Here's an update for all of you awesome people that read this story. I don't own OTH, the characters, or "On Bended Knee," by Boys 2 Men. Alright read and review. Please? LOL
"Brooke..."
"No Haley." Haley got up off the bed, walked over to Brooke and put a soft hand on her arm. "Just leave," Brooke said walking away from Haley to grab the remote to her stereo.
"If that's what you want," Haley sighed. With that she walked out the door. Brooke sighed closing the door with one hand and turning up the music with the other. She groaned when she heard the intro to "On Bended Knee" by Boys 2 Men. She leaned against the door and let her thoughts and the music over take her.
Darling' I can't explain
Where did we lose our way
Girl it's driven' me insane
Why? Why did I just do that? Why did I just kick her out? Way to go smart one. You just showed her that you're ready to walk away. What did you expect? For her to try and stop you? For her to fight for you? Haha yeah right.
Haley walked out of Brooke's room and cringed when she heard the door slam. She leaned her back against the bedroom door and heard the music come on. It took her a few minutes to recognize the song. Once she figured it out she sighed as she too was over taken by her thoughts and the music.
GOD! What the hell am I suppose to do? She's walking away from me and I'm just letting her. WAKE UP HALEY AND DO SOMETHING! I'm about to lose the girl I love and I'm just standing here.
And I know that I just need one more chance
To prove my love to you.
If you come back to me
I'll guarantee
That I'll never let you go
I've got to get her to listen to me. I have to make her understand how much she means to me. I can't live without her. I've got to get her to come back to me. Whoa...did I just say come back to me? Haley's thoughts were beginning to confuse her.
Can we go back to the days our love was strong
Can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong
Can somebody tell me how to get things back
The way they use to be
Oh God give me a reason
I'm down on bended knee
I'll never walk again
Until you come back to me
I'm down on bended knee
The song was getting to both girls. Brooke had no idea that Haley was still at her house let alone standing outside her door doing the same thing she herself was doing: listening and thinking. Brooke started to turn off the music or torture as she was beginning to think of it, when the lyrics caught her attention and made her stop.
So many nights I dream of you
Holding my pillow tight
I know I don't need to be alone.
Damnit Boys 2 Men! God why does that have to be so true. I do that almost every night. I need her. I need Haley in my life. A silent tear began to fall from her eye at the thought.
Ok Haley, you've stood here long enough. She asked you to leave and now it's time to go. She began to walk away when something inside her told her to stay until the end of the song.
When I open up my eyes
To face reality
Every moment without you
It seems like eternity
I'm begging you, begging you come back to me
Haley sighed at what she had just heard. How can song describe a situation so well. I was away from Brooke for the weekend and then today and I'm going absolutely insane. I've got to do something to fix this. But do I go against everything that I've ever believed? Do I turn my back on my faith for love?
The chorus started up again and both girls stood on their respective side of the door, trying to drown their thoughts in the music. It wasn't working for either but they still tried.
I wish that I could just stop thinking for like 20 sec. Brooke thought to herself.
Why can't this be easier? Haley thought.
Gonna swallow my pride, say I'm sorry
Stop pointing fingers the blame is on me
I want a new life and I want it with you
If you feel the same don't ever let it go
Brooke's head popped up as she heard the words. I've got to go after her. This can't be easy on her and I'm acting like a total bitch right now. What kind of person am? I've got to get over myself. We're in this together...even if we aren't "together" we're friends...best friends since forever.
The words "swallow my pride, say I'm sorry" kept repeating over and over in Haley's head. I've got to fight for her. I can't just let her walk away. I've got to make her understand. Haley thought as she turned and put her hand on the door to open it.
I've got to go after her. I was so stupid for making her leave. Brooke turned the knob only to see Haley still standing there looking a bit shocked that Brooke had opened the door.
You gotta believe in the spirit of love
It can heal all things we won't hurt any more
No I don't believe our love's terminal
I'm down on my knees begging you please
Come home
The girls stood looking at each other trying to put words together. However, neither of them could seem to process what they wanted to say.
"I'm sorry," Haley said finally breaking the silence and taking a step closer to Brooke.
"I'm sorry, too," Brooke smiled pulling Haley the rest of the way into the room. Haley smiled at the gesture, she could tell by the look in Brooke's eyes that everything was going to be ok.
Can we go back to the day our love was strong
Can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong
Can somebody tell me how to get things back
The way they use to be
Oh God give me a reason
I'm down on bended knee
I'll never walk again
Until you come back to me
I'm down on bended knee
"Brooke, we really need to talk about this."
"I know we do," Brooke said walking over to turn down the music. "I guess you can start because anything I say totally depends on where you're at."
Haley took a deep breath before she began. "I love you Brooke. So much I can hardly stand it sometimes. I just don't know what to do right now."
"I love you too, Hales, but where does that leave us? How can you say that you love me and then leave me?"
"Brooke I'm not leaving. I'm here right now, I'm not going anywhere."
"But you are and we both know it."
"I guess so. I just wish there was a simple answer to all of this. Everyone says follow your heart but they just don't understand."
"They don't understand what?" Brooke asked genuinely curious.
"They don't understand that my heart is telling me two different things. It's like my heart is at war with itself. One side tells me what the Bible says and the other side tells me that I'm so totally in love with you and that I'd be stupid to let it go."
Brooke nodded showing that she understood. "Haley I really don't know what to say. I'd do anything for us to be together. I love you so much. I love you so much I'd hold on forever if that's what you want. But I also love you enough to let you go or take a step back for now, if that's what you need." Brooke said this last part looking right into Haley's eyes so she would know that she was 100 percent serious.
A single tear fell from Haley's face, "I think...I think that's the best thing for right now. Until I can figure out what I need/want. Brooke please don't hate me. I love you so so much. More than I think you understand. But for right now...I...I have to tell you to not wait for me. Move on. Don't put you're life on hold."
Brooke's eyes began to water as the realization hit her that she and her Haley bub were really over. "Are you sure that's what you want? Will you be ok with that? Will you be able to handle me kissing other people?" Brooke asked the last question just to get at Haley's jealous side.
"Brooke," Haley sighed, "I don't know if that's what I want. I just think it will be best for now. I can handle you kissing other people. It's the fact that you could fall in love with someone else that kills me."
"Haley you know that isn't going to happen."
"No Brooke. It will. You're too great someone else will find you and sweep you off your feet. I mean gosh you already have Peyton there."
"There's nothing going on with me and Peyton."
"Yeah...not at this moment."
Brooke gently took Haley's face in her hands and turned her eyes so that she knew she was listening, "Haley James, I will always love you. No matter what. No one will ever ever have my heart like you do. Please never doubt that."
Gosh am I sure this is what I want to do. I'm letting her slip through my fingers. But it really isn't fair to keep doing this to her. Haley thought to herself. I guess the time of "Baley" is officially over.
I can't believe she's doing this to us. We're "Baley" for goodness sakes. The most powerful teenage couple in all of Tree Hill. And now...now we're just Brooke and Haley...separated...trying to become friends. It's the end of the era. 'Can we go back to the days our love was strong?' How I wish we could.
Outside.
Two cars pulled up to Brooke's house at the same time. The drivers turned off their respective cars and got out walking up to each other.
"What are you doing here?" Peyton asked as Taylor walked up to her.
"Probably the same thing you are, checking on Brooke."
"Yeah. But why are you here? Shouldn't you be tending to Haley? Aren't you her roommate?" Peyton asked knowing exactly why Taylor was there. It was obvious to anyone.
"Yeah I am. But I'm also Brooke's friend and I just wanted to say hi."
"Have you told her yet?"
"Told who what?"
"Told Brooke that you like her? Or even told Haley that you want her girl for that matter?"
"I don't..."
"Save it Taylor," Peyton said interrupting, "it's obvious."
"Neither of them know," Taylor said looking at the ground.
"She's in love with her you know. I mean gosh they both love each other more than anything."
"Save it Peyton. You love Brooke, too. You want to be with her in ways you know won't happen. So don't give me a lecture on how it's wrong for me to like her when she's in love with my ex, ok?"
"Ok," Peyton said. That was the only thing she could come up with because Taylor was 100 percent correct. She loved Brooke and she hated the fact that she was in love with Haley and that Haley could make her happy in ways that Peyton never could.
"I don't think either of us are needed here," Taylor said looking up at the window seeing Haley's back to them.
"I guess you're right," Peyton said turning to leave.
"Hey Peyt?"
"Yeah?"
"Can we keep this little convo to ourselves?" Taylor asked nervously.
"You took the words right out of my mouth," Peyton laughed.
Alright. There you have it. Please again don't hate me. Tell me what you think. I promise there is happy times to come. We just have to get past the drama. So stick with me.
