Cindy
I couldn't tell Jimmy why I didn't want to go home. I mean I wanted to stay anyways just because I was having so much fun with him but I knew that if I left, my dad was gonna kill me.
"Cindy? You there?" Jimmy asked waving his hand in front of my face. My heart raced as I tried to come up with a lie.
"Uh… I'm just having so much fun and I don't want to leave yet?" I replied making my puppydog face so he would believe me. He smiled and laughed.
"Don't do that Cindy, you make me feel bad," He joked. I smiled and lay my head on his shoulder. He smelled so good and it made me want him so bad. God I must be losing my mind! This is Neutron I'm talking about, the guy who's been my biggest rival only since kindergarten. Why are we suddenly best friends? I don't understand I mean I know we're supposed to work with each other but we haven't fought once at all and I was sure we would've gotten in at least 5 fights by now. It was just too weird, it made me want to start a fight even if it was for no reason at all just to get things back in order. Why am I acting like this? What if I'm in… No, no that couldn't possibly be. I would not allow myself to fall in love with him…Ever! But he's so hot! No Cindy don't do this remember you're just partners not friends! I told myself that over and over but it wasn't doing very much good. He was still driving my hormones crazy!
"Jimmy what are we doing?" I asked as I sat up and looked at him. He returned the same confused stare that I was giving him.
"What do you mean?" He asked. His expression became more serious. I was about to say something but I couldn't, I didn't want to make my only chance at safety mad at me.
"Nothing, nevermind," I replied as I looked down at the concrete floor. Jimmy gently placed his hand on my chin and lifted my head up so that we were making eye contact. His deep, ocean blue eyes for some reason always made me crazy. There was just something about them that was so intense and powerful that it made your heart race faster with every second. "It's just we used to hate each other and now-"
"Cindy… I feel the exact same way," He said half smiling. It's like we were in tune with each other's thoughts.
"You do?" I questioned.
"Yeah," he replied, "It's weird I mean we're supposed to be mortal enemies but it's like we're… we're…"
"Friends?" I finished for him.
"Yeah! Man that sounds weird," He said darting his eyes from side to side. I just laughed and scooted next to him, putting my hand on his. He gripped onto it and looked up at me as I lay my head on his shoulder.
"Why is it weird that we're friends Jimmy?" I asked now wondering myself why it was so strange. He just looked into my eyes and I could feel passion in his stare. My heart began to beat faster as his stare became more powerful. It was getting harder to breathe.
"I don't know," He said softly and smiled sweetly. I was getting so nervous yet I felt…happy. Then he slowly ran his hand up my arm and up to my shoulder and I felt like my heart was going to beat out of my chest. I felt like I was in…in…
"Jimmy," I said softly as he started leaning in closer. I shut my eyes and the next thing I knew his lips were pressed against mine and I was gripping tightly onto his shoulder. I felt like there were a bunch of butterflies on a sugar rush in my stomach. I had never had a kiss that felt so…passionate. The kiss slowly went from soft and gentle to a hardcore make-out session. He slid his hands down to my thigh and began rubbing it and pushing his body on top of mine. I lifted my legs up and put them on both sides of Jimmy as he pushed his body on mine. I moaned as the passion grew and he began kissing my neck. I had never felt anything so passionate and intense in my entire life. CINDY WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING? Suddenly my senses came back to me just as he started moving towards my breasts.
"Wait, wait," I said shakily as I pushed him off me. I stood up and fixed my shirt and then looked at him. He looked completely shocked. "Uh, I um-uh…" I tried so hard to think of something to say but I just couldn't.
"What's wrong Cindy?" He asked as though he thought nothing was wrong with this situation. I had to catch my breath because it was so intense.
"Jimmy I can't do this," I replied still breathing heavily. He stood up slowly and walked towards me but I backed away. Now he was getting angry, I could see it in his eyes. I started to get frightened. Ever since my dad started hitting me I get scared everytime a man gets mad.
"What's the matter with you Cin…"
"Nothing!" I blurted out nervously, "I-I-I just… I have to get home." I started heading towards the door quickly but he grabbed my arm and pulled me back. Then he looked at me with his two furious eyes and I could feel fear taking over me.
"Look I'm sorry I made you uncomfortable but you don't have to…" he started and he rose his hand. I immediately covered my face and shouted "Don't hit me!"
He stopped. Everything went silent. I slowly lowered my arms and looked up at him. He looked scared. "You thought I was going to hit you?" He asked frightened. I could feel tears starting to form in my eyes and my heart was beating to an extreme and I couldn't take it. He lifted his hand and gently placed it on my shoulder but I shrugged it off and ran out the door.
"Cindy wait!" I heard him yell but it was too late, I had already left. I don't know what it was that made me so scared but I had to get out of there before I embarrassed myself anymore. But where was I gonna go? I couldn't go home and I definitely couldn't go back to Jimmy's lab. If only Libby still lived on this street, then I could just run to her house. I had nowhere to run to. I didn't want to go home so I stayed outside until 1:00 in the morning when I saw my dad's light go out and then I quietly snuck up to my room and went to sleep.
Jimmy
Cindy had just left my lab in tears and I don't even know why. What could I have possibly done to freak her out that much? Maybe she didn't like the kiss? But if she didn't why would she have kept going and plus she's the one who kept pulling me on her tighter so it couldn't have been that. And why did she think I was going to hit her? For some reason when she said that it scared me, I just got this feeling like she was really messed up. I don't mean messed up like normal teenager messed up I mean really messed up. Something was going on with her that she wasn't telling me and it worried me. I want to help her but I can't do that if she's just going to run away like that. Now I know how my mom felt when I ran away from her this morning. Good I hope she does feel this bad she at least deserves it!
"Damnit I wasn't even thinking about that till now!" I said to myself angrily. I had gone a whole 6 hours without thinking about her and now it all just hit me. I fell to the ground on my knees and pulled on my hair. I can't believe she left us! What was I going to do now? I couldn't depend on dad for anything, he was so lazy. He hasn't even had a job in like 5 years and he isn't planning on getting one anytime soon. "Oh shit!" My heart just stopped. How were we going to pay for the house? Mom was our only income! No, no this can't be happening, IT CAN'T! I was freaking out and I didn't know what I was going to do. I could get a part time job but that wouldn't be enough to pay our bills. "FUCK!" I shouted at the top of my lungs! I grabbed anything that was near me and I just started throwing everything across the room and breaking all kinds of shit! I was so pissed off! I could hardly breathe, I was so mad! Then suddenly I fell on the ground and started shouting at the top of my lungs, "FUCK YOU MOM! I HATE YOU!" I was trying so hard to keep myself from crying. I tried so hard that it hurt my lungs to not let it out but I was not going to cry one tear, not for her. She wasn't worth it, she didn't deserve to be cried over! That bitch deserves to be hit by a bus and have her remains spread across the road! I was so scared! There was no way we were going to be able to pay for the house. Pretty soon the electricity, the water, everything was going to be turned off and then the house was going to be taken away. I couldn't handle it! I took my sleep spray and sprayed myself with it to knock myself out until tomorrow morning because it was the only way to get my mind off of that stupid bitch!
I started to feel light headed and then…
"Time to wake up Jimmy," VOX said. I slowly opened my eyes and I saw my surroundings. I had forgotten that I had slept in the lab that night and I was scared for about a second because I didn't realize where I was. I laid there on the floor just staring, not at anything in particular but just staring. I felt so drained of any energy I had. I didn't want to move. That's the last time I use sleep spray to get me to sleep.
I slowly managed to get up off the floor and stand up straight. Not that it did much good considering I fell right back down on the couch. All I wanted to do was just sleep. I was unbelievably tired, but I knew that I had to go to school. Shit, how was I gonna be able to face Cindy today? It was going to be very awkward. Even though last night ended badly, I had a lot of fun with Cindy. And that kiss, damn, she was the best kisser in the whole God damn world. I was so hard and I just wanted to be inside her. Infact I probably would have if she hadn't left and if she was ok with it. I don't know what came over me. I just became so seduced by her and my manly instincts wouldn't let me hold myself back. That's what scares me though is I don't want to do that with her I mean I do but I don't. It doesn't really even make sense to me. It's like I hate her…but I love her. She means the most and the least to me at the same time and I can't figure out why. But oh my God she's beautiful and such a great person.
It was now 6:20am. The bus was going to be here any second! I brushed my hair real quick and grabbed my bag and ran out the door. But when I did I felt this sudden overwhelming feeling of sadness overcome me. This is the first time I've ever left the house without hearing my parents screaming at each other.
I started to slow down as the bus came closer just thinking about how different things were going to be now, when I saw Cindy standing on the other side of the street. When she saw me she immediately looked down at her feet, avoiding eye contact with me. I stopped, wondering if I should go over there like I always do or if I should stay where I was until the bus showed up. She looked so sad, I couldn't resist. I had to go over there and comfort her.
"Hey Cindy," I called for her trying to act like nothing was wrong. She looked up, confused. I guess she thought I would be mad at her or something, which I was kinda, but I didn't want to show it. Plus it would be even more awkward if we didn't say anything to each other than if we did.
"Hey Jimmy," She replied quietly, trying hard to smile. Once I got over there I set my stuff down and gave her a hug. She looked startled for a second but then she returned the favor. "Wow, what's this all about?" She asked. I pulled away and kissed her on her forehead.
"Can we just forget about last night?" I asked hoping she would agree with me. She just smiled.
"Ok" she said laughing shortly. I looked into her eyes and she looked happy for a split second, but when you look really hard you can see that deep down it's like she's not even there. Like she's dead inside. It makes me depressed to know that she's depressed.
"Cindy," I started, "Why did you think I was going to hit you last night?" I asked completely disregarding the fact that I wanted to forget about it. Her expression quickly went from happy to mad.
"I thought you said you wanted to forget about last night?" She snapped.
"I do but I just want to know why you did that," I replied. I really wanted to understand what was going on in her mind. She gave me an evil look and whenever she does that I usually give her the same look back but this time I held my anger in because I wanted her to answer me. Suddenly the bus pulled up and she stepped up right in front of me.
"Oh look the bus is here, I guess you'll never know asshole," she said angrily, "You don't fucking know me so don't ask me fucking questions like that stupid jackass," and rolled her eyes then walked onto the bus. Now I was starting to get mad! She was way overreacting and for some reason she hit a nerve that just pissed me off to an extreme and suddenly we became the exact same Jimmy and Cindy we used to be.
"I can't believe I actually thought you were gonna change," I said and she immediately stopped in her tracks.
"Excuse me," She scoffed. I started walking up on the bus and got right in her face.
"Once a bitch, always a bitch. The Yolkians can massacre you for all I care. I'll do this all by myself, I don't need any help from a fucking cunt like you." She looked hurt by what I said but I didn't care. She wasn't going to change no matter what so there was no point in trying. I walked right past her and sat down in an empty seat and then she turned around and sat next to Libby and I felt so bad because when I saw her face I saw a tear run down it. Why do you have to be such an asshole Jimmy?
