out of the kitchen as Derek walked outside. Addison was sitting on a rickety swing just staring out into space. Derek wrapped the quilt around her shoulders. She continued to sit still her gaze never breaking. Derek sat next to her and rubbed his hands together trying to warm them up. "Addi we are all worried about you." Still there was no response. "Ad talk to me."

"Why?" she said barely above a whisper.

"What do you mean 'why'?"

"Why did you pick me? You could have had Meredith, but you chose me. You could have had a girl who never…who…but you chose me. Why?"

"Addi…I…how do you…?" Derek stuttered.

Addison stood up angrily and shrugged off the blanket. Crossing her arms across her chest, Addison tried to keep in what little body heat she had. "I remember Derek. I remember everything! It all came back to me the day I saw Mark. It was like he was the missing piece of the puzzle. Since then I've know or remembered everything. I remember our baby, I remember our pain, I remember...I remember the affair." Addison turned around to face him with tears streaming down her face. "How can you wantme? How can you want your hoar of a wife?" She asked quietly. "After the accident you never left my side, not once. I want to know why? I want to know how? Why do you want me? How can you love me?" She was barely getting her words out without losing control on her emotions. "How can you love a hoar? How can you love me, when even I can't love myself?" Finally the sobs broke loose. Derek could hear them welling up in her throat he had just been waiting on them to break free.

Derek's heart broke when he heard her call herself a hoar. She spat the word out like it was filthin her mouth.Why was she doing this? Was it because of what he had called her that day she gave him the divorce papers. Was that why? He pushed those thoughts aside and stood up and walked towards her. "You are not a hoar, and I never ever want to hear you call yourself that again." He said forcefully. He walked closer and touched her hand. She tried to pull away, but he held on tight. "As for your question 'how can I love you' that is easy to answer. I can love you because I always have, and I always will. I have never stopped loving you; and I know this because I tried. After the affair I tried to make myself not love you, but I couldn't do it. And as for the second question 'why I love you' that is just as simple as the first one. I love you because you are a woman who would sacrifice her life for me or anyone she loves. I love you because you have loved me, supported me. I love you because you are my soul mate. You are the woman who when I saw you for the first time I knew that I would always love you, even though I couldn't stand you." He chuckled lightly at the memory. At this point he cupped her face in his hands. "Without you my life doesn't exist; without you I am nothing. I love you Addison Forbes Montgomery Sheppard." He leaned in and kissed her damp lips. She kissed him back and wrapped her arms around his neck.

"I love you too. I am so sorry for everything."

"I know Ad." He set her down and wiped her wet face. "From here on out I never want to hear you say 'I'm sorry' one more time for the affair. Okay?"

"Okay." She said as she wiped her eyes. "By the way I have a special present for you tomorrow." She smiled as they began to walk hand in hand.

"Oh really, is it dirty?"

She slapped his arm playfully. "No, and I'm afraid you won't be getting anything dirty while we are in my parents house."

Derek stopped and scooped her and the quilt into his arms then walked towards the stable.

"Derek the house is the other way."

"We're not going to the house we are going to the heated loft."

"Why?"

"So I can get my dirty present."

A/N- Okay so here you go a nice long update. I only have one chapter left after this, and then it will be finished. Hope you enjoyed, please read and review.