a/n This is officially my favorite chapter of this story that I have written so far. unfortunately for you guys, it's pretty lengthy. but here is where we enter sort of the climax of the story (I think...if I remember what climax means...) So yea... hope yall enjoy! Reviewww
Chapter 11- My mistakes
"...we need to talk"
"Oh...okay..." Jude walked over to the chair by the bed and sat down. She looked at Tommy, waiting for him to say something. He looked away and closed his eyes. Jude knew he was in pain right now, forcing himself to talk. "Hey, Tommy, don't push yourself. I can sit here if you want just don't..."
"Jude... Laying in this hospital, I have come face to face with death, you know?"
"You're alive..."
"but there was a possibility that I wouldn't be, I was lucky."
"...go on" Jude looked away. She hated the truth of this situation.
"...Life's too short...to not go for what you really want. And let me tell you... if I wasn't in this bed right now..."Tommy explained "I would hold you in my arms right now, because I realize what I need the most in my life is to have you with me...That was my mistake" Jude's eyes shot up, and she gazed at him. She wasn't sure quite what to say. Considering the fact she wasn't sure what he was saying.
"Tommy I'll always be here for you, you know that"
"I love you Jude" Tommy looked away, wondering if saying that was going to be his regret or not. He felt a hand on his shoulder, and looked up to see Jude hovering over him. She hiked herself on the bed like the last time, and wrapped her arm around his stomach.
"I love you too" She whispered back. Tommy couldn't help but smile. Jude looked up and saw that he was smiling, and smiled with him. She hadn't seen him happy since the day he got shot. It was a relief to know that he was happy right now. She resumed putting her head on his shoulder, and he put his arm around her. They sat there in silence momentarily, and then began conversing.
"You know...I should go.."Jude said, looking at the clock. it was 9:02, and the visiting hours were over at 8:30.
"Nooo" Tommy begged.
"Well, I can't stay here. If I fall asleep and they catch me..."
"They caught you before"
"But you weren't in this room"
"So what? a room is a room"
"Alright, how bout I stay awake while you sleep. And I'll watch TV or something. I'll set my cell alarm every 30 minutes to make sure I haven't fallen asleep."
"Why do I have to sleep?"
"Because, you need time to heal."
"oh, right."
Jude kissed Tommy on the cheek, and got out of his bed. She sat back down in the chair next to the bed, and began flipping through the TV channels. When she found one she was satisfied with, she set her alarm on her phone. After a minute or so of watching TV, and Jude was startled out of a daze when she felt Tommy grip her hand. She looked over, and he was half asleep, smiling like a baby. She laughed a little, and watched him drift off into a complete sleep.
A couple of hours rushed by, and Jude realized that she hadn't exactly been watching tv this whole time. She was thinking about what to do, what Tommy meant, and why he said it now of all times. She looked at her cell phone clock. wow... 4AM already...Jude yawned heavily. She couldn't go to sleep, despite how tempting it was. She rubbed her eye and forced herself awake. She would have to be out of here by 6, because they give Tommy a shot at 7.
Sadly, 6 AM came quicker than she had hoped, and she loosened her grip on Tommy's hand to release her own, standing up and grabbing her things. Tommy was obviously a light sleeper, and woke up. He groaned when he saw Jude about to leave.
"Shh..."Jude whispered "I seriously have to go now"
"Right, right" Tommy gave in.
"so I'll uh...see if I can come by at the right hours tonight?"
"You better come back in 2 hours, woman!" He joked.
"Well I was hoping to go get some sleep first. Then eat, I've never been more hungry in my life"
"Oh, yea. Do that. Come visit me whenever"
Jude smiled and gave tommy a light hug, then walked out of the room. A few moments later, she rushed back in. Tommy looked at her in surprise.
"I don't know how to get out."
"You've gotten out before"
"Not when I had to sneak out!"
"Take the elevator down, if they catch you, tell them you're a volunteer. If I remember right, they come at all hours."
"Thanks tommy. Jude turned to leave again, but stopped and turned back around. "Hey..Tommy?"
"Yep?"
"When you get better...we'll talk more...about last night?"
"Definitely."
Jude grinned and left the building. Tommy looked out his window and saw Jude walking through the parking lot. She doesn't have a car... He thought. Just then, he saw a cab pull up next to her, and she got inside. If this is how she's getting here, she must be paying a fortune...
It was yet again, the same cab driver.
"Hi" She greeted. She realized she might as well be friendly since he takes the time to be her chaufer.
" 'ello" He replied. "how are ya?"
"I'm...happy"
"Well that's good."
"Yep" Jude couldn't help but smiling.
"How's yer friend?"
"Oh..He's...Great. Well, Getting better" Jude remembered that he was talking about the condition and not how she thought of him personally.
"Good, Good" The cab driver went silent after that. The silence was interrupted when Jude's cell phone rang. It was Jude's mom.
"Hello?" She answered
"WHERE ARE YOU!" Her mother screamed. Jude could tell in her voice that she had been crying.
"I'm on my way home mom, relax."
"Yea you better be on your way home! Where were you who are you with!"
"MOM! I'm in a cab. I was..." Jude wasn't sure what to tell her mother. Suddenly, she heard Sadie in the background.
"Sorry mom..uh...Jude went over to Kat's house for the night, and she asked me to tell you. I forgot, sorry" Sadie replied. Sadie knew where I was...Why is she covering for me? Jude thought.
"Well get home! NOW!" Victoria ordered.
"Yes mom" Jude hung up the phone.
"Who was that? Yer mum?" The cab driver asked.
"Yep."
"She know bout yer friend in the hospital?"
"Nope"
"ooo...bad move girl"
"I can handle it, thanks" Jude was utterly annoyed now, and she didn't want anyone to bother her. Suddenly her phone rang again. This time, it was the hospital.
"Hello?"
"Jude!" Tommy said on the other line "They're letting me go tomorrow! I have to do physical therapy and whatnot, but it's finally healing!"
"REALLY! That's great!" Jude retorted
"Yeah, I have to have this nurse live with me for a week or so, not strict or anything, but just to watch over me."
"Oh, like a nanny"
"Shut up" Tommy laughed.
"Is that any way to treat me after I stayed in there all night watching over you?"
"Sorry girl."
"Yea yea.. Hey how are you getting home? Is that nanny bringing you?"
"No, she comes only like 3 times a day, just to check up on me."
"Oh so now you're a senior citizen. heh, so how then?"
"How what?"
"Are you getting home?"
"I donno, maybe Kwest could pick me up"
"uh..I donno Tommy. He's been working overdrive lately. Been reallllly busy"
"Oh.."
"But I'm sure the cab wouldn't mind it, he drives me there and back every day anyway"
The cab driver just nodded in agreement.
"Oh..Okay"
"Unless you don't want to..."
"No, it's not that, it's just.." Tommy had forgotten his promise to speak with her about certain things he had confessed... and he was feeling very hipocritical right now.
"Yea, I got it. I uh..I dont think I can go back today."
"What? Why?"
"Talk to you later"
"Jude! Why?"
"Bye Tommy"
Jude hung up the phone. She noticed in his voice that he didn't want to talk about it.She thought he said what he said because he thought he'd be in the hospital a much longer time and that Jude would forget about it. But he didn't consider how she truly felt about it.
"Was that Tommy?"
"Well..yea" Jude was going over the many times she had said his name in that conversation.
"Well well well, little Tommy Q is gettin' out of the hospital early, eh?"
How did he know that? Jude thought. She recalled that she never said his last name once in that conversation. It could be any Tommy in the world. Of course, the shooting WAS all over the tabloids, and everyone knew that Tom Quincy was Jude's producer. So Jude just brushed it aside and entered deep thought.
She walked into her house, it was 6:43 AM. She rubbed her eyes, which were now red and itchy from being so tired. Her mother opened the door before Jude had a chance to finish walking up the steps.
"Jude why are you not wearing a sweater? It's freezing out here!" Victoria walked down the steps and wrapped a jacket around Jude's shoulders. "What's wrong? Why are you crying?"
"I'm fine mom"
"You don't look fine."
"I am fine."
Jude wiped her eyes and walked upstairs, leaving her shoes at the door. Victoria watched as her daughter moped upstairs, oblivious to what was going on. Jude flopped herself on her bed, and almost instantly went into a deep sleep.
"Tommy I'm so happy" Jude said.
"I am too"
Tommy kissed her lightly and held her hand. Jude wrapped her arms around him and embraced him tightly. He pushed her away after shrieking in pain. There was blood covering Tommy and Jude. Jude was freaking out as Tommy fell to the floor.
"TOMMY!"
Next to him was a gun, and the maniac laughing filled her ears as her vision faded to black.
Jude now woke up. She looked at her clock, seeing that it was 10 AM. She covered herself in her blankets, as she was freezing, but mainly from the dream. However she was also sweating. She'd had different versions of that dream over and over, and each time it messed with her head so she was scared to go back to sleep. Every time she had the dream, she and Tommy were closer and closer. She wiped her face. There were no tears, but she always did that to release stress and tension that she felt swelling up.
She rolled over, and let herself fall back asleep, secretly praying that she wouldn't have that dream again. To her satisfaction, her prayers were answered, and she didn't wake up until 2 PM.
She went downstairs in her pajamas into the kitchen. Her mother was standing there, examining Jude's body language, and how sad she's been acting lately. She could tell from the way Jude acted that something was wrong, and she wondered if anybody even knew. And lately Sadies been acting the same way.
"Jude...you know, you can talk to me if something's up"
"Yea mom I know" Jude said, reaching for a bowl for cereal.
"Well, then why won't you tell me what's going on?"
"..."
"Come on! sweetheart you know you can tell me"
"You won't like this"
"Why"
"I've been with.."
"Who?"
"Tommy"
"What! He hasn't tried anything...has he?"
"No mom, heh, it's quite the opposite" Jude began eating her cereal. "He's in the hospital." Victoria took understanding.
"How come? Is everything okay?"
"Well, now it is... but there was a shooting at G-Major. They caught the guy mom, don't worry."
"Oh Jude...That's terrible. Tommy got shot?"
Jude flinched, she instantly remembered her last dream about it.
"Yea..."
"Oh...So you were there last night?"
"Yeah, I was worried"
"I understand sweety, but... don't stay all night again. And much less don't lie about it. I was so worried."
"K mom"
Jude got up from the table, having finished her food. She put the bowl in the sink, and began walking upstairs again. Her phone rang. It was Kwest.
"Yo Jude."
"Hey, what's up?"
"I'm on my way to the hospital to visit T, wanna ride?"
Jude considered this for a moment. She did want to go, but she decided not to.
"No, Kwest maybe you should go alone. He's probably...tired of me by now heh" Jude said, which she knew was a lie considering their conversation last night.
"Alright, if you say so"
"I do"
"Aiight" Kwest hung up the phone and Jude went back upstairs to do what she always did, play guitar.
Kwest drove alone to the hospital. He was very annoyed to see that there were no parking spots available. Finally he found one, and walked inside. He got the room number and took the elevator to Tommy's room. He was shocked that he was still in Critical Care.
"Man where have you been!" Was Tommy's greeting to Kwest
"Workin, I got it tough down there without you around to help"
"sorry"
"Naw, don't apologize. So I hear Jude's been here almost everyday"
"Yeah.. Every day in fact."
"That's devotion man.."
"She was here all night last night"
"MAN! In the hospital room? Better tell the faculty to.."
"Kwest get your mind outta the gutter. She stayed because I asked her to."
"oOo" Kwest was suddenly getting interested.
"And I told her I loved her"
"Wow. How'd she take it?"
"What do you mean how'd she take it? She said it back."
"And what do you have to say to me?"
"You were right...I was wrong..."
"And it took a bullet and the face of death to get you to realize it" Kwest laughed.
"Hey, could you pick me up from here tomorrow? I'm gettin out"
"For real! I can't though. G-Major is total chaos without you there"
"Yea it will have to be for a little while too. The doctor said I can't work till next month, after therapy."
"AW MAN!"
"I know"
"hey, we can pick it up on our own, but at least you got Jude."
Tommy smiled and shook his head in a "you're crazy" kind of way.
"Aiight I gotta go man, take care of yourself you hear?"
"Yeah. I hear"
"Bye"
"Seeya"
Authors note: No cliffy's today. I actually don't like the way this chapter ended, but I figured it would be a nonstop chapter if I didn't end it some cheezy way. Well do you like it? Review pleaaaaase
