All I Wanted
Nobody loves her.
Once, she'd been foolish enough to think that Jack loved her, or could love her.
But he loves Kate. Like everyone does.
It didn't take long for Ana-Lucia to come to this chilling conclusion. A few hidden glances, a few of Jack's lacking kisses. Sawyer realized it, too.
Kate was so different. So ideal. So perfect. As soon as she'd seen her, Ana-Lucia had recognized her as competition.
But deep down, she'd never considered that Kate could win.
She didn't understand their history. No one could explain. No one had seen kisses, or touches. They'd just seen the chemistry, the pull, the silent and mutual attraction. It had been building for months. It was building still.
In her head, she referred to it as a love square. It was a love triangle, because no one loved her, and she didn't really count. It would always be the three of them.
Jack stops by her on his way back from Sawyer's tent and drops a kiss onto her lips. Why does he even bother? Is it to stick it to Kate, to show her that he doesn't need her?
Every day, if becomes increasingly obvious that he does.
In so many ways, she and Kate are so similar. So independent, so passionate. Is this why Jack feels so hard for both of them? Or is Ana lying to herself to think that Jack feels for her at all?
Some days, she wondered if she had any other options. There was Ecko, who'd only once taken the opportunity to touch her. There was Sayid, and their weird, offbeat connection of sorts. There was Sawyer.
But was there? Was there anyone for Sawyer, besides Kate?
Ana couldn't help the jealous stabs of anger that rose in her whenever Jack looked at Kate. Ana had known him for longer. She knew it was petty, but it was true. Jack wasn't afraid to try to be with Ana. Jack trusted her. Jack believed her.
But he didn't want her.
He didn't need her.
For some crazy reason, Kate was beloved on the island. Even though they knew she was a criminal, even though she'd lied, even though she'd broken the heart of their leader, they loved her. They'd never love Ana, would never want her to be with Jack. Ana-Lucia had made the tail enders hate her by being an ineffective leader, made the rest of the Islanders hate her by killing one of her own.
From what Ana-Lucia had heard, they didn't even like Shannon
The tail-enders didn't even look to her as their leader anymore. She didn't even have that honour. They'd followed her unquestionably through the island, but now they looked to Jack for guidance. Jack, who was so much more effective.
Life wasn't fair.
Glancing over her shoulder, Ana sees Jack and Kate meet at the water deposit. They don't communicate. They don't hash out their feelings, or admit to their affair. Even if it isn't an affair, Ana-Lucia knows it isn't nothing. They don't even talk. They don't have to talk.
All they have to do is look.
