The Irishman's Woman: Saying Goodbye
by LUVINGJOVAN
Walking into the station Evangeline drops John hand that she's held since they left the apartment. Officers are all a buzz with the now three murders in Llanview. Seeing Jason sitting at an officer's desk handcuffed she runs to him.
"Jason are you okay?" she says running to him and hugging him. He's unable to hug her back do this handcuffs but she kneels and squeezes him to her breast.
"I'm
okay babe...who was that man? Why was he attacking you? They won't
tell me shit!"
Evangeline rubs his head. "He's a serial
killer named The Slasher he was trying to kill me and you saved my
life." she says smiling at him.
Jason looks beyond her to
John who is glaring at him. Evangeline looks up at John then back at
him. "I will explain it to them. It was self defense."
"Why
is that fed constantly around you?" he hisses
Evangeline stands
and avoids his eyes. Nora comes around the corner and she's happy
for the escape. "Nora, I need you to release him. He was just
protecting me."
Nora frowns and looks at Jason in handcuffs "Bo briefed me in the car. Evangeline you were a victim here we need to get your statement as well as his."
"Okay….I will give my statement and then I want you to drop all charges." Evangeline says wringing her hands getting in Nora's space. Nora steps back and frowns "Are you asking me as a friend or his attorney?"
"Both..."
John walks up to the
officer. "Take him in the conference room and get a
statement."
Evangeline turns and looks at him. "What are you
doing?" she asked confused.
He looks at Nora "I was there
Nora, he was just defending her. I walked in as he stopped the attack
on Evangeline."
Jason frowned "I don't need your help
Fed!" he spat.
Nora rolled her eyes "Yes you do Mr.
Quatermaine and I suggest you be grateful for it. This isn't Port
Charles and I don't appreciate gangland vigilantism in my
town."
"That's not what he meant" Evangeline says going to Jason. She looks at him and leans into his face. "Jason please…just let them help you. Let this be over I can't take much more of it."
Jason softens and looks at her with
tenderness. "Okay babe…but you and I need to talk."
She
smiles and rises up. The officer pulls Jason up and undoes his
handcuffs. They all watch in silence as he is led away to give his
statement. Evangeline turns to John and goes to him and hugs him.
"Thank you John…thank you."
His eyes meet with Nora who looks at him suspiciously. "Agent McBain this is in your baby now. The murder of Hayes Barber is not under my office. I hope you know what you are doing." she said looking at Evangeline. "Evangeline when you are done with your statement I want to see you in my office. I won't leave the station until we talk."
Evangeline nods and knows her friend is concerned and angry with her. "I promise Nora."
John takes her hand and brings her into Bo's office. As soon as the door closes he turns on her. "This has to stop and I'm calling you on what you said. I will drop all charges but you have to let him go. It ends tonight."
Evangeline
looks at him shocked. "What? Look John he really was protecting
me."
"Van his initial reaction is to use violence to settle
things. Hayes was no longer a threat and unarmed when he drew his
gun. He killed him out of the same rage and anger that Hayes used to
kick in your door."
Evangeline slaps John across the face "Stop it! He's not a animalistic killer like that monster that attacked me."
John grabs her by both arms "Angel that's exactly what he is. He kills for a living. He kills men that have families, wives and children at the orders of another monster. Do you know what kind of darkness you have to carry with you to kill someone? Do you!"
Evangeline looks at him and feels him ripping her heart to shreds. He wants her to face a truth that she keeps buried. The monsters of her dreams that hurt the women that she tried to help and murdered those people that serial killer attacked share a commonality with a man she has loved. But Jason had some good in him she was sure of it. She even let his darkness into her to prove it.
"I can't abandon him. I owe him my life."
"No
Angel, he owes you his. You are the one good and pure thing he has in
his life. That's why he holds on tight to you. But if you don't
stop this and break free that darkness in you will grow it will
change you forever sweetie I can't let that happen."
Crying freely she clings to him and knows he's right. It was time to face Jason and sever ties with him. It was time to be free of the death and destruction that follows him. John lets her go and kisses her face.
"I didn't set him free for him Angel, I did it for
you. I set you free."
Evangeline nods and kisses his lips. "I
have some things to take care of. Can I come to you tonight?"
John smiles at her. "I will be waiting for you"
Letting go of him she walks out and heads to Nora's office. Looking back she sees him watching her and it gives her strength.
Knocking on Nora's door she enters. Her friend sits on the edge of her desk in her lavender pantsuit with her arms folded and legs cross. She closes the door and steps inside clasping her hands in front of her.
"Nora…'
"Van, what have you gotten yourself
into?"
"I didn't invite a serial killer into my life."
"I
know that sweetie, but Jason killed the man in front of you. That has
had to have some effect on you."
Evangeline sighs. "Sadly
it doesn't Nora, at least not the way you think."
Nora sees
the red bruises on her friend's neck and gets up going to her.
Taking her chin she lifts it and examines her bruises. "Are you
okay?"
Evangeline smiles and walks away from her "No, I had a man that I care for deeply kill another man for me brutally. It's hard to process let alone accept."
"What do you
mean kill another man?"
Evangeline keeps her back to Nora. "I'm
in love Nora."
Nora comes up to her and turns her around. "With
that hit man?"
"No with my Irishman…"
Nora looks her
in the eye. "I don't understand Van, what does that mean?"
"It means I can't do this with Jason anymore. That tonight was it for us. I'm letting go of the hard to live with empty feeling that has surrounded me when I sold my soul to the devil. Then I'm walking away with the Irishman into something pure and real Nora. Something that can save me from my own bitterness and anger at the violence I've witnessed in my life."
Nora smiles and pulls her into
a hug "Good for you baby. Good for you."
Evangeline closes
her eyes and smile. "I need to deal with Jason, can I come back and
give my statement to you tomorrow?"
Nora nodded. "What about your place it's a crime scene?"
"I'm going to deal with Jason then I'll be staying somewhere else." She said pulling away and walking to the door. She looks back at Nora and winks. "Thanks for being my friend."
Nora nods and watches her leave, somewhat worried about how Jason Quatermaine will handle her news.
Evangeline came out in the station and saw John and Jason glaring at each other. She quickly went to Jason and slipped her hand in his. "Let's take a cab home we need to talk."
Jason finally breaks he glare and kisses her forehead. "Okay let's go."
She walks out and makes eye contact with John and he winks again. She knows that Jason sees it and hates that he did that in front of him. Pulling Jason alone she leads him out.
Evangeline's Apartment
"Babe maybe we should go to a hotel, I don't want you reminded of what has happened here tonight." Jason says shedding his jacket still wet from the all day thunder storm.
Evangeline closes the door and sheds her leather jacket and says nothing. Jason watches her and knows something is up. He sees her go to the sofa and he goes over and sits next to her.
Immediately he leans in to kiss her. Evangeline moves and he grabs her wrist. "Okay out with it…what's going on with you!"
Evangeline pulls out of his grip.
"First let's talk about us."
"What about us?"
"I'm
ending it Jason" she says looking away.
"You're
what?"
"Jason things haven't been right for us for over a
year. You know that."
Jason pulls her face to his. "That's because you left, against my better judgment and Sonny's protests I allowed it, but after what I walked in on tonight I know that I have to take you back to Port Charles. It's the only way I can keep you safe."
Evangeline jumps up and looks at him shocked "Are you serious. I'm not going back to Port Charles with you…absolutely not. That wasn't some gangster mob attack that man had nothing to do with you and Sonny."
Jason looked her up and down "I know that Van but you're my lady and no one puts his hands on you."
"I am not your lady. We're done!"
Jason gets
up in her face she doesn't back down a inch and stares him down.
"We aren't done! What has gotten into you? Is it that Fed? Are
you fucking him!"
"Yes I am" she snaps and he balls his
fist.
"Why would you betray me like this? Betray
us?"
Evangeline softens. "I fell in love Jason I…."
Jason
grabs her arms and shakes her violently. "You're in love with
him!"
Evangeline struggles and gets some control but remains in
his arms. "Yes, and I want you to let me go!"
"Never" he shouts turning her and pushing her to the couch. She falls back and looks up at him angry. "Don't you put your hands on me again!" she hisses.
"That's not what I'm doing Van!"
"The hell it isn't! You won't handle me like you do those
animals you run with. If you can't understand that then get the
hell out now!"
Jason paces in front of her "You can't love
two men Van…its not you." he says walking back and forth pounding
his fist into his hand.
"I don't…" she says softly.
He stops and looks at her. "What are you saying? Are you saying that you don't love me anymore?"
Evangeline sits up and puts her hands on her knees. "Jason, I will always love you. It's your love for me that saved my life tonight. I can never sever the bond we share. You're in my blood. I'm in yours. If I'm hurt or danger you're there."
"Then why are you walking away from me. Why did you run to that Fed? Is this to punish me for not leaving Sonny?"
"First stop calling him a FED! His name is John McBain. Second what's wrong with us has been wrong way before he came on the scene and you know this. Third I won't go back to the life of depravity that you live with Sonny Corinthos. NEVER! Some of the stuff I've done for that man has permanently stained my soul. Lastly I love you Jason but I'm not in love with you that's why I want to end things."
Jason glares at her, the pain in his heart so profound he feels like his life is slipping away. He could threaten her. He could drag her out of here and this town forcing her to stay with him. But staring into her eyes he knows it wouldn't work and that she couldn't be controlled. If she wanted out there was nothing he could do to stop her.
Going to his knees in front of her and grabbing her thighs he fixes his blue eyes on hers. "Baby, I can't live without you. You swore to me that you would never abandon me. You said you owed me your soul."
"I was wrong to make that kind of swear to you. I was wrong to barter my happiness for gratitude. And Jason you were wrong to accept that. It's not love baby….it's something else."
His desperation takes over him and he reaches up and kisses her. She tries to turn her head but he holds it in place forcefully with both hands and drives her back to the couch. She squirms and he lets go of the kiss and starts to kiss her neck and face, tearing at her turtleneck.
"Jason..stop…don't"
she says fighting him off
He keeps clawing at her "No I can't
let you go…let me have you…you love me I know it."
Evangeline feels him tear at bra ripping it apart as he pins her to couch. Pressing her hands against his chest she shoves forcefully bringing up her knee between his legs causing to holler in pain and fall over to the floor.
She stands over him her ponytail now hanging
loosely out of the bow from his attack.
"How could you!" she
shouts.
Holding himself and moving from her he looks up at her
with tears in his eyes. "Why are you treating me like this? After
everything we've been to each other how could you treat me like
this?"
Evangeline folds her arms. "Because we have too much pain and violence between us, I can't live with it anymore. Let me go Jason! Give me a chance at happiness. You can't provide it. You won't provide it with your lifestyle."
Slowly rising from the floor holding himself, Jason walks over to the chair and gets his leather jacket. Evangeline watches him put it on slowly and bursts into tears. The wounded look on his face makes her cry harder. She was being so strong through it all but now it was hitting her that he was leaving and that meant walking out of her life.
He turns and sees her crying with tears in his eyes. She goes to him and they embrace. Smelling the leather from his jacket mixed with cologne their history flashes across her eyes.
Their love making
in every corner of their flat of Port Charles even her car.
Riding
on his motorcycle with out a helmet the wind blowing though her hair.
Being at his side while he lay in his hospital bed from gunshot
and stab wounds.
The fights over Sonny.
The night he killed a
man trying to rape her in front of her.
Tonight his killing a man
that wanted to carve her up.
She clung to him and cried and cried, he held her and she was sure he was crying too. She loved him so much and would miss him so badly. Pulling free from her he felt her cling desperately not sure she could let him go and about to give into her pain of loosing her best friend. About to tell him she changed her mind when he forced her to look at him.
"Baby, you're right. I can't give you the life you deserve. I want you to be happy. I have to let you go"
Blubbering and crying in his face she can't find her voice. He pulls her face to his and she kisses him deeply running her hands through his short cropped hair. He lets go of her kiss and she stares into his crystal blue eyes. "Remember I love you Evangeline and if you ever need me just call."
She nods as the door closes behind him. Slowly she allows herself to fall to her knees and pulls them to her chest. She cries for her tough guy hero and the chance of a life together they never really had. She mourns him and lets her tears free her heart of the guilty hold he had claimed to.
