a/n I think all you people will like this chapter. maybe. whatever.
Disclaimer: Don't own I.S.. never have never will
Chapter 3- Confusion
"tommy? It's me.." Jude spoke on one end of her cell phone
"Hey girl...need something?"
"Uh...yea actually.. You wanna come pick me up again?"
"I just dropped you off! Where do you need to go?"
"I need to talk to you..."
"So talk to me here."
"I want to hang out with you."
"Its 5:20. Your curfew is in 3 and a half hours"
"Just enough time."
"I'll be there"
Tommy hung up the phone. He was happy that he was going to see her, but laziness got the better of him and he was slow to get up. His feelings for Jude never ceased, but he tried his best to bury them under where nobody could see. after all, she was still only 16, turning 17 in 2 months. And he was still 22, turning 23 in 4 weeks.
He pulled up to Jude's driveway and watched her gracefully run to the car. Her red hair was dancing behind her in the wind. she got up to the viper and smiled weakly at him. He did the same. She hopped in and together they drove off.
"So, what did you need?" Tommy asked, parking under a tree in an empty parking lot.
"uh...it's about Jimmy."
"Let me guess...he's your new boyfriend" Tommy said sarcastically
"No...he tried to kiss me. but I'm sure he wanted to be my boyfriend too" Jude replied.
"Did you kiss him back?" Tommy asked, scared for the answer.
"nope..."
"Why not? I thought you liked him"
"That's exactly what he said! But I didn't like him like that."
"Why not?"
"I told him I liked somebody else..."
"Oh..." Tommy was somewhat hurt, but also quite curious. "Who's that?"
Jude took a moment before replying, and even then she kept her eyes focused on her shoe laces.
"...you..."
Tommy went silent. He didn't know what to say. He knew that if he said anything against it she'd snap on him like usual.
"Jude..."
"I know Tommy. You asked, I answered thats it"
"But I can't...You don't..."
"I know Tommy"
"you don't see..."
"just take me home tommy i dont need a lecture"
"jude please...listen.."
"No tommy I don't need to hear this again!"
"JUDE!" Tommy leaned forward and turned her head, silencing her with a passionate kiss. He didn't know what he was doing, but he was letting instinct take over and he didn't mind it. Jude was startled at first, but instantly gave in and kissed him back. They sat in the car, lips entwined, for at least 15 seconds, loving every second of it. Jude didn't understand what she felt, happiness, or confusion. Sitting there holding her, Tommy finally regained reality's perspective. He pulled away from the kiss unwillingly and turned his face away. Jude kept her eyes closed for a minute, hoping that she was still in the moment but temporarily frozen to where she couldn't feel anything. Finally she opened her eyes and saw Tommy staring out the window of the car.
"Damn...I can't do this again..." Tommy cursed. he rubbed his forehead and looked anywhere but at Jude, though he could feel her sad eyes burning through his face. He glanced over at her and sure enough, he was right. There she was, staring at him with those huge, crystal orbs gaping at him like a sick puppy.
"Just...take me home" Jude managed to say. He obeyed, and drove off, mentally slapping himself the whole way. The drive to Jude's house was silent, but they both knew what eachother was feeling. Tommy knew that Jude felt sad, hurt, and stupid for saying anything in the first place. Jude knew that Tommy felt...well Tommy just felt stupid.
"I uh...I'll see you tomorrow." Jude said, as they came to a halt in front of her house. She looked at him. The sun was down and the street likes reflected on his face perfectly. Jude quickly looked away and stepped out.
"Yeah...see you" Tommy refused to look at her again. He hated himself again, just like before. He sat rubbing his hand through his hair in wonder, and waited a few minutes before leaving. His stomach was churning the whole ride home, he couldn't believe what he just did...again. He wondered if he'll keep doing this...again. And how many more times can he break a Harrison heart? Jude, then Sadie, then Jude, how much more does he have to take from the Harrisons? He thought about quitting his job as Jude's producer, and realized that was utterly impossible. He couldn't just give up on Jude because of this, after all, she's the one who told him she liked him. However he was the one who kissed her. But maybe that was just an attempt to shut her up, she WAS talking 90 miles a minute. Tommy was sending these thoughts through his head, desperately trying to get rid of the horrible guilt that sat lingering in his brain. He finally reached home, shut the door, and threw a vase against his bedroom door. He then cursed at himself and ran for the bathroom to take a shower.
"I'm home" Jude called out to her mother
"Where were you?"
"Uh..Kat needed help on her homework"
"oh okay, well its getting late. take a bath and go to bed"
"Fine, mom"
Jude knew that there was no way she was getting any sleep tonight. Still, she took her shower and dried her hair, then sat on the bed to write a new song.
Falling down
the night becomes my blanket
and I can't see whats right in front of me
You told me this before
So why are you telling me again
I've heard the story
I've read your lies
I've risked everything but I realize
You're only telling the truth
It hurts now but
I'll get over it soon
I'll get over it soon
Jude folded the piece of paper up. It definitely wasn't the best song she'd ever written. It was probably in the bottom 3. But whatever, she'll fix it up tomorrow. She rubbed her eyes and sat on her pillow. Silently she began weeping. Her tears became her lullaby, and she cried herself to sleep.
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