You Don't Know The Real Me – Chapter 10

Let Me Go


"Bevelle! Well, I must say that I'm excited to be here! No more riding on that stinking hover…" Amon said, still holding Rikku's hand.

Blythe laughed, Paine on his arm. "Aw, you didn't mind one bit seeing as you got to spend time with Rikku. Speaking of her, when do you plan on letting go of her hand?"

"I'll do it when I feel like it." Amon retorted, and Rikku blushed. He squeezed her hand and addressed the crowd. "Tonight, we have a special treat for you. Rikku and Paine of the Gullwings are going to sing for you. I don't know exactly what their going to sing, but-"

Rikku grabbed his mic. "Right! Paine, let's go!"

Paine laughed, and Blythe handed his microphone to her. "Have fun." He whispered in her ear.

((A/N: Bold is Rikku, and italicized is Paine. Both is both of our ladies… yeah.))

Rikku started off the song with her light and uplifting soprano. The crowd roared for the pretty Al Bhed, the men hooting. Amon felt his anger rise in his chest, and Blythe punched him lightly on the arm.

"Dude, they're not harming anyone. Let them dream for a while."

Get a load of me, get a load of you
Walkin' down the street, and I hardly know you
It's just like we were meant to be
Holding hands with you when we're out at night
Got a girlfriend, you say it isn't right
And I've got someone waiting too

What if this is just the beginning
We're already wet, and we're gonna go swimming

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

Blythe and Amon immediately recognized the song, Why Can't I. It was an older song, but the girls gave it new life. They found themselves nodding to the beat. Rikku dropped out here, and let Paine take the second verse. The crowd was silenced, listening to her deep and melodic alto.

Isn't this the best part of breakin' up
Finding someone else you can't get enough of
Someone who wants to be with you too
It's an itch we know we are gonna scratch
Gonna take a while for this egg to hatch
But wouldn't it be beautiful

Here we go, we're at the beginning
We haven't fucked yet, but my heads spinning

Blythe was speechless at Paine's voice. 'The voice of an angel… an angel that's going to have her heart broken by a cold hearted man…' he thought to himself, and hung his head in shame. 'I don't deserve such an angel… yet I manage to have her. How will it all work out in the end?'

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

High enough for you to make me wonder
Where it's goin'

High enough for you to pull me under
Somethin's growin'

Out of this that we can control
Baby I am dyin'

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

As the last line was sung, the crowd cheered harder than they've ever cheered before. Blythe came up behind Paine and she handed the mic to him with a hesitant smile.

"Well, that's the loudest I've ever heard the crowd scream. So, do you think they're pretty good?" Blythe asked, smiling down at Paine. The crowd roared with applause and screams of approval.

Amon laughed. "I'll take that as a yes!" he said as Rikku handed his mic back to him. "Now," Amon said, tapping his foot. "If you would kindly stop starring at Paine, can we get going on with the show?"

"Huh?" He replied, looking up from Paine's crimson gaze.

Amon shook his head sadly. "Talk about a one track mind."

Paine and Rikku laughed as they went to stand upstage, and watched the guys exchange another few friendly insults before starting the song.

((A/N: Bold Amon. Italicized Blythe. You know the drill.))

Blythe started the song, and the crowd was instantly silent. This was a song that had never been preformed before, and they wanted to catch every word of it.

One more kiss could be the best thing
But one more lie could be the worst
And all these thoughts are never resting
And you're not something I deserve

In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me

You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go
Let me go

Paine immediately didn't like this song. This was hitting a little to close to home for her and Blythe. He always claimed that she didn't know who he really was… was he singing this to prove his point?

Dream ahead to what I hope for
And I turn my back on loving you
How can this love be a good thing
When I know what I'm goin through

In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me

You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
You love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go
Just Let me go...
Let me go

Paine was trying to force down her tears. This was… this was painful. Rikku now noticed her friend's discomfort. "Paine… what's wrong?"

"It's for me…" she whispered, her eyes fastened on Blythe's back. Rikku was about to ask what she was talking about, then she listened to the words.

'Poor Paine… he's telling her right now.' She thought sadly to herself as the guys continued to sing on.

And no matter how hard I try
I can't escape these things inside I know
I know…
When all the pieces fall apart
You will be the only one who knows
Who knows

You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know Who I am
So let me go
Just let me go

And you love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't know who I am
And you love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't know who I am

As the last note faded into the concert hall, the crowd roared. That was something new! No doubt that was going to be their next big hit! But there was one person who didn't like this song at all, and she ran off the stage.

Blythe saw her leave. He dropped his mic and ran after. The mic hit the stage with a high-pitched screech, and everyone winced. Amon picked it up, turned both mics off, and walked backstage with Rikku.


Paine flung open the door of her room at the hotel and collapsed on her bed. Blythe burst into her room a few seconds later, and immediately ran to the bed. He kneeled at the edge, and made Paine look at him.

"Paine… please, let me explain!" he whispered hoarsely.

She was startled to see a few tears on his face. "That was for me… wasn't it? That song was for me."

"It was-"

"Let you go? Is that what you want me to do?"

"NO! Please… I would die if you did that. 'You love me but you don't know who I am'… that was my main point."

"Don't you mean you and Amon? Rikku doesn't know-"

"She does. Amon told her our secret at the Thunder Plains."

Paine's eyes narrowed at the news. "Did you think that I couldn't handle it?"

"No! Paine… please… I didn't say anything because I'm a damn coward that can't do anything right. And because of that, you're probably never going to speak to me again. I'm… I'm not Blythe. Blythe doesn't even exist. It's a façade."

"What are you talking about?" Paine asked, looking at him nervously. "How can you not be Blythe? And even if you're not him, who are you, some Yevonite?"

Blythe flinched. "Not just some Yevonite Paine…"

Paine looked at him oddly for a few seconds, and then disbelief spread over her face. "You can't be serious." When Blythe made no effort to correct her, Paine shook her head. "Oh no, you can't be…"

She never finished her statement. A bright light flashed, and she raised her hand to block the light out of her eyes. When the light had dimmed, she moved her hand away. She let out a sob.

A tan hand brushed aside a few locks of snow white hair, from a pair of deep chocolate brown eyes.

"Paine… I'm so sorry…" the man said softly. That soft voice… Paine began to cry.

You love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go
Just let me go


A/N: ((silence)) Don't hate me. Please don't hate me. This fic probably has one or two more chapters left...

Why Can't I? - Liz Phair
Let Me Go - 3 Doors Down

mushimars - I updated, yay me. But please, don't hate me just yet...

Paine3 - Well... now Paine knows. I had to tie it to a song, sorry. I just heard this song on the radio and practically danced in my seat. It fits well in my opinion.

for always x - Yes, fluff is good... sorry there isn't any here...

marajade963 -Paine knows... which I guess can be a good/bad thing. Depends on how you look at it. Don't worry, next chapter comes soon... I hope.

Flame of Bevelle - Glad you found last chapter funny, or whatever chapter it was. I forgot one, so you never know. Heh heh... still don't know how I managed to do THAT. Why did I stop like that? Because it's a good ending that's why. Drives the readers insane.. Just kidding.

Kitsu Kurasei - ((lol)) Yeah, I can't stay away long.

Please, don't help me! I have one or two more chapters to fix this for you... if I decide too... ((evil grin)) Read and review please!

-Vincent's Angel of Chaos-

Disclaimer: I don't the songs, let alone FFX-2!