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"I'm going to die" I threw open the door to Jess's apartment.

"What happened" he put his books down. I sat next to him and took a deep breath.

"He is making me do a speech with Paris" I said.

"I'll put your picture in the house"

"What house"

"Never mind go on"

"Well she's meeting me at my house in 5 minutes"

"It takes ten minutes to walk to your house"

"Yea I know"

"Let me find my keys"

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"Are you planning on staying here" I asked.

"Uh yea"

"Well Rory and I need to work you stay here we'll work in her room"

I walked into her room and she followed.

"Did you check these facts?"

"Yes I did"

"And the spelling of these names"

"Yes I did"

"Rory"

"What Paris"

"I slept with Jamie Last night after we talked"

"Was it something I said?"

"I went over there to study and he lit a fire and then we did it. What are your thoughts on that?"

"My thoughts?"

"Because I'm not exactly sure how I feel about it myself yet. I've been going over it in my head. I mean, it seemed to go pretty well. The fire was nice and thank God he didn't try to put on any ridiculous make out music, and then it just happened. I was actually fairly surprised at the timing of it because I wasn't wearing anything particularly alluring, and in the moments just before the act. . ."

"Oh god"

"We were actually discussing modern day Marxism in America, which is not what I would have deemed a 'come and get it' sort of conversation, but nevertheless, he came and got it, and I have to figure out what that means to me on a psychological level. So, I thought maybe if you and I could have sort of a healthy debate about it, I could come to some sort of reasonable conclusion about how I should be feeling right about now. So, come on, talk. What do you think?"

"Paris, just stop talking for one second and let me get my mind around this"

"Sorry go ahead focus"

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I stood by the door wanting to hear Rory's speech but got a little more then I had wanted.

"Okay, so you are telling me that you and Jamie. . ."

"Had sex"

"And the two of you had discussed this. . ."

"Well, I don't know that we actually discussed it, it was just sort of implied"

"Implied?"

"Yes, implied. When you're dating a boy and you're together for a given amount of time and you're not Amish, then the eventual occurrence of intercourse is inevitable. I mean, wasn't it with you?"

"What"

"With Dean"

"No"

She never slept with Dean. Wait I knew that. Did I know that? I know that now.

"No?"

"No I never did it with Dean"

"Oh. Well, then with Jess, right"

"Um no"

"You're lying"

No Rory doesn't lie silly Paris you should know that.

"No I'm not lying"

"You haven't"

"No"

"Why not"

"I just haven't. Not the right time"

"Why is it not the time? I mean, if it's not the time for you, then maybe it's not the time for me either."

"Paris, you can't judge what's right for you against what's right for me. I mean, we are different, and Jamie and Jess are different"

"Is Jess not the guy for you"

She's going to say yes. She has to know I'm not right for her she's not stupid.

"I didn't say that"

"She didn't" I accidentally said aloud.

Rory came out of her room "Jess!"

"I uh I uh well I uh can I borrow a book"

"How much did you hear" Paris asked.

"Oh not much"

"Enough?"

"Enough"

"Tell anyone and you're a dead man"

"Right"

"What book do you want" Rory asked

"Any book"

"Paris could you"

"Yea here" she handed him a book off the shelf.

"And Paris" I said.

"Yeah"

"In the brief time I talked to Jamie he seemed like an ok guy so no worries"

"Nice try" Rory smiled and hugged me.

"What do you know you probably lost your virginity when you were 9"

"Ten actually"

"Really!" Rory backed away from me.

"No"

"Oh ok" she relaxed.

"Look the worst thing you could do is be with someone you didn't care about so if you really do care about him then…"

"Thanks" she said "are you coming to the bicentennial"

"Wouldn't miss it"

"Good"

"Great then we should start"

"I'll go read uh Forever isn't this your mom's book"

"Yes but she didn't have a book shelf so she keeps it here"

"Hey we could use a second opinion" Paris said.

"Ok"

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"Ayn Rand is a political nut" Jess said.

"I have to side with Jess on this one" Paris said.

"Fine gang up on me"

"Although Hemmingway is kind of boring"

"Thank you"

"Hey what's going on" mom asked as she walked in.

"Author debate" I told her.

"Ok take the pizza just leave me out of this"

She set down the box and walked into the family room.

"How can you be on both sides?"

"I like them both picking between them is like picking between The Clash and The Sex Pistols"

"No because both of those bands are good but Hemmingway is a cure for insomnia"

"How many kids wanted Hemmingway or Rand to be their bedtime story" Paris asked.

"Uh" Jess and I said.

"Excluding anyone at this table"

"None"

"Exactly"

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"Apply yourself. Get all the education you can, but then do something. Don't just stand there, make it happen. Lee Iacocca. Education's purpose is to replace an empty mind with an open one. Malcolm Forbes. Education is an admirable thing, but it is well to remember from time to time that nothing that is worth knowing can be taught. Oscar Wilde. These are only three of many countless views on the expansion of the human mind. I personally believe in all of them, and fortunately for me, so does Chilton. An institution not just because of age and standing, but because of ideas. Because it encourages ideas and it will accept nothing less than everything you have to give. This is the place where our lives start." Rory started.

"You know, it's funny, me standing here before you right now. I've thought about nothing else for four years but this school, this big important school with all of its history and tradition and really super teachers. And I dedicated myself to it completely, heart and soul, believing in its power, believing in its ability to get me where I needed to go. Harvard. I thought of nothing else. Many of you out there can attest to that fact. I was on my way and nothing could stop me. And here's the really funny thing after four years of slaving away, I go home today and I found this. I'm not going to Harvard. I got the tiny envelope, the one that reads, Sorry, Paris. We're not interested. Try again next year. Love, Harvard. And the thing that's really funny here is, who in the world deserves to go to Harvard more than me? Have you seen how hard I've worked over these past four years? I mean, can anyone here believe that I'm not going to Harvard? I can't. I'm not going to Harvard. I am not going to Harvard. I had sex, but I'm not going to Harvard." I continued

"Okay" Rory looked nervous

"And I have to tell you that if you asked me which of those two events I thought would be the least likely to happen, it would not be the not going to Harvard."

"Thank you and good night"

"I'm being punished. I had sex, so now I don't get to go to Harvard"

"Paris come on" she led me off stage.

"She's never had sex. She'll probably go to Harvard. She's a shoe in. Pack your chastity belt, Gilmore you're going to Harvard!"

"Come on"

She took me to the stair case where I sat crying.

"How could I have not gotten into Harvard? Five generations of Gellars have gotten into Harvard. Even if I was the Billy Carter of the family, the name is still supposed to carry some weight"

"Paris"

"They had to really not like me for me to not get in"

"Paris"

"It's like they know me or something"

"Stop. I know how much this meant to you, Paris, but you are going to get just as good an education at one of the other great schools you're destined to get into. And you know what? Maybe it's a good thing that you're going to a different school than the rest of your family. You'll be doing your own thing, starting your own tradition. Doesn't that sound exciting?"

"I can't believe I slept with Jamie. I'm a slut"

"No you're not you love him"

"You don't love Jess"

"Of course I love Jess"

"You didn't sleep with him"

"Paris will you stop comparing yourself to me"

"What if he doesn't love me anymore? What if he doesn't think I'm special anymore? How am I going to tell him I didn't get into Harvard? What am I gonna do?"

"Paris, I don't know why you didn't get into Harvard, but you are so smart and so special and you'll see, everything's gonna be fine."

Jess walked out with Lorelai.

"Hey, I just wanted to make sure everything was okay"

"Yeah, we've got everything under control, thanks"

"Paris I lost my virginity when I was 15 you waited longer then I did"

"I don't want to have a kid" I cried.

"I tried I'll be outside when you're ready no rush"

"Thanks"

Lorelai left and Jess sat down next to Rory.

"Paris you were safe you're not going to have a kid"

"They only work 99 percent of the time"

"Yea so you have a 1 in a hundred chance" Jess said.

"Thanks both of you"

"Why don't you come back to my place we can have a movie night just the four of us"

"Ok" I said.

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Paris went inside my mom pulled out three big envelopes out of the mailbox.

"Jess"

"Yea"

"Get her out of here now bring her back in 10 minutes we just have to hide this

"I'll get right on it" he went in the house then pulled Paris out.

"What's that" she pointed to the envelopes.

"Nothing" I shoved them into the mailbox.

"Those are acceptance letters let me see" she pulled them out "Yale I got in there, Princeton didn't apply not to big a fan of Jersey, and oh look Harvard I'm so happy for you" she paled and then fainted.

A few minutes later we were sitting in a hospital room. I was making a pro con list.

"I'm a horrible friend" I blurted out "I caused her to have a panic attack and now I'm making a pro con list"

"Let me see" Jess took it from me "All it says it Yale Paris will be there wow you're horrible.

"I'm going to go see her" I walked into her room.

The next week I went to her house. She was sitting in her room watching soap operas.

"I'll get an apartment in Cambridge, buy a Harvard sweatshirt, talk about Mira Sorvino a lot. It's doable. I did tell my mother about having sex with Jamie, and her only reaction was to talk about how my father hasn't pleased her in fifteen years."

"Yikes"

"As if I couldn't tell"

"And what's going on with your boyfriend?"

"Haven't called him"

I grabbed the phone off her desk and pressed the button next to his name.

"Hello Jamie this is Rory"

"Hey Rory why are you calling from Paris's phone is she alright I haven't heard from her in awhile"

"She's fine just a little upset"

"Why what happened"

"I think she should tell you hold on"

I handed her the phone and mouthed "you school Monday"

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"I can't believe there was a fire" Rory said.

"I can't believe you're in his bed" Luke said.

"Me either Jess switch places with me" I said.

"What I'm not allowed to sleep in the same bed as my cousin"

"Oh don't say that" Jess looked disgusted.

"This is fun" I said "you can call me aunt Lorelai"

"Not gonna happen"

"Well it was worth a shot" Rory said.

"Yea" Lorelai sounded disappointed.

"You're so weird" Luke and I chimed in.

"I love you" Lorelai and Rory sang

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"Luke snores" I said.

"I know"

"I'm going downstairs" I got up and walked out. Jess followed me. We sat down at the counter.

"Jess"

"Hmm"

"I was wondering when you uh never mind"

"14"

"I'm sorry what"

"I was 14"

"Sara"

"Yea"

"Did you love her?"

"She was like my sister"

"I picked Yale"

"I thought you would" he smirked "I have something to show you"

He went into the back then came out holding a big envelope.

"Yale" he said.

"You're going to Yale"

"Yep"

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"I think they were happy"

"I think they were too happy"

"I still can't believe Paris pierced her nose"

"What's that" she pointed to something.

"The largest pizza sort of"

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"There you are" Rory walked in.

"Hey"

"I've been looking all over for you"

"Just got tired of everything down there"

"What happened you were looking forward to this?"

"I just got a lot going on no big deal" He kissed me. Ten minutes later we were lying in bed and Jess's phone rang. He answered it and his face went blank and he hung up.

"Come on talk to me"

"No"

"Jess what's wrong"

"I have to go I want to be here but Luke called and I have to go"

"What happened?"

"Lizzie is really sick she's in the hospital"

"What"

"She hasn't been keeping anything down all day he thought it was just like a 24 hour thing but she has a really high fever"

"Come on I'm coming with you"

I walked downstairs and he followed.

"Rory what's wrong you look upset"

"I'm fine"

"Are you sure"

"Dean not now" I brushed past him. Jess and I made it out the door then drove to the hospital.

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"She was running around totally fine and then she just collapsed" Lorelai told the doctor.

"We think it's just the flu"

"I've had the flu before I didn't collapse"

"Well she's only 8 and a half months old"

"My daughter had the flu when she was that age and she didn't collapse"

"The test results are back" a nurse handed the doctor a folder.

"Well we have some bad news she's HIV positive"

"That's impossible" I said.

"Who are you?" he asked.

"Her brother"

"Same mother"

"Yes"

"Come with me we have to run some tests"

"This is insane" I followed.

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I felt my blood run cold.

"What's wrong" mom asked.

"I slept with him"