Summary- Sango Tacchi has always had a tough life. It's normal for her. When the normal pressure starts to get harder, will she handle herself any differently than before? The next problem is keeping her best friend from realizing her methods of coping... Warning, I used song lyrics!
I own all the poems at the beginning of the chapters. Those are my mind's rotton creations.
Song- Hell Song (Sum 41)
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About to Break
Chapter Eight- Shell Shocked
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It shouldn't be so hard
To keep your family unmarred
But bad luck seems to just
Follow you around no matter what
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"Why did you do it?" He asked.
"Someone… threatened to kill me… I couldn't… talk to you… And I didn't think… twice…" She slowly explained. Inuyasha kissed her forehead then rubbed her hand.
"Just get better. School really sucks ass without you there." He said. Sango smiled then finally slipped into a much calmer sleep.
Sango healed quickly. Of course, it wasn't all her body's ability. Inuyasha had brought some special remedy. Sango wasn't sure what it was, but it healed her quickly. As quickly as Inuyasha would have healed, at least.
Sango had been better for two weeks. The black van stopped following her. Everyone at school was curious how she was doing. Of course, she told them she was fine and that she was only sick for a few weeks. She would never let anyone in school know that the rumors of her nearly killing herself were true.
Everybody's got their problems
Everybody says the same things to you
It's just a matter how you solve them
And knowing how to change the things you've been though
Sango came home from school, humming the tune to a song she just learned. She and Inuyasha had made it up during lunch. It was a song about how stupid some of the kids sounded when they asked her questions.
Sango's personal favorite was when someone would walk up to her, look her right in the eye, and ask is it true that you killed yourself? Did it LOOK like she was dead? Sango thought that question over. She didn't want to know the answer.
"Kohaku! I'm home!" Sango called throughout the home. No reply came, which was fine. If he wasn't tackling her now and being kind to her like he always did, then he would do it when he got hungry.
Sango flipped on the TV and carelessly tossed her bag onto the couch cushion beside her. She flipped channels until she was watching the news. She spent a few moments listening to what the monotone man had to say.
"And, a child has been sent to the hospital today. According to police, he was found in the street… He's in intensive care right now…" Sango tuned the rest of it out. How sad. A kid was hurt horribly. She looked towards her brother's room.
"I'm so glad that you're doing okay, Kohaku." She whispered. She smiled then got up. She was so grateful of it, that she was going to make his favorite food in the world. She got up and began to mix different foods.
"You know what, Kohaku? I'm really sorry that I almost killed myself. I'm really sorry that I almost left you alone… I'll never do that again." She added. The phone rang, causing her to scream and jump out of her skin. She walked over to the phone and picked it up.
I feel I've come to realize
How fast life can be compromised
Step back to see what's going on
I can't believe this happened to you
This happened to you
"Hello?" She asked politely.
"Is this Sango Tacchi?" The deep voice on the other line said.
"Yes, this is she." She replied as she went back to preparing Kohaku's food.
"Hello. This is Patterson from SNT Hospital. I have some… devastating news for you." He slowly said. Sango's heart began to speed up as she tried to think. What was wrong? Everyone she knew was alright, weren't they?
"Okay… You have my attention." She lied. She cut up pieces of chicken, being careful not to slice her finger off.
"Your little bother, Kohaku—"
"What happened to him!" She practically screamed.
"You didn't see the news?"
"No! Now tell me what's wrong with him!" She screamed.
"I would. Just please calm down, Ms. Tacchi." He took a long deep breath.
"Your brother is in the hospital. He was found on the streets. It looks like someone ran over him and beat him up. I don't know what happened, but he's in very bad condition." The man said.
"My… brother… ?" Sango felt her knees give out. She dropped the knife and fell down. Her head slammed against the cabinets and stayed there. Her brother… Was ill… She might not… be able to… spend time with him.
"Yes… We're running tests on him to see how bad the damage is. I will call you when that happens." And with that, he hung up. Tears began to fall down Sango's face as she leaned against the cabinets.
It's just a problem with I'm faced with, am I
Not the only one who hates to stand by
Complications that are first in this line
With all these pictures running through my mind
Her brother. The thoughts of the little boy on the news flashed through her mind. What had she done? She had allowed him to be hurt. She had failed him.
Sango's heart broke into a million and four pieces. She hasn't been able to protect him. She said she would when their father died. But, what had she done? She had forgotten all about that promise.
Sango slowly pulled herself up from the floor. She planned on taking a nap before they called again. As she walked into the living room, she began to cry. She had watched her little brother play so many video games in this very room before.
The tears poured off her face like there was no end in sight. She fell into another heap on the floor and screamed. She couldn't live with herself. She had almost let her brother down before. She promised that she would never leave him alone again.
And she did. She left him alone and someone got to him. Who could have, though? Everyone loved Kohaku. He was the perfect little brother and the best friend anyone could ask for.
Part of me, won't agree
'Cause I don't know if it's for sure
Suddenly, suddenly
I don't feel so insecure
(Anymore)
Sango tried desperately to think of someone who would do that to him. Perhaps he got someone upset. No, that couldn't have been it. Who would he have angered that could drive a car?
Kohaku knew how to defend himself, too. This wasn't just a bully who had picked on him. Kohaku would have put up a big fight until the guy left him alone. That meant that someone was targeting him…
Just like someone was targeting her father. The man who had threatened her… Maybe he got to Kohaku. Maybe he got scared of Inuyasha always being around and took out his frustration on her little brother.
The idea distressed Sango. Not only was she not there for her brother, but she had caused him to be in the condition he was in. She had to be close friends with Inuyasha. She had to make herself stop thinking of the threats.
Knowing endless consequences
I feel so useless in this
Get back, step back, and as for me
I can't believe
Sango had forced herself to forget that there was a man after her. She forced herself to forget just so she would be able to live happily. She forgot about her brother. She had entirely forgotten that her brother would suffer as well.
Her mind taunted her towards the one thing that would help her. It was her fault. All her fault. She had let this happen. Her brother would die. His blood would stain her hands. She would remain guilty for his death forever.
Sango stood up and headed towards the kitchen. She picked up the knife she had used for the chicken like she had a duty to fulfill. She brought the knife against her skin and prepared herself for the plunge. This was the only way to cure her pain.
Why do things that matter the most
Never end up being what we chose
Now I find no way so bad
I don't think I knew what I had
A knock to the door made her jump out of her skin. The knife slipped and cut her very deep. She winced then slowly set the knife down. Away from the chicken. She walked towards the door and pulled her sleeve over her new cut.
She opened the door and nearly burst into tears once again. This was it. She wasn't able to take everything that had happened. It was her fault, and she didn't want to tell anyone that. She wanted to act like she hadn't planned this… She didn't want anyone to care…
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Next time on About to Break...
Sango gets a surprise visit from her best friend. He hugs her, telling her that things will be okay and that he'll help her in any way he can. When they nearly kiss, her heart flutters. Now she's questioning her feelings for him, thinking that she has fallen for him.
Chapter Name: Butterflies
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- Bipolar Tangerine
