Chapter 20
Breaking Point
Summary- What if Kira was a girl?
Disclaimer- I don't own Gundam Seed/Destiny….if I did I assure you there would be a lot more Kira and Athrun moments.
Kira P.O.V
I was startled when I heard the alarm go off. I really didn't know what I was doing and before I knew it I was racing down the corridors heading towards the locker room to change into my flight uniform. Everything was automatic. I ran, I changed I climbed into the Freedom. It was all routine. I hated it.
Though I could have pondered for hours about how much I hated the war and how I wish I wasn't apart of it I turned off those rambling and began to focus on the battle I was heading into.
"You're clear for launch Freedom." I heard an officer call out over the communicator. I admit I was a bit surprised I was so use to Mir giving me the ok that I almost stopped to figure out who this person was.
"Freedom Launching!" I shouted out and felt the familiar force of being catapulted into space form in my chest.
I always loved flying. When I was little I would be so excited to get on airplanes and shuttles whenever we traveled a long distance. Now it had lost some of its thrill. I still loved flying but flying to travel and flying to kill were two different things.
"Kira we are going up and EA ship. There are three Mobile Suits." Lacus said in her calm voice. I didn't say anything I just flew the Freedom forward and entered the heart of the battle.
Indeed they were the same pilots.
"Look who finally showed up." I heard a cocky voice sneer.
I ignored them I was in no mood to deal with this.
"Awe what's the matter? Did I say something to upset the little hot shot?" Every sentence was followed by a viscous attack.
I wasn't interested in finding out in why they were fighting for the EA. Truth is told I really didn't want to know. I never liked it when people questioned me about my morals, so I wouldn't ask another's.
I took out my beam saber once the other mobile suit was at striking distance and we began our battle.
Athrun P.O.V
I couldn't help but become anxious. We were taking to long to get the Eternal. We had stopped after the pilot had gotten a call from the Archangel and we haven't moved sense.
"What is going on? Why haven't we arrived yet?" I asked as calmly as I could master. I knew that my voice was stern and a bit viscous as the co-pilot who just arrived from the cockpit flinched at my voice.
"We have been told not to come any closer until we are notified." The older man said. He looked to be not much older than me. No doubt a coordinator as well.
"Why is that?" I asked my voice quiet and more controlled.
"Apparently the Eternal and the other two ships are in combat at the moment." He explained. I looked at him in shock. I knew that I shouldn't be surprised we are at war after all but the idea of Kira fighting still worried and surprised me.
"We have to get to the Eternal!" I shouted in a commanding voice.
"Sorry but we were given strict orders not to proceed. Besides I wouldn't worry too much. The Freedom is fighting so they won't be in to much trouble." The older teenager tried to comfort.
It didn't work.
I sat down and leaned my elbows on my knees my ands dropping in between them. I sighed deeply.
I felt useless at the moment. I knew that the shuttle wouldn't stand a chance in the heat of a battle. It didn't have any weapons, and wasn't well armed. We would be nothing but a sitting duck. To get any closer would be….well….it was suicide.
I tried to calm my nerves with reassuring thoughts.
'Kira will be alright. She is strong….after all you couldn't even kill her and before that, no one in ZAFT was able to take her down. The Eternal is a powerful ship and is perfectly capable on handling its own in a battle.' I thought to myself.
I looked up and saw the same officer who had helped me get away from PLANT looking at me with concern.
I tried smiling but it came out feeling un-natural and awkward.
I head some gasps come from the pilot from the door that separated us from the cockpit.
"WHAT?" I heard a horrified voice shout.
I stood followed by the other officer. I opened the door and rushed into the small room.
"What's going on?" I asked in a serious voice the same one I mastered over the years of being a soldier.
The two men seated at the controls didn't look at me but focus on moving the shuttle. It seemed like hours before the pilot turned to glance at me over his shoulder before replying.
"Something is going on in the battle. Apparently the Freedom has gone out of control" The older man of his mid-thirties answered.
I felt my breath hitch in my throat as I stare dumbly at the ground. "What do you mean by that?" I ask my voice no longer holding its seriousness.
The man sighed a long raspy breath. As if deeply disturbed on what he was about to tell me. "The Freedom…I don't know why but suddenly it has become much more….I guess the best word for it would be aggressive." The man said his voice wary.
"What…What?" I asked my eyes a size larger. I didn't know what he was getting at.
The younger co-pilot looked up at me. "The pilot must have snapped or something. Normally the pilot does their best to try and not kill anyone but now……it's like a massacre."
I gasped. This can't be true. Kira would never.
Kira P.O.V
Something is wrong. I can feel it.
Suddenly I felt myself become very calm. I have felt this feeling before, when I was battling Athrun for instance.
But I feel different. I want to kill. It has never been like this. I feel frustrated and angry and it seems that the only way to take away these feeling are to kill. I can feel myself calm down slightly after every MS I slice through.
I have already taken down one of the three EA Mobile suits. After it had gotten in my way. Only two remain. They are more skilled so they are able to avoid most of my attacks as I am more focused on the weaker pilots.
I feel sick. I am ashamed I scream for my body to stop. For my hands to let go of the controls, but it seems like my body has a mind of its own.
I am human I hate, get angry but I never wanted to kill. NEVER. So why am I doing it now?
I can hear people screaming at me to stop over the communications link. I can here Lacus speaking words of reason and comfort to try and calm be down. I can here Cagalli shrieking and demanding that I stop. Murrue seems to me the most shocked and only speaks my name.
I wish I could stop I really do.
What's wrong with me?
Finally the EA forces retreat. I take deep breaths and remove my shaking hands from the controls. I look out to see the damage I've cost. My eyes widen and I feel my hot tears scorching my face.
I have done some real damage. I practically wiped out the entire EA force. Only a ship or two remain and the remaining two MS.
I can see metal every where. I scream. It hurts my throat. I can't hear my voice but I know that's what I'm doing. Screaming that is.
"DAMNIT!" I shout but it is more of a harsh whisper. As my throat is far too soar from my scream. How hard and loud was it? That it would cause me to lose my voice so quickly.
I shut my eyes. I'm crying and I can't stand it. I shouldn't cry. After all I did this.
"Kira? Kira?" I can here Lacus calling out.
"Y-yes?" I ask timidly.
"Are you alright?" Lacus asked very concerned.
I snorted. I just slaughtered almost and entire wave of soldiers and she is asking if I'm alright.
"Sure." I whisper. I look out and I see a shuttle heading for us.
"Well…you can come back now. Athrun and his shuttle are returning as well." Lacus says before the line goes dead.
I shake my head numbly.
Did Athrun see that?
Did he witness me brutally attacking and killing the EA soldiers?
I feel sick and I feel like I will throw up. I hold it in though can calm my stomach.
I reluctantly place my hands on the controls and quid the Freedom back towards the Eternal.
Lacus P.O.V
I couldn't believe my eyes. I watch desperately as the Freedom danced across the sky in what seemed like a graceful waltz.
This dance however was very deadly.
The Freedom was destroying almost everything that got in its way.
I felt my heart twist inside my chest. This was not Kira! No it couldn't be. I must be some imposter.
Kira always tried avoiding the cockpit and killing others. This pilot however seemed to take more time in slicing their enemy in half.
Then almost as quickly as it started it ends.
I flinch as does everyone else as the inhuman scream of angst echoes over the communication lines. I look around and see everyone's face mirrors each others.
Shock, horror and understanding all finely sketched on their faces as well as mine.
Everyone has a breaking point. Even Kira.
Everyone can tell from the sobbing and the screams that Kira regrets this. We all know better than to judge her for this. She has so much on her shoulders that it is only natural for her to snap.
I tell Kira to return and ask if she is alright. She says she is and slowly the Freedom comes back.
I rush to the hanger to see Kira exiting the machine. Many congratulate her on a job well done. More people are proud of the victory than being disturbed that someone they all work with and know had just slaughtered many.
I smile faintly at Kira face. I don't smile at the pain there though. I smile in understanding. Kira regrets this and that is what makes up for her wrong doing.
Kira notices me and comes over.
"Lacus…I" Kira begins but I stop the brunette.
"No Kira! It is alright. I don't know what caused this but I know that it wasn't you out there." I comfort my friend.
She is taller than me by several inches that I have to tilt my head upwards to look at her. She is unusually tall for a girl.
"I don't know what happened I just…." Kira trails off, I was about to speak again when a familiar voice beats me to it.
"Kira, Lacus!" Athrun shouted before joining us. He looks at me in acknowledgement, but I can tell that his focus is on Kira.
"Kira what happened?" Athrun asks gently. I have never heard him speak in such a caring way. Not even when we were engaged. I smile, knowing that it is a tone reserved for Kira.
"I…I don't really know. I just lost it I guess. I was so frustrated and angry and I snapped." Kira says shakily.
Athrun P.O.V
I smile slightly at Kira. I gather her in a hug.
She is shaking hard now. No doubt trying to suppress her tears. I can understand her pain and confusion. I have lost it on the battle field once or twice myself, and I have training.
Kira however wasn't prepared for this. She goes threw so much with out the knowledge of how to control and deal with it. Nothing can prepare you for the devastating effects of war but the little preparation I got did help greatly.
Kira is rambling now. Telling us about how sorry she is and how she didn't mean to do it.
Lacus and I give words of comfort. Lacus speaks of how it couldn't be helped and I just hold her.
Kira breaks away from me though after a few minutes.
"I just want it to end." Kira whispers and wipes her face with the back of her hand.
Lacus and I nod our heads in agreement.
"Hopefully it will end soon." Lacus says in a caring voice.
Kira scuffs slightly.
Lacus looks at me and smiles. "I think that the next battle will be our last if all goes well."
Kira and I both look at her in surprise.
"I have learned that both ZAFT and the EA are going to be fighting near the PLANTS in few days from now. If we could intervene and stop them…then ….peace talks could finally take place if we convince them." Lacus speaks in a determine voice.
Kira and I both look at one another.
"You think so?" Kira asks.
I shrug.
Lacus smiles and pushes us gently towards the hanger doors. "You two better get some rest."
Kira nods. I can tell that she is tired as I am.
Finally we are alone in the hallway. Kira turns to me and wraps me in a tight embrace.
"You came back."
I smile and return the embrace.
A/N WOW! That was a hard chapter to write. I know that Cagalli hasn't been seen lately but I plan to have a large role for her in the next chapter. The final battle will be coming up soon. I'm still debating wither or not to do a sequel for destiny. Then again maybe is still a maybe.
Hope you enjoyed it!
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