Kris wanted nothing more than to cling to him for as long as her heart was fluttering this way. She took in his clean sent and the warm touch of his cotton t-shit. His body was so familiar, and new in a tingling sort of way. But soon enough his gentle effects wore off and her mind caught up with her body. All of her doubts and insecurities snaked their way back into her thoughts. No matter how right it felt at the moment, she knew it couldn't work, not now, maybe some day, but not now. She released him but he kept his hands on her back.

"Kris… I."

"Junior, no." He frowned already hurt by her resistance.

"I stayed away for months because you wanted time, you needed to be on your own, and look where it got us! I can't stop thinking about you, I sleep and I dream about you, I wake up and I reach out for you, and I am startled when my arm falls and it doesn't touch you. You can't seriously look at me and tell me that you don't love me."

"Stop it! You disappeared for two months. What was I supposed to think? Junior I don't love you anymore, and I am so sorry but I moved on." The moment she said it her heart felt bitter and her throat tightened and she could feel hot tears welling in the back of her eyes, threatening any moment to spill out. His face dropped, and his whole body went tense, suddenly feeling sick and weak. His head felt to heavy to hold any longer and every inch of his body hurt. He turned and let his legs carry him toward the door of the barn. Watching him go, an intense panic filled her body.

"Wait!" she gasped through her sudden tears. He couldn't hear her over his own throbbing heartbeat which pounded in his head.

She lay shivering on her bead surrounded by a pool of used tissues. At one point she must have gone to the bathroom and brought out a roll of toilet paper so she wouldn't have to get up for tissues. A sob escaped her lungs and her body shuddered, the hot tears rolled back into her hair. Her moping was interrupted by a sharp knock at the door.

"Don't come in!" she yelled in her nasally "I've been crying" voice. The door swung open despite her demands. Matt stepped in and scrunched his face when he saw Kris attempting to shove about fifty used tissues into a drawer.

"I just saw junior…" he trailed off noticing her red eyes. Never was the fastest guy when it came to emotions. "Is um… something wrong?" Kris who had been trying to sit up collapsed backwards and squinted her eyes up.