Before Lily left Jordan's place she managed to sneak her journal out with her. She went straight to Woody's place with it and pounded impatiently on his door.
He swung the door open ready to go off on whoever was on the other side of it. "Lily" he greeted her more gently once he saw who it was.
She looked at him harshly and held the book out in front of her, preparing to read.
"January 7th, 2002. I met Woosy today, he's a new detective with the BPD but he's from some godforsaken backwoods town in Wisconsin, he's as cute as can be but wow is he green, he's gonna need a lot of work but there is plenty of potential there, oh the things I could do to the farmboy, I bet he blushes" Lily read out loud.
"What is that?" Woody asked, nodding at the book.
"It's Jordan's, just listen" she admonished.
"Her diary?" Woody asked uncertainly.
"Her journal Woody, no one over the age of 12 has a diary" Lily corrected.
"September 23rd 2002. Woody and I have gotten really close, he's my best friend, I've never had a friend like him, he's the only person who has ever been consistently there for me, I really think he'd do anything for me but only god knows why because I am constantly getting him into trouble, everybody thinks he has a crush on me, okay maybe I know he has a crush on me but the truth is I've kinda got a crush on him too, God help us both! When I went to L.A. to find answers to mom's murder I got in a little trouble, okay maybe it was more like a lot of trouble. I was in jail and Woody came all the way across the country to bail me out, again he was there for me but I'll never understand why he does these things for me.
"Decemeber 2nd 2002. Woody and I went to California on a case, we got stranded out in the desert and we kissed, things might have gone further but we were interrupted, what I would have given NOT to be interrupted, I bet he is amazing in bed! He wanted to talk about it but I cut him off saying we are better off as friends, he looked so sad when I told him then he asked for one more kiss for the road, both kisses were little but they felt amazing, maybe if we were ever stranded on a desert island things could finally happen"
"May 1st, 2005" My birthday, a time of year I always dread. I've never been one for celebrating birthdays, I prefer to let them come and go without a lot of fuss but Woody likes to make a big fuss, he showed up with all these balloons and the ring. He called it a friendship ring but it was diamond so naturally I freaked out and told him that it was too much, that I couldn't accept it, the look on his face when I told him about killed me, he looked so hurt when I told him then he started acting like a complete jackass because he was mad at me. Somewhere along the line I decided that maybe we should just go for it and I wanted the ring back but when I got ready to tell him that he backpedaled and said I was right that we should just be friends, why can't we ever be on the same page?"
"May 15, 2005. Woody got shot; they called me and told me he'd been shot by the sniper that had been preying on cops, all the others died. I have never been so scared in my entire life, I don't know what I would ever do if I lost him, he's my best friend and everything to me, I love him, I told him that before they took him to surgery, I hope he heard me"
Woody swallowed hard. "Lily" he said, trying to stop her.
"No, you need to hear this Woody, just listen" Lily told him gently.
"He hard me alright but he didn't believe me, he said I only said it out of pity and he told me to get out of his room, how's that for irony? It takes something like this to give me a kick in the ass and admit how I feel about him and now it's too late, he's changed, he doesn't want me anymore"
"Lily, that's enough" Woody said, his voice strained with emotion.
"Just one more, I promise" Lily said.
"January 8, 2006. Woody and I made love, we were stranded at the Lucy Carver Inn and it just happened. It was amazing, I wish the roads wouldn't have opened so that we would have to stay there for a few more days but we would have to come back to Boston eventually and face the music. Somehow JD knew without me telling him, he said we could get past it but I know there's no way we can, It's woody, I couldn't deny that it meant something, it meant everything"
"Why are you telling me this stuff?" Woody asked.
"I just thought you should know, look Woody I cant tell you what to do, I know you and Jordan have this whole complicated relationship and you're involved with Lu now so you have to decide, if you want to choose Lu then choose Lu but I wont let you pretend that Jordan isn't real" she said closing the journal and walking out the door.
