Chapter 18

Trust

Summary- What if Kira was a girl?

Disclaimer- I don't own Gundam Seed/Destiny

Eternal

On the Eternal Lacus, Kira, Athrun and Andrew Waltfield were gathered on the bridge. The Archangel was joining them through a communication link.

"What are you doing here Lacus?" Athrun asked as everyone was too stunned to speak.

Lacus just smiled. "I want to do my part in helping; we must bring the war to an end as soon as possible."

Athrun nodded but his eyes still showed confusion.

Kira smiled. "I am glad that you are alright Lacus I hope that I didn't because you too much trouble." Kira said knowing that she most likely did.

Lacus gave a smile but it seamed more forced. "You didn't do anything wrong Kira. I am alright."

Kira nodded sadly knowing that Lacus was most likely lying to her.

"So what do we do know?" Mu's voice came over the communications link.

Everyone turned to the video screen.

Murrue sighed. "We don't mean to be rude but we need to know your standing. Are you aliened with ZAFT or are you willing to join us?"

Andrew smiled. "We are not aliened with ZAFT but we will not attack the PLANTS. However we are prepared to fight against ZAFT in order to protect ourselves and bring peace."

Everyone nodded in agreement. The Lacus spoke again this time with a less seriousness than before. "It would be best if the Justice and the Freedom remained with the Eternal…after all this ship was designed for them."

Murrue nodded in an approval. "Very well then. Kira and Athrun you will report back here to retrieve your belongings and then you will remain with the Eternal."

Kira and Athrun nodded.

"We are also expecting an Orb ship to arrive in a few hours. They will also be aliened with us." Murrue informed.

"That is wonderful we need all the help we can get." Lacus said in a small voice but at the same time it held a firmness that brought hope.

Kira and Athrun soon left to the Archangel to get everything in order. Athrun however remained melancholy and did not say a word.

Archangel

"Athrun are you alright?" Kira asked. They didn't need a lot of things after all Athrun had come with barley anything and Kira had no more than when she first arrived on the Archangel.

Athrun looked at Kira. "I'm fine. We really should hurry." Athrun said as they continued their way to the Archangel Bridge. Murrue wanted to speak with them before they departed.

The door opened with a hiss and Kira and Athrun floated in to join the rest.

"Kira, Athrun we need to speak with you before you depart to the Eternal." Murrue said and got out of her seat to stand next to Mu who was leaning against the wall.

"What about?" Kira asked curious.

Mu looked at Athrun. "It mainly has to do with you Kid."

Athrun looked up at the commander with confusion. "Me?" Athrun asked with question but it also held a bit of suspicion.

"Yes, I won't feel comfortable until I know for sure on where you stand in all this." Mu said seriously.

Athrun remained confused but Kira had caught on.

"I will make this simple are you with us or are you ZAFT?" Mu asked firmly almost rudely.

"What?" Athrun asked shocked and slightly appalled.

Kira narrowed her eyes at Mu. "How can you ask that? He has helped us so much of the time he has been here! Besides even if he is still loyal to ZAFT-"Kira was cut off though by Mu's firm voice.

"If he is loyal to ZAFT then he is our enemy! Listen I don't like asking this….but I cant help but notice the uniform you still wear." Mu said indicating to Athrun Elite ZAFT uniform.

Kira was about to say something else but Athrun beat her to it. "I understand your concern. That is why I ask permission to return to PLANT." Athrun said in a serious voice.

Everyone gasped in shock but Kira had a slightly hurt expression on her face.

Mu frowned. "So that's it then? You are going to return to ZAFT. Then you will shoot us down?"

Kira felt a dull ach in her chest she wanted badly to yell and say that Athrun was nothing but a traitor for returning to ZAFT but she knew that she was no better during the early part of the War.

"I won't return to ZAFT. There is just something I need to find out for myself." Athrun said looking at Kira who had her head down.

Murrue was confused. "What do you need to return for then if you don't wish to fight for ZAFT?"

Athrun sighed but stood proudly. "I believe that I have a better idea of what is worth fighting for…however I can't continue to fight without knowing something. Please allow me to return for a few days."

Murrue and Mu thought for a moment but soon shook their head in approval. "You have permission. You will have two days, that's all. After that we will need to leave the area." Murrue said firmly.

Athrun shook his head and said a quick thank you.

"You will leave in a shuttle on the Eternal." Mu said. Athrun nodded his head again and him and Kira left the Bridge and made their way to the Eternal.

Eternal Hanger

Kira and Athrun made their way to their rooms. They wouldn't be sharing a room anymore and they didn't bother to ask to share a room.

"You know that I will return don't you?" Athrun asked as Kira and he walked towards the shuttle.

"Sure." Kira said and smiled, but Athrun knew it was forced and frowned. Kira didn't trust him.

"I promise I will." Athrun said stopping and turning Kira by her right arm to look at him.

"I know." Kira said not looking at Athrun. Athrun felt himself panicking. He didn't want Kira to think that he was just using this as an excuse to leave and join ZAFT without any problems.

"Kira look at me!" Athrun demanded softly.

Kira looked at Athrun with firm eyes.

"Why don't you trust me?" Athrun asked his hands shaking her shoulders slightly.

"I never said I didn't." Kira said in a small voice but her eyes never wavered their firmness.

Athrun gritted his teeth. "Kira I'm not dumb I know that you don't trust me, but you have to believe me when I say that I will return."

Kira sighed. "Athrun I know that you stay true to your word." Kira said taking Athrun hands away from her shoulders and walked towards the shuttle stopping in front of it.

Athrun soon joined her and opened the door. Before stepping in he turned to Kira. "Then why do you seem so uncertain about me motives?"

Kira smiled. "Because you have already pledged your word to ZAFT." Athrun looked at her in shock but Kira soon pushed him lightly into the shuttle and floated out of the Hager and waved a goodbye before the door of the hanger closed.

Athrun stood in shock but soon took his seat and waited for the shuttle to leave.

Eternal Cafeteria

Kira sighed sadly. She really wanted to believe that Athrun would return but he was so loyal to the PLANTS that it was almost scary. She knew that he would be easily manipulated to stay if he was led to believe that it would be best for PLANT.

"I am sure Athrun will make the right choice." A melody voice called. Kira looked up to see none other than the pink princess herself.

"Hello Lacus." Kira said smiling at her friend.

"I know that you are worried about Athrun but don't worry I'm sure that he will return." Lacus said smiling.

Kira sighed and turned her head to stare at her coffee that was now cold. "I wish that I could believe that as strongly as you do." Kira whispered.

Lacus frowned slightly. "I would think that you are the one to believe in him more than anyone. I can tell that he loves you." Lacus said softly.

Kira looked up in shock. "Lacus I…I" Kira didn't know what to say. Truth is told she felt a bit weird talking to Lacus about her relationship with Athrun. After all Lacus and Athrun are engaged…well were engaged. She felt like she was some sort of home wrecker….after all she was the "other woman" in a way.

Lacus smiled. "You don't need to worry Kira. I have never felt anything but a strong friendship with Athrun. I never loved him and I don't think I ever will."

Kira frowned. "Still he was your fiancé. I just feel so….dirty I guess. I mean I do care for him deeply but yet I don't have enough faith in him to believe that he will keep his word."

Lacus smiled slightly. "Why is it that you don't believe in Athrun?"

Kira sighed. "It's not that I don't believe in him because I do. I know that he is a good person and that he would never break a promise if he could help it….but I also know what he is like. He is so loyal to what he believes in that it sometimes blinds him from what is really happening. He will remain with the PLANTS if he believes he is helping." Kira said sadly.

Lacus was surprised. She always felt that Athrun was a self driven person but know that she took to what Kira said into consideration she realized that Athrun was to loyal for his own good at times. "I can see that you have a great understanding of Athrun."

Kira smiled. "Sometimes I wish I didn't, and then maybe I wouldn't worry so much."

Lacus giggled slightly.

"I can't say for sure on what Athrun will do, but I believe that he will come back." Lacus said and left the room.

Kira smiled. "I hope she's right." Kira then closed her eyes and leaned her head back. She then opened them and smiled. "You will come back Athrun…I'm sure you will."

PLANT

Athruns shuttle arrived and Athrun felt his heart beating a mile a minute. He walked his way through the large building. A few people who recognized him were shocked to see him but he continued moving. He made his way to the third floor, two guards who were standing guard in front of a door looking at him with a confused expression but allowed him to enter.

A man behind a desk looked up at him with surprise and a glare.

"What are you doing here?" the man snapped.

Athrun sighed. "I need your help Yzak."

To be continued…..

A/N Hope you liked it! I have been putting off my updates I know and I apologize. I know I said that this story was going to end soon but I don't know exactly when. I keep changing how many chapters are left so I don't know for certain.

Once again my English is not perfect. I'm thinking of writing a story in Russian but I don't think too many people will read it.

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