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Never moving from the chair she sat alone in the dark her whole body was completely still as she watched day turn into night. He came back around 9:00 and she still didn't move when he turned on the light.
"Hi." He said softly sitting on the edge of the bed right next to her chair. Not moving she said "Hi." In a voice that was barley audible. There was knot in his throat and he was having a trouble trying to find the words to say.
"Where did you go?" She looked over trying to read his facial expressions.
"Just walked around. I ended up in some hole in the wall bar." All he had was one beer not being able to stomach much more than that since he was trying so hard to wrap his head around what she had told him. But he still couldn't figure out what he was supposed to do.
"Did you figure anything out?" She asked.
"No." He looked up. "You?"
"Nope."
"I have to wonder, if I had done this to you what would you have done?" He asked in a straight monotone voice so that he wouldn't show his emotions starting to get the best of him.
"I honestly don't know. Hurt would the first thing especially if I was falling in love with you. Confusion over the fact that there was someone else. Doubt from feeling I'm not good enough." Looking over she fully understood what he was feeling.
"Baby, I don't want to lose you. Yes I'm upset that another man is trying to take you away and that you chose to keep seeing him. But I'm not ready to let you go because I'm falling in love with you." Reaching his hand out he stroked her cheek.
"What do I do?" The tears started rolling down her face. "When I told you I realized that I'm falling in love with you too. But part of me feels he deserves a chance."
"But what happens if you fall in love with him." He realized the situation was going to get worse before it got better.
"I'm not quite sure, there is a chance of it. But I need to figure out if he is true in his intentions of making me happy or if it's just lust. Sometimes a woman just needs to know thing otherwise it sits and picks at her because she knew that she had a chance to find out the truth." She wiped her tears away standing up o move around the room.
"So what do we do? Do we spend sometime apart? Maybe I should leave you alone until you can figure things out."
"Does it make me a bad person if I agree with you? I mean I know I am for causing you this pain but maybe I shouldn't see you until I figure it out. Besides if we keep seeing each other why I'm with him than it just prolongs your pain. There is no way I can live with myself if I have to see the hurt in your eyes. To wonder what you're thinking every time I leave to see him." Staring at him she wondered if she should say screw it and stay with him making things workout.
"Have you talked to him?" He asked cursing himself for asking.
"Not since this afternoon." She wondered why he tortured himself.
"Okay, so we'll spend sometime away from each other until you can figure it out. But I want you too understand that I'm here and will be faithful to you until you tell me otherwise." He smiled taking her into his arms.
"I don't deserve you." Her forehead rested against his.
"I know." He laughed bringing a smile to her face, "Seriously don't say that you do too. I know you made a mistake and yeah I might be angry for a while but you make me happy. If I wasn't in love with you when you had told me my ass would have left and never thought twice." He became very serious.
"I know." She whispered.
"Let me hold you tonight and tomorrow I'll get a different hotel room."
"Okay." She smiled as he led her to the bed. That night they made love until both their bodies were exhausted. When she woke up the next morning he was gone. Sitting up she took a hot shower to relax herself feeling nervous and wondering if she should call him. While she was getting dressed there was a knock at the door confused she opened it to find him standing there," Well that answers that question."
"What?" He smiled stepping in and closing the door.
"Nothing." She snapped irritated with the fact that he was arrogant enough to show up without even checking to see if her boyfriend was here. Going into the bathroom she finished doing her hair.
"So where is lover boy?" He leaned against the doorframe.
"In a different hotel room." She didn't look back at him.
"Why?"
"Because I told him yesterday so he left this morning."
"Told him what exactly?"
"Don't worry he doesn't know your name. All he knows is that there is another man that I need time to figure out which one of you I want to be with." She rolled her eyes about how selfish he was being.
"So you didn't break up with him?" He asked feeling annoyed that she was being so short with him.
"No I didn't because I don't want too. I should be grateful that he still wants to be with me after what I did." She pushed past him going to put her shoes on.
"What's your problem?"
"Nothing."
"Than why are you being so bitchy with me?"
"Excuse me?" She looked up at him.
"You've been snapping at me since I walked in the door. What is your problem?"
"Oh I'm sorry! Maybe it's because yesterday I hurt a man who has nothing but be good to me I'm crazy about him and he loves me. All you and I have is sex!" Frustrated she plopped down in a chair.
"Yeah but its good sex." Smirking he walked over to her.
"How could I do this to him? He was so understanding, he didn't even yell at me. For a moment I almost picked up the phone to call you and tell you to fuck off." She sighed. It had only been a few hours but she was missing him.
"Try not to think about him. It's my turn now and I don't want it to be screwed up by the fact that you can't open up to me and give me a chance that I feel I deserve." He grabbed her arm.
"You haven't even earned it. What does it take for you to understand that you went the wrong way about pursuing me; than you want me to push a man away that has taken the time to honestly know me and has sincere feelings for me." She shook her head.
"I know this but I don't want to see you with him. I can't stand him for the fact that he is the one who gets to have long conversations with you and make you laugh. That he's the one everybody gets to look at you and say he's so lucky to have you. Do you understand that I want to be that man by your side not him?" He poured his out at her feet.
"Don't make me regret this." She stared into his eyes.
"I promise I won't." He smiled at her. Looking at her he studied her, "So what's the deal are you going to see us both?"
"We decided to spend some time apart until I figure out who I want to be with."
"You don't trust me? Did you think I was going to hurt you so you wanted to keep him waiting?" He asked.
"No. I'm no ready to let him go and even if I don't trust you it's not like you can blame me. We don't know anything about each other and all we've ever had was sex. So forgive me if I don't my heart out there right away."
"I know. I know I'm sorry. Well let's quit wasting time and go do something." He grabbed her arm pulling her out the door getting into his car he decided to take her out to a huge flower park where they spent the whole day walking around. Than he took her out to lunch at a small quiet restaurant talking about there families and growing up. When they were done he drove back to the hotel walking her up to her room.
"I had fun let me applaud you on a good first date." She laughed.
"Well thank you glad you approve." He laughed kneeling down to give her a quick kiss, which turned into a passionate kiss causing both of them to fall back against the door. Pushing him away she gasped for air.
"Can I come in?" He started to kiss her neck.
"Now what kind of girl would I be if I slept with you on the first night?" She smiled putting her key in the door stepping she turned around to see the look of shock on his face," Goodnight."
He stood there staring at her closed door and he couldn't help but laugh at how funny she was.
That night she lied awake thinking about both men. Finally at two she drifted off to sleep thinking about how hard things were going to get if they kept in this direction. When she woke up in the morning room service had brought a delivery of a dozen red roses reading the card it said:
"A second date? Dinner tonight 7:00pm can't wait."
Smiling she read it over and over again. Oh yeah this was going to be a difficult decision.
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