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Chapter 2- Half truths Normal POV
Fujisaki was in a world of his own now and everyone seemed to be noticing it. He appeared to be more nervous that usual, constantly pulling at the sleeves of his jacket as if desperate to hide what couldn't be seen. This was Yuki's fault after the whole situation with the elder in the car he had become slightly paranoid. He didn't want anyone to know about his troubles. It was easier for him to deal with them alone; after all he didn't have anyone to help him so he was used to it by now. Used to the feeling of being used and then tossed aside only for it all to happen again and again and again. There had been times when he'd just felt like giving up completely.
Sometimes he wondered why he hadn't, why he continued to push against the forces that willed him to fall. Wondered why he didn't just let them drive him into the endless darkness and trap him in it. Where his pain would subside and he would be free from all that conspired against him. It sounded like bliss but he knew that it was a trap and that all that waited for him was a world of uncertainty. Plus he wasn't one to give up; he was a fighter. It wasn't in his blood to fail and didn't he know it.
"You ok Suguru-san?" Nodding at Hiro's question Fujisaki reached for his tea, sipping slowly at the now Luke-warm substance. It was a lie of course, he wasn't ok and deep down he knew it but somehow he managed to convince himself that he was fine and that everything would be ok if he just kept quiet. It hadn't worked for five years but for some reason that fact never registered in his head.
"Yeah…why wouldn't I be?"
"You've been sat there staring out of the window for an hour and nodding at everything we've said which proves that you haven't been listening to us. " A confused glance was given to both Hiro and Shuichi who just chuckled at their friend before Hiro ruffled the younger's green hair and started his explanation. "We knew you weren't paying attention but we decided to test out that theory so instead of discussing songs and music we talked about each of us dying our hair bubblegum pink just like Shu-chan's. Then we asked you if you thought it would be a good idea and you nodded as if saying yes."
"Oh…sorry…I'm just a little distracted, that's all…" Shuichi gasped and pushed his plate of food onto the floor as he jumped up onto the table. The couples in the restaurant immediately started tutting and making various other disapproving sounds at the boy's antics. The group of three just ignored them.
"Does it have something to do with Yuki?" Suguru tilted his head in confusion which made Shuichi chuckle slightly. "In the car earlier, it sounded like you were talking about something serious. Was Yuki being mean to you? If he was you can tell me Yuki's mean to a lot of people it's nothing personnel he's just mean natured. Well actually no he's not but…well you know he has a dark gloomy past that I can't talk about so maybe I should just shut up…"
"No Shuichi he wasn't being mean infact he was being nice and giving me some much needed advice. I suppose that's why I've been so distant I've just had a lot to think about." Hiro nodded and grabbed the back of Shuichi's shirt yanking him down off of the table and back into his seat before re-turning his attention to the sixteen-year old boy sat next to him.
"Do you want to talk to us about it?" The younger shook his head… that was the last thing he wanted to do. Drag other people into the twisted mess that was his existence. It just wouldn't be fair for him to do such a thing, or so he believed.
"No I'm fine, really…anyway…I should be getting back to NG…you guy's coming?" Fujisaki asked as he pushed his chair away from the table and stood waiting for his friend's reactions before he took his leave from them.
"Nah, I want to get back and see Yuki…oh I could make him dinner!" Hiro paled at that comment, Shuichi's cooking wasn't the best in the world and that was putting it mildly.
"Poor guy" The pink haired boy shot Hiro a glare and a half but all it succeeded in doing was making him laugh so he promptly gave up and returned his facial expression to the normal super happy hyper mode. "But yeah…I'll go back to NG with you Suguru-san, we can work on some arrangements, of course I can only stay for an hour because I'm going out tonight…you don't mind do you?"
"Why would I? Well we'd best get going, see ya tomorrow ok Shuichi-san?" The vocalist nodding and began sucking a bar of pokey as the other two departed from his company. He didn't care what Hiro had said he was going to make Yuki a meal and there was going to be candles and everything. Yes you may have guessed it by now Shindo Shuichi was a hopeless romantic.
XxxxxX"Sakano-san, K-san, please sit." Tohma said with a smile as the two found their way into his office. Nodding they took up his offer and pulled back two seats that were opposite the blonde. "Now I'm interested in how Bad Luck are progressing, I understand that they are working on another album is that correct?" K's sapphire eyes narrowed, Tohma already knew all this, he couldn't help but wonder what the other really wanted to know from them.
"Uh yes it is Seguchi-sama. I'm sorry that they haven't recorded anything yet but Shindo's mood swings never seem to stop, every five minutes he's either overly happy or depressed and Hiro's love struck with some mystery person that he's keeping very quite about and as for Fujisaki well I'm not quite sure what's going on with him…" Tohma immediately perked up at the mention of his baby cousin. He hadn't talked with Suguru in so long and couldn't help but wonder about the younger.
"What do you mean?" K smiled, so that was it Tohma was becoming worried about his cousin but he couldn't help wondering if that was the only feeling Tohma was harbouring for the child. The glint that appeared in the ocean coloured eyes when someone praised the younger or talked about him with pride and respect was indisputably love. Or if not something unbelievably close, and it wouldn't have surprised him if this entire meeting had only been conducted so that Tohma could see what his cousin had been up to.
"Well…uh…he's just uh…been distracted that's all…I mean everyone gets distracted every once in a while don't they?"
"Fujisaki Suguru certainly doesn't without there being a reason for it. I should know," K chuckled.
"You should also know why he's been distracted and should be helping him overcome it but you don't and you're not." Unholstering his gun he pointed it at Sakano as an early warning to get out. Sakano froze at the sight of the weapon, this was why he didn't like working with K, he was always pointing guns at him and he really did not appreciate that. "I need to talk with Tohma, in three seconds if you are not gone I shall fire a warning shot. After that if you are still here…well…would you rather be buried or cremated." Before another word could be uttered Sakano was gone, the door slamming behind him as he made a B-line for the exit of NG.
"You are correct K-san I should, unfortunately I don't"
"Why don't you go and talk to him about it?"
"It's a good idea but Suguru is not one to open his heart and beg for help when he is faced with a problem. I fear it is that, that will be his undoing, I had a visit from Yuki today," K gave a look that asked 'what about?' Tohma sighed and glanced out of the window. "He said that Suguru was lost and alone, trapped in a void from which there was no escape. Then he told me that I was so wound up in things that held no importance or impact that I was neglecting the things I cared for most and that I was allowing fate to toy with things I held so dear. I haven't been able to forget those words all day."
"Does Yuki-san make a habit of being so cryptic?"
"It annoys me that Yuki knows things about Suguru that I do not, if it had been anyone else I wouldn't have cared. I'm not sure why K-san, is it because I held Suguru in my arms when he was no more than a day old and saw how happy and excited the small boy was just to be alive? Or is it because I perhaps love him more than a cousin should another cousin?" K smiled and stood from his seat, walking over to the window and leaning against it as he stared out into the dark, the stars twinkling in the sky and the lights on the ground.
"I think it's a bit of both, you know that whatever is going on with Suguru-san is crushing him and taking away his happiness and faith in life itself. You worry that he might do something to stop the pain altogether. Something that might snatch him away from you and that the child you once held would become nothing more than a memory before you even had a chance to explain how you really felt about him. And you feel as though you are to blame for it, you think you should have known and should have stopped it from happening before everything spiralled out of control."
"As brash and gun crazed as you are K-san you are also very wise and I value the advice you have given me today. I have much to think about and if I am not mistaken if you stay much longer you are going to be late for your date." K glanced down at his watch and then nodded as he started towards the door, smiling he turned to face Tohma.
"You should go talk to him Tohma, sometimes all anyone needs is to talk about what's been bothering them. And how did you know about my date?" Tohma chuckled and pointed at the elder man's hand.
"It was written on your hand, I couldn't help but read, of course I never knew you were so forgetful K."
"I guess it's true what they say, you learn something new everyday, good luck Tohma" and with that said he was gone, leaving Tohma alone to decide what to do. He couldn't stop wondering why things, just for once, couldn't be simple.
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"Well Suguru it's ten o'clock and I've got to get going, you want a lift home?" Fujisaki sighed and shook his head, no, that was the last place he wanted to go. He pretty much figured that whilst he was in NG with the security guards out front he was safe. He felt safe there and he didn't want to leave and go home to where he was anything but safe.
"No thanks, I'm gonna stay for a while and try some different arrangements, see you tomorrow and have fun with uh…K-san won't you?" Hiro froze in the doorway and slowly turned to face his friend shocked and confused as to how he had known whom his mystery lover was. Both he and K had opted to keep their relationship a secret and no one aside from them knew about it so how had Suguru found out?
"How did you know?" Suguru shrugged and smiled, he knew because of the way Hiro and K were, just like Yuki had known about him by his attitude and actions.
"The way you are around each other I guess, the casual looks and small touches that you give to one another. And he hardly ever pulls a gun on you. All in all I suppose I didn't really know until you turned around and confirmed it three minutes ago." Hiro rolled his eyes and chuckled at his friend sighing heavily as he turned towards the door.
"I just can't keep secrets from you can I Suguru-san? Well I've gotta go, see ya soon kiddo!" He shouted as he ran out into the hallway, letting the door slam shut behind him. The sixteen-year old giggled at his friends antics; Hiro was acting like a schoolgirl that was going to the prom. It was amusing to say the least. He growled quietly when he felt a sharp pain shoot through his arm. Lifting up his jacket and shirt sleeve he stared down at the gauze, blood had begun to seep through the bandaging and he knew that he would have to change them soon. The thought of returning home sent shivers up his spine.
"Tut, tut, tut… what have you been doing to yourself Suguru?" He froze at the sound of that voice, his mind working overtime and asking thousands of questions at once. Things like 'how did he know where I was? How did he get in? Why is he here? What does he want from me?' He just wanted to run now, run away, as far away as physically possible. He had never felt uncomfortable at NG before but he sure as hell did now. Knowing that this madman could just walk in whenever he wanted tore him apart, because at NG in this little music room where Bad Luck practised everyday he had found sanctuary.
And now that had been tainted. Taken away from him, just like everything else, his happiness, his trust in humanity, his childhood and his innocence, all of it gone in the blink of an eye and all of it taken by that man. The man with the devil eyes that never showed any remorse for any of his wrong doings. The man that had raped him time and time again and then just left… walked back to his perfect little family… business as usual. Suguru didn't understand how he managed to live with himself, but somehow he did, he was a monster, nothing phased him or upset him. Nothing…
"I asked you a question boy…" He hissed as he walked into the room, slamming the door behind him. Fujisaki jumped at the noise, immediately cursing himself for being so weak and pathetic, he wanted to move…wanted to run but he couldn't, he was frozen to the spot. His hands resting on the keyboard, he had been going to do the arrangements for the new songs but he couldn't now could he? He knew what was coming now, knew what was going to happen to him because it had all happened before. More times than he could count. He shivered as the elder stepped closer to him, licking his lips in anticipation of what was to come.
"Fine, we don't have to talk…after all actions speak louder than words…" he slurred grabbing hold of the younger boy and slamming him up against the wall. Fujisaki whimpered in pain at the sudden force and attempted to break free from the bone-shattering grip. Asakura just laughed and practically threw Suguru onto the floor, pinning the younger to the ground by straddling his waist and fastening his arms down with only one hand, the other finding it's way under Suguru's shirt where it began to claw at the soft creamy skin.
"No…please…don't…" Fujisaki begged as he thrashed about desperately trying to escape Asakura's iron grip but to no avail. Tears welled as he thought about what horrible fate awaited him.
"You know, your mother said that I could have this one for free…she told me that you'd be here and said that since I was such a loyal customer it would be ok for me to have just one on the house. Funny thing is the security guards at the front let me in because they thought I was your father."
"You are NOT my father!" Suguru growled as he attempted to yank his arms out of the elder man's grasp but the sharp stinging in his upper arm told him not to do that anymore. So that was it, he was stuck, doomed to be molested once again. He couldn't help wondering how this fate had befallen him, what he had done to deserve such a painful and cruel way of life.
"Of course not, if I was I wouldn't be doing this to you…or maybe I would…who knows?" Growling lustfully the elder man crushed his lips onto Suguru's stopping the cry for help from escaping the smaller boy's lips. Tiny crystallised tears fell from the corners of closed eyes as Asakura ripped the mint shirt allowing him access to the milk coloured skin that it had protected. He whimpered quietly when he felt the nails of the stronger man cut into his skin. Ripping away at the flesh and letting blood seep out before plunging his tongue into the cavern that was Fujisaki's mouth. So that was it, Suguru just gave up, fighting against it was doing no good so he surrendered, decided to let that monster do whatever he wanted to his body. After all he would never be able to touch his mind, his heart, his soul…
"Good boy, you've learnt that fighting against me is no longer an option…" The elder whispered, letting his thumb trace over the mark he had made on Suguru's face the other night. Fujisaki just flinched away from the touch as if it were burning him; all he wanted was for someone to save him from what he considered to be a fate worse than death.
"I suggest you get off of him" growling at the interruption Asakura glanced over his shoulder to see no other than Seguchi Tohma stood in the doorway. Arms folded and eyes narrowed dangerously as a warning.
"And you are?"
"I am his cousin and the person in charge of this company, now I am telling you to get off of him and get out." He explained voice placid, his eyesight fell upon Suguru, the chocolate eyes closed tightly and tears slipping from the corners. His shirt shredded and his chest cut and bloody. He couldn't stop thinking about what would have happened had he waited to go see Fujisaki later or if he hadn't gone to see him at all. Those thoughts just made him even angrier. And an angry Seguchi Tohma was not one you would like to piss off.
"No way, you're interrupting me…now get out!" Asakura ordered, Tohma chuckled at that, but it wasn't a happy chuckle or an amused one it was one of an angered and threatening nature. As he walked over to where Asakura was straddling his baby cousin he kept glancing at Suguru…the chocolate orbs never once opened. Perhaps that was for the best, Tohma knew he could handle bastards like Asakura but he didn't know whether he could stand to see the shimmer of hope and happiness that had once been so alive in Fujisaki's eyes disappear and die as he knew it had. Grabbing hold of Asakura's neck he slammed the other up against the nearby wall, hoping to hell that he's broken or bruised something.
"I only ever deliver one warning after that things tend to get a little out of control and sometimes people get hurt…maybe even die. I'd like to say that I would hate to see that happen to you but it would be a lie. How dare you touch my cousin in such a way without his permission! You have hurt him and now you must pay!" Tohma growled his grip tightening on the elder man's throat stopping him from taking in oxygen. In essence strangling him. "Death is far less that what you deserve but it will suffice."
"Se…Se…Seguchi-sama?" Turning his head slightly Tohma saw Suguru leaning on his elbows. Confusion in his eyes as he saw the scene infront of him. The blonde promptly dropped the man whose neck he had previously been crushing. No longer caring if the man lived or died, only caring about how his cousin was.
"Hai Suguru, are you ok?" He asked, crouching down beside the younger and gently resting his hand on the smaller boy's shoulder. The touch sent electricity running through him, he had never expected for Suguru's skin to be that soft, it was like silk… no… it was softer than silk. It was perfect…he was perfect…
"I'm out of here that guy's fucking mental!" Asakura growled as he stormed out of the room. Tohma's eyes narrowed once again, if that man thought that it was over he was very much mistaken. Tohma would get his revenge but first of all he wanted to care for Suguru, as he should have been doing from the very start. Maybe then none of this would have happened
"Suguru? Are you ok?" Slowly the younger shook his head, tears welling in the chocolate depths once again. With a quiet and comforting 'shh' Tohma pulled the sixteen-year old into his arms, holding him close and gently stroking through the silken green hair. "Shh, it's ok Suguru…would you like me to take you home?"
"No! Please…I can't go back there…" Tohma wished to ask why but he didn't want to push Suguru, not yet. At the moment he just wanted to comfort the younger, keep him safe…hold him in his arms. Protect him from everything that conspired to hurt him. He smiled slightly when he felt Suguru's arms wrap around his waist and the younger boy's face embed into his shirt.
"Would you like to come home with me Suguru-chan? I would like that very much and I know that Mika would love to see you again." It wasn't so much a question; he was going to take him home with him regardless of what his answer might be. Composing himself for a few moments he glanced up at the elder, shaking his head and saying no despite his better judgement.
"No thank you Seguchi-sama, I wouldn't want to be a burden." Suguru explained as he tried to pull out of his cousin's grasp. Tohma's grasp around the younger's waist just tightened as he gently knocked a few strands of green hair out of the smaller boy's chocolate eyes.
"Don't be foolish Suguru-chan, I would like nothing more than to protect you, I've failed thus far but I will not again. You are coming home with me so that I can keep an eye on you and no…it is not open for discussion." Suguru went to object but Tohma's index finger pressing onto his soft lips silenced him before the words could even escape into the world. Helping Fujisaki up Tohma removed his coat and then draped it over his cousin's bare shoulders before slowly assisting him out of the building and into his car. He was going to protect Suguru from now on with or with out the younger's blessing…
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Ok, second chappie done thank you to all my wonderful reviewers I thank you for taking the time to read and for all the wonderful things you said, you all rock!
