Disclaimer: I don't own Gilmore Girls

A/N: I'm so sorry it took me so long I've been grounded for like ever.

"Mr. Mariano Mr. Danes I'm sorry but we lost her"

"You lost who exactly" Luke asked.

"Miss Danes, Elizabeth"

"No"

"I'm sorry for your loss"

I ran.

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I followed him. When I got outside I saw that it was raining again.

"Why does it always rain in this city" I yelled at the sky. Jess was still running. He kept running until he reached an alley. It didn't look like alleys I'd seen on TV. There was some of that fake golfing grass stuff and a few balls and clubs. There was a tent that had Jess's and Sarah's names on it. I looked around and didn't see Jess. I opened the tent and saw him sitting there with his head in his hands. I crawled in and sat next to him. I put my arms around him. I noticed that he was fighting back tears.

"I yelled at her" he whispered.

"What"

"I yelled at her before they shooed me out of the room" he began "the last thing I said to her before she died was that I hated her she was having a baby and she was recovering from being hit by a car and I yelled at her"

"Jess I'm sure she knows you didn't mean it"

"I'll never get to apologize"

"It's ok"

"I was always mean to her" he said "she tried so hard but I blamed her for everything"

Flashback

"Jesse get in here" Liz yelled.

I walked into Paolo's and saw her ready to walk out the door.

"What's going on" Sarah asked.

"We're leaving" Liz said.

"Why I thought Jess was spending the night"

"Liz Jess can stay"

"No you're filling his mind with lies"

"Right you keep telling yourself that maybe one day it will be true" Paolo said "Maybe one day you won't push your problems onto your six year old son"

"Go to hell"

"Right back atcha"

"Come on Jess I don't want you talking to Sarah anymore"

"She's my best friend"

"Get a new one"

"I don't want a new one I hate you"

End Flashback

"Jess you were upset all little kids say stuff they don't mean"

"I shouldn't have said anything I should've just listened."

"Jess you were young you didn't know any better"

"My mom is dead and I told her I hated her countless times that's all she ever heard from me"

"Everything was fine the next day she knows you were just angry besides I was there and you didn't actually say you hated her"

"I barely knew her"

"I know and I have no way of possibly understanding what your going through right now but there is a hospital room full of people who are probably very worried about you"

"I'm not going back there I got a letter from my dad on my 16th birthday he's in Venice I'm just going to…"

"Run away"

"No I'm not running"

"Fine you know what you can be a coward and run away I on the other hand will take no pleasure in watching you so I'm going back to that hospital and if you want to come too I'd recommend it otherwise I guess this is goodbye have fun in Venice I hear it's beautiful."

I crawled out of the tent and walked back to the hospital slowly tears rolling down my face. I knew I had no right to be so hard on him. I just couldn't sit there and watch him run away. Suddenly I heard my name being called from a distance. I turned around and Jess was running towards me.

"You win" he said.

I nodded and continued walking silently.

When we go to the hospital Luke came charging at Jess. He grabbed his wrist and pulled him to the nursery. Everyone else followed.

"It's a girl" Jess stated the obvious.

"Everyone's asking for a name what do you want me to say" Luke asked.

"Elizabeth Paula"

"You're actually going to do that to that kid" Luke asked.

"It's her middle name no one will know it everyone hates their middle name" Jess reasoned.

"What's yours" I asked.

"Don't have one" he said.

"I thought it was Eugene" Sarah said.

I bit my lip trying not to laugh considering what just happened to his mother.

"Go ahead and laugh" he rolled his eyes.

I smiled and chuckled a bit then hugged him.

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We took home Lizzie a week later. Liz had named Luke and Paolo as godfathers but Paolo thought she should live with Luke. We decided to have the funeral in Stars Hollow since Liz grew up there. Sarah bought Rory an Italian to English dictionary and she hasn't put it down she's getting very frustrated. I decided to put her out of her misery.

"I'll tell you when we get to Stars Hollow"

She grinned and kissed me lightly on the cheek.

"Hey get a room" Luke paused "on second thought don't"

"Not that we can considering we're in a car" Rory said said.

The car stopped. Both Luke and Lorelai turned around. There were loud beeps but neither seemed to hear them.

"Oh my god" they both said.

"You need to spend a lot less time together" Lorelai said and the car started moving again.

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When we reached Stars Hollow I jumped out of the car pulling Jess along with me. I pulled him for about a minute before he somehow started pulling me. When we reached the bridge he pushed lightly on my shoulders and I sat down he sat down next to me. He pulled me into his lap then started kissing me. I pulled back.

"You promised."

"I love you" he whispered in my ear.

I wrapped my arms around his neck as my lips crashed into his. I pulled back and he groaned.

"More than I love coffee"

"You already figured it out"

I laughed and put my head in my hands.

"Why was that not obvious" I asked myself aloud.

"Guess you didn't" he concluded.

I got myself off his lap and sat down next to him.

"You're not handling this well" I told him "I was surprised and very proud that you didn't run away but you did just not physically you're not dealing with this."

"Rory I never knew her she sent me to live in a town straight out of a TV Land show" he said "it's not like you and Lorelai if you were crawled in a ball after Lorelai's death I'd worry but I wasn't close to my mom her death is about as hard for me as the death of the principal of Stars Hollow High"

"You don't mean that"

"Yea Rory I do"

"Jess judging from what I saw that night you were pretty broken up about it"

"Rory give it a rest will you can we please just drop it"

"Fine we'll drop it"

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"How're you holding up" I asked.

"I can't believe she's gone" Luke said.

"I know this must be hard for you I wish I could relate"

"Really?"

"No I guess not I mean even if I had a sister I don't think I'd want her dead"

He looked at me funny.

"Sorry I..."

"It's ok"

"At least you've got little Lizzie to remember her by"

"Yea I don't know how I'm going to handle her"

"I'll help you and I'm sure Jess will… well I'm sure Rory will try to make Jess help then she'll fail and help out herself instead."

"Yea Jess seems to be handling it pretty well"

"Luke Jess isn't handling it at all."

"You think?"

"Yea"

"What should I do?"

"Send him to a shrink?"

"He's never go for it"

"I think he would"

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"No" he said sternly

"Jess I think it will be good for you" I tried.

"No"

"What if I go with you?"

"No"

"What if Lizzie goes with you"

"Oh yea that'll help an infant going to a shrinking with me no thanks"

"I'll come with you" Rory offered.

Jess paused "I'll think about it."

"Well think fast you have an appointment tomorrow and noon"

"Great thanks for making my decision for e and then asking if I was ok with it" Jess walked upstairs. Rory looked up the stairway and I motioned for her to go up. Without any further invitation she raced up the stairs.

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The next day I found myself in a room with a couch, a desk and chair, lots of pictures with motivational quotes, a shrink, and Rory. What had I gotten myself into?

"Jess do you know why you're here" the shrink asked.

"To get my head shrinked" Rory kicked me softly.

"And you do you know why you're here"

"Moral support"

"Now if Jess has his own support team why is he here?"

"I'm sorry sir but I believe your job is to help Jess not grill him on why he is here if you feel we are wasting your time we will have no problem leaving"

"Jess I understand your mother has recently passed away"

"I prefer the term croaked" Jess said.

"Right well how does that make you feel" the shrink asked.

"Great fantastic I'm king of the world" I smirked.

"I notice you are being very sarcastic does that have anything to do with your mother dying is this how you cope by making jokes and being sarcastic"

"I don't need this" I got up but Rory pulled me back down.

"I'll tell you what I'll give you time to warm up while I talk to your friend" the shrink looked at Rory "tell me about yourself"

"My name is Rory I'm 17 and go to Chilton"

"And what is your relationship with Mr. Mariano like"

"Ummm good"

"Has his mother's death put a strain on the relationship?"

"Let's go Rory I think I'm feeling better" I took Rory's hand and got up this time she didn't pull me back.