Disclaimer: I don't own the show or the characters and I wish I owned the song but alas they are the property of Shonda Rhimes and Sheryl Crow respectively.
A/N: This is my first fic in awhile and it really called to me as something for Addison.
My Favorite Mistake
I
woke up and called this morning,
the tone of your voice was a
warning
that you don't care for me anymore.
It had been another long night at Seattle Grace. No one ever said being a surgeon was easy, but dealing with that on top of a crumbling marriage was taking its toll on Addison. She knew that there had been a lot of mistakes on both her and Derek's parts but she just wanted to move forward with her life and stop dwelling on the past.
I
made up the bed we sleep in.
I looked at the clock when you creep
in.
It's 6 AM and I'm alone.
Did you know when you go
it's the perfect ending,
to the bad day I was just beginning.
When you go, all I know is you're my favorite mistake.
Derek had an early surgery so he had left before her alarm clock went off. He hadn't even made any effort to say goodbye. She missed the days before they had fell apart, when he would shower her with kisses and love before he went to work.
Your
friends act sorry for me.
They watch you pretend to adore me.
But I am no fool to this game.
Richard
had been a good friend through out all of the mess. He had offered
her enough to give her a chance to stay and attempt to salvage my
marriage. Everyone in the hospital knew that Derek still wasn't
over Meredith and though it killed her she kept the resentment to her
self.
Now
here comes your secret lover,
she'll be unlike any other,
until
your guilt goes up in flames.
It seemed like there wouldn't be a day gone by that she wouldn't catch Derek looking at her with longing and desire and she knew it ate him up that he couldn't hold her. Many times while she lay in bed next to him did she wonder why he chose her when he wasn't over her. Maybe he felt obligation or guilt for some of the things that had happened in New York.
Did you know when you go it's the
perfect ending,
to the bad day I'd gotten used to spending.
When
you go, all I know is you're my favorite mistake
You're my
favorite mistake.
Addison knew that she had to let him go. Because even though he was physically there he still wasn't emotionally there and that is what a marriage needed to survive. Maybe a clean break is what she needed to help both of them.
Well
maybe nothing lasts forever,
even when you stay together.
I
don't need forever after, but it's your laughter won't let me go
so
I'm holding on this way.
Addison packed up her things taking time to memorize everything. She knew deep down that she had a long hard road before her and it wasn't going to be easy. She left a letter on the table for Derek.
Dear
Derek,
Did
you know could you tell you were the only one
that I ever loved?
Now everything's so wrong.
Did you see me walking by, did it
ever make you cry?
Now you're my favorite mistake
Yeah you're
my favorite mistake
You're my favorite mistake.
Love Always Addison
