Hello all! I'm back with an update. This fic will be coming to an end within the next 3 chapters. Just so you all have a heads up. As always thanks for the reviews. I heart Dan. Hahahaha Hades... Alright here's the update
2 Months later.
Brooke and Haley had been having a very difficult couple of months since the nose graze incident. As much as Haley tried to play it cool, she couldn't.
The young couple sat in silence, something that they had been doing a lot of as of late, on the beach watching people randomly go by. They had been at the beach the entire day. The sun was starting to set and the beach was much less populated than it had been.
Brooke looked over at Haley who was clearly deep in thought and shook her head. She never got over it. Brooke thought as she thought back over the past two months.
Month and a half ago.
It had been two weeks since the drama surrounding Brooke and Peyton and the almost kiss. Cheerleading practice had since started up and everything seemed to be back to normal.
"Alright girls. You're all looking really good so far. If we keep this up, we're going to the Classic and might even have a shot a Nationals. That's all for today. See you all back here tomorrow and the same time." Brooke said to her squad and then walked over to the bench and grabbed her water bottle out of her bag.
"You really think we have a shot at Nationals?" Peyton asked skeptically from behind her.
"That's what I said, isn't it?" Brooke said turning around giving her friend a smile. "Why? Do you doubt the squad?"
Peyton thought for a second and the shook her head. "No, I don't. I just I'm not sure. But with you as captain I guess it could happen."
"Why thank you Blondie, I think."
"You're welcome," Peyton said with a laugh. "So what are you up to tonight? Hanging with Haley?"
"Umm...yeah I think so. I mean I hope so. She's been spending so much time with Nathan and doing church stuff. It's like I haven't got to see her at all." Brooke said with a shrug.
"I still find it very odd that Nathan found God." Peyton said with a chuckle.
"Yeah me too. But something tells me that Nathan found Haley . . . and then God kinda snuck in there some how."
"You think something is going on there?" Peyton asked totally shocked at the confession.
"I'm not sure. It just seems fishy to me. But who am I to judge, right? Anyway you ready to get out of here?"
"Yep. Let's go." Peyton said as the two girls linked arms and walked toward their respective cars. They stopped walking when they reached the parking lot and realized that they had parked on opposite ends.
"Looks like this is where we part ways, buddy. I'll call you later." Brooke said smiling up at her best friend.
"Alright. I'll talk to you then. Have fun with Haley if you get to see her." Peyton said as she and Brooke hugged good bye.
"I will. Later Sawyer."
"Later Davis."
Brooke walked toward her car once she got closer she noticed a very pissed off looking Haley standing beside it.
"What was that?" Haley asked before Brooke ever reached her.
"What was what?"
"That." Haley said pointing toward the direction in which Brooke had just come from. "You and Peyton. And the arms. And the hugging."
"Haley," Brooke said taking a deep breath trying not to lose her cool, "calm down. It was nothing. It was just a hug."
"Didn't look like just a hug." Haley said. She knew she was overreacting. But ever since she found out about Peyton and Brooke she couldn't stand the tall blonde putting her hands anywhere near her girlfriend.
"Then what exactly do you think it looked like oh wise one?" Brooke shot back.
"Like a hug that meant so much more than just 'see ya later.'" Haley said hanging her head.
Brooke took a few steps forward and wrapped her arms around the girl. "Baby, you know I love you and only you."
Haley shook her head. She knew it was true but for some reason the words didn't feel the same. She needed something more from Brooke. "Her or me, Brooke." Haley said looking directly into Brooke's brown eyes.
"Excuse me?" Brooke said shock evident in her voice.
"You heard me. Peyton or me. Me or Peyton. You have to pick right now."
"You have got to be kidding me." Brooke said rolling her eyes. Haley shot her a look that said she was nowhere near kidding. "Haley...you know I can't and won't do that. She's my friend. My best friend. But you...you're my girlfriend. You have my heart." Brooke said touching the silver heart necklace she had given Haley back when they were first together.
"I know that. I know. She just . . . I just . . . ," Haley took a deep breath to compose herself, "I just don't trust her. She intimidates the hell out of me." Brooke stood there looking at her not believing what Haley was saying.
"Hales baby," she said putting her finger under Haley's head lifting her head so she was looking her directly in the eyes. "You have nothing to worry about. Not with Peyton. Not with anyone. Haley, I want you. I don't know how many times I have to tell you that. I love you."
"I know and I believe you." Haley said wrapping her arms tightly around Brooke.
Present.
Brooke sat there looking at the silent girl. She really never has gotten over Peyton. She sat there thinking trying to push down the bad feeling that was trying to wash over her.
Haley sat there in her own world. Thinking about some of the same things that were haunting Brooke. What if Nathan was right? She thought to herself as the conversation she had with the star basketball player flooded her mind.
Last Week
"How you doing?" Nathan asked as she sat on the bench beside Haley.
"I'm good," she said doing her best to convince not only Nathan but herself.
"Ok Haley, I might have been born at night but it wasn't last night. What's going on?"
She looked over at him and gave him a small smile. "Brooke," she answered as if it were the most obvious thing in the world. He looked at her confused. "Brooke and Peyton...and me."
"Whoa . . . that's hot." He answered in typical guy fashion.
"Not like that you dork," she said slapping him in the back of the head. "It's just Brooke and Peyton and then there's me. I can't seem to shake that feeling. Like I know there's something more there."
Nathan sat for a second thinking over his words carefully. "Haley, we both know that Brooke loves you. That she would never and I mean never do anything to hurt you." Haley nodded in agreement but didn't say anything. Nathan took that as a sign to continue. "Do you love her Hales?"
"Yeah I do. More than anything."
"Does she make you happy?"
"To a certain point yes she does. When it's just me and Brooke, I don't think I could be any happier, ya know? But then all of this outside stuff comes in and I'm miserable. And she does her best to make me happy. She tries so hard and that just makes me feel so much worse."
Nathan nodded, "yeah I understand. Haley have you ever thought that maybe all this outside stuff is a sign."
"Like what kind of sign."
"Like a sign from God or something. Showing you that this isn't what He wants for you?" Haley gave him a skeptical look. "Listen I know that I'm kinda new to this whole God thing or whatever. But I do know that you being unhappy isn't what he wanted for you. Maybe . . . maybe it's just time to let go of it all. And by all I mean this relationship with Brooke. I don't know take sometime away sort things out. I know by looking at you a lot of the times that you feel guilty about the whole thing. I'm not judging or anything Hales. I just want you happy."
Haley sat in silence for a long while thinking about what had just come out of the boy's mouth. "I don't know Nathan, maybe you're right. Maybe I shouldn't be with her. But if that's the case then why do I feel it in my heart every time I look at her?"
"Well are you sure it's love you feel? Maybe it's lust. There is a difference." Haley just stared at him wide eyed. If looks could kill, Nathan Scott would be one dead man. "Don't look at me like that Haley. I know you care a great deal for her. But is it really love? Is what you two, have really love? Or is it just a means to an end? I mean I see the way she looks at you. The way she treats you. And Brooke Davis is totally and completely in love with you. But the real question here is do: you feel the same?"
"I just told you I loved her didn't I?" Haley said sounding more defensive than she wanted to.
"Haley I wasn't saying that you don't care about her and love her. I was just asking if you were in love with her. Do you feel the same way she does? Because honestly, Haley you don't act like it. And actions speak louder than words. No disrespect or anything. But from what I've seen you're selfish in this relationship. And love is anything but selfish. You just really need to think about it because it isn't fair to her. Believe it or not it isn't fair to you either. As long as this keeps going on and as long as you're unsure of yourself, you will be miserable."
Present Day.
What if Nathan was right. Haley thought one last time before looking over at Brooke who had eyes locked on her.
"Brooke," Haley started then stopped not knowing what to say or how to continue.
"Yeah?" Brooke said. She could tell by the look in Haley's eyes that she wasn't going to like what was about to happen. That bad feeling that she had worked so hard to push away broke through the dam and washed over her like a hurricane.
"Something is off with us, isn't it?" Dumb question Hales. She thought to herself.
Brooke looked down and then answered. "Yeah I think so. Maybe."
"Yeah I think so, too." She paused trying to gather herself. "I can't keep going on like this. I can't be with you when I'm not sure. I'm not sure of myself. I'm not sure about us. I'm not sure that I can trust you. I mean I know I can trust you. I know that you love me and wouldn't hurt me. It's just that . . . I'm not sure if I love you the way you love me. At the magnitude in which you love me. I'm just not sure. So I can't pretend like I am. It isn't right. It isn't fair to either of us. I'm so sorry for hurting you."
Brooke sat there, she had nothing to say. What could she say? Her worst fear was happening right in front of her. "Ok," she finally managed to say.
"Ok?"
"Yes ok. What do you want me to say Haley? Do you want one last grand speech? Do you want me to beg you to love me? If you aren't sure there's nothing, I can do to fix that. So ok."
"I'm sorry Brooke."
"I know you are." Brooke said standing up offering her hand to Haley, "Come on. I'll take you home."
Haley gladly took the other girl's hand. There was something oddly calm about the way Brooke reacted but Haley didn't feel that she had the right to question it. So they walked to Brooke's car and drove to Haley's house.
They pulled up to Haley's house and Brooke helped her take things to the door.
"I'll see you later?" Haley asked hopeful.
"Yeah sure." Brooke asked as she walked to her car. She got in and headed to her house. I will not try with her again. I will not let this break me. If this is what she wants then this is what she gets.
So there's the chapter. I hope you all enjoyed it. Please leave me some reviews. I will do my best to get the next two chapters out asap. Anyway thanks for reading.
