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Watching her stand up and get dressed he admired the curves of her body. It had been a month of sneaking around just meeting for sex, He was enjoying it but every time he tried to talk to her she would say she doesn't have time and get up to leave. It was starting to destroy him that this other man had everything he wanted. But she was right he should have gone a different way in letting her know what he wanted. At first he thought he just wanted to control and posses her physically. But when no one knew it he would watch her. Watch the way she lit up when someone would make her smile or how content she looks when she would sit by herself reading. Everything was so intoxicating about her that he thought he would lose his mind if he went to long without seeing her. "Do you know how I feel about you?" He stared at her.
Freezing she turned around "Yeah I'm pretty positive."
"No I don't think you do. This can't last much longer. I'm sick of sharing you."
"Fine than we can call it quits and say it was fun while it lasted." She finished getting dressed. Grabbing her purse she went to leave but he stopped her by grabbing her arm.
"I'm not going to let you avoid this. Let's talk now."
"Fine. Talk." She stared up at him pissed that he was demanding so much out of her.
"I want you to leave him and be with me. He can't make you happy like I can." He pulled her down onto the bed so they were sitting next to each other.
"What are you talking about? All we have is physical. Nothing more. You know nothing about me. What I like, how I feel, my favorite food, my dislikes or likes. How do you expect me to give up something with a man who genuinely cares about me."
Are you in love with him?"
"Yes." She looked him straight in the eye so she wouldn't show any hesitation.
"Liar. I know that's not true. Why are you still coming to me? Obviously he isn't giving you something you need."
"If you're talking about in the bedroom he has no problem. That has to be it because that's all you give me." She smirked.
"Than answer my question. Why do you still come to see me?" They stared at each other for what seemed like an eternity. The intensity of it became too much she broke eye contact and stood up from the bed, Starting out the sliding glass door she didn't say anything and when she did her voice was soft and calm. "I can't figure out what it is about you that I can't let go. Every time I look at him I feel guilty for the fact that I come and see you. But every time we make plans there is anticipation I feel. An excitement I feel from what you do to me. And no I'm not sure if I'm in love with him. But he makes me so happy. He's always trying to make me sure that I'm comfortable and have everything I need. But you, you consume me. At night I lay awake thinking about you.
"Than give me chance to show you that I can love you. I can do anything he can do. Baby, I want to be the one who makes you happy. That's all I want is a chance. Let me start over by taking you to dinner. " He stopped both of them staying quiet again. He never knew himself to be so intense with a woman but he realized his feelings for her were deeper than he thought.
"I don't think I can hurt him. There is nothing he did to deserve me leaving him for another man."
"So leave him and just tell him it isn't working. And than in a few months we will let it be known that were together. If we've hidden it this long than what's a few months?"
"It shouldn't have to be like that. He didn't do anything to deserve this. But I never thought he would become so serious about me so fast." She turned around grabbing her purse going to leave once again. Stopping her once more he grabbed her kissing her gently." Just think about dinner."
Looking up at him she took a deep breath, "Okay." Moving out the door she closed it gently behind her. He wasn't supposed to get to her like this. All she wanted was sex and she figured it would satisfy him enough. Part of her wanted to see if he really did care about her. Going down to her hotel room she hoped her boyfriend would be there when she walked in he was sitting on the bed watching television. Smiling at her he said, " Hi, how was lunch?"
"What? Oh lunch was fine." She had almost forgotten that was the excuse she had given.
"Well I'm glad you're back come lay down with me." Studying him she sat down in a chair, "We need to talk."
"Okay what's up?" He shut off the TV staring at her.
"You will probably hate me after this but I need to tell you the truth. Before we started dating another man was pursuing me, for a while we didn't speak and I thought he had given up. But shortly after we started dating he showed back up again. I made the choice to carry on a physical relationship because we were only dating. And now he wants to convince me that he wants a real relationship." Pausing she waited for a reaction.
"Did you tell him you would leave me? Did you tell him you love me? Why didn't you just walk away? Am I not enough?" he rambled the questions off so quickly she wasn't sure if he was even talking to her.
"I don't know why I let it continue never did I think he would want something more out of me. Or did I think we would become so serious so fast."
"Why? Don't you understand how much I care for you? I know it's been a short time but I can really see things working long term for us."
"I know you care about me and I care about you. But there is something between him and I can't ignore that."
"Do you love him?"
"I don't know."
"Do you want to leave me?"
"I don't know."
"Do you want to be with him?"
"I'm don't know."
"Well what the hell do you want?" He snapped.
"I don't know I'm sorry."
"Who is he?"
"I won't say."
"Because I know him?"
"Yes." She closed her eyes and looked down avoiding the pain she had caused him." I understand if you want to leave."
Stopping his pacing he grabbed his keys and his wallet." Well just like you I don't know. But I can't be here right now." Slamming the door he left her in the dark quiet hotel room.
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