CHAPTER 25
A/N: Thanks to BrittanaAus, DarkSouls3777, Mostories, Michelle, Olivia, May1217, Berrylucky5, Lana66 and the Guest for your reviews, it means the world to me! I can't believe that I have written 25 chapters already! Time flies when you're having fun! Let's pick up where we left off :) It starts with Brittany POV but then I switch back to Santana for the rest of the chapter.
AT THE CABINET OF DOCTOR MONTGOMERY - BRITTANY POV
"Are you really sure that there are two babies in there?!" Santana asks the Doctor.
"Yes, it's definitely twins. Look…" Dr Montgomery replies, pointing to the screen. "Here is one baby… and that's the other one…"
I'm watching the ultrasound screen and I can't look away from those two little shapes that the Doctor just pointed to… I still can't believe that this is even happening… Especially because it has been such a long and winding road… I only got pregnant an entire year after telling Santana that I wanted more kids. Between our fight and the failed attempts, it has been such a struggle that I basically went from thinking that I would never get pregnant to… carrying twins? It feels completely surreal.
When I finally glance at Santana, she has her eyes still set on the monitor and it must be sinking in because I can see the panic look on her face. I think that Dr Montgomery picks up on it too because she suddenly says "I'm going to give you a minute… I will be right back", and exits the room.
"San…" I softly whisper, making her snap out of her thoughts.
"I… I need to sit down…" She says and pulls a chair to sit close to the examining table, by my side. She is still looking at the screen and I can hear her breathing increasingly fast. "We're going to have two newborns… and a toddler to deal with… at the same time!" She suddenly says in despair and I'm not sure if she's actually talking to me or just thinking out loud.
I grab her hand and rub my thumb on the back of it. "Just breathe, San… It's going to be OK…" I say with a comforting smile as her worried eyes meet mine.
"It's just a lot to take in, Britt… I had barely wrapped my head around the idea of having a second kid and now… I'm going to be a mother of three?!"
"I know, honey… I didn't expect this either… But considering how difficult it has been for me to get pregnant, these twins are really a miracle!" I reply. "And think how great it will be for Sofia!"
"But it's not all rainbows and butterflies, Brittany… Can you imagine the mess it's going to be with three kids? They will outnumber us now! I don't even have enough hands to hold three children!" She says in a panicking tone.
"Come on, San… Why do you always immediately think of the difficulties?" I say with a pout.
"I'm sorry…" She replies. "That's just what I do, Britt… I can't help it…" She shrugs. "You're the optimistic one in this marriage, not me! But at least… we complement each other well I guess…" She adds with a timid smile.
"Exactly! We do…" I reply, staring into her eyes. "And that's why it's going to be OK, I know that together we can do this, San! And we should be celebrating this moment, honey… Look at them!" I say, nodding towards the screen. "It's actual babies… our babies…"
I smile so big at the thought that my face hurts.
"You look really happy…" She comments, smiling along.
"I really am…" I admit. Nothing beats having kids with Santana…
She smiles at me and presses her lips on mine for a tender kiss. "I love to see you so happy… But you have to give me some time to process this, Britt. I'm not there yet…" She says.
"I know…" I nod in understanding. That's just how Santana functions: it will take her some time to get used to this unexpected news but I'm sure that pretty soon, she will be as excited as I am.
"But I'm telling you, Brittany…" She adds. "After this, that's it! The Lopez-Pierce baby factory is closed! OK?"
"OK…" I chuckle.
LATER THAT DAY – EVENING TIME – AT HOME (SANTANA POV)
While Brittany is putting Sofia to bed, I'm reading Quinn's notes for the next season of Glee. The second season is basically over, we already shot all the scenes and the last couple of episodes will air very soon. The network has already renewed the show because the ratings are even better than last year. I'm still pissed that I was not allowed to show romantic scenes between two girls but I'm determined to do so in the next season. I just have to play my cards right…
"You should get ready, honey…" Brittany suddenly says, joining me in the living room.
"Get ready for… what?" I ask, confused.
"For going out!" She replies with a smile.
"Going out? Where?" I ask, getting even more surprised.
"Well, I know that alcohol usually helps you process shocking news such as 'you're expecting twins'… So, considering that I can't drink and that Quinn is not much of a drinker… I called Naya! She'll come by later to take you out."
"What…? Babe, it's really sweet but I can't just bail on you, especially on a day like today!" I say.
"You wouldn't bail on me, San. I'm so exhausted that I'm going to go to bed very early tonight. You might as well take some time for yourself!"
"Are you sure?" I ask.
"Yes, I'm sure." She replies, giving me a kiss.
"I guess I could go for drinks… But Britt, you know that when I go out with Naya, we don't just drink! We also discuss, usually about... private things… Are you even OK with me telling her about our twins? We have not told anyone that you're pregnant…"
"I know but… yes, I'm OK with you telling Naya, I actually think that talking to her is what you need, honey. And I would also like to tell Quinn by the way… But I would rather wait before we announce it to our family and the rest of our friends… at least until the end of the first trimester, to be sure that everything is fine."
"Alright… But then we need to ask Quinn to come over before I go out with Naya tonight, she should be the first one to know… That's her Unholy Trinity prerogative!" I say.
"You're absolutely right, I'll give her a call right now then..."
"And honey… We also have to tell Sofia at some point…" I add.
"I know… But San, we can't tell Sofia until we are sure that everything is OK. It will already be hard enough to explain that she's going to have two siblings at once, I really don't want to be in a position where I have to tell her that something is wrong."
LATER THAT NIGHT – AT THE PUB
"Twins?!" Naya says, looking as astonished as Quinn did when we told her earlier.
"Yeah…" I sigh. "In a few months, I will have… three children. Can you believe that?"
She suddenly laughs uncontrollably and I frown at her.
"Why are you laughing?" I ask, offended.
"I'm sorry, I don't mean to be insensitive or anything but you have got to admit that it's quite a funny twist of fate… You didn't even want to have another child at first and now you get two babies in one go…?"
"I know… It's as if there was some kind of sadistic evil person writing my life story and putting me through all kinds of twists!" I say, raising my arms. "But what is done is done…" I shrug. "My wife is pregnant with twins! I can't just take one baby and return the other..."
"I'm afraid so… But how do you feel about all this… ?" She asks.
"Honestly? I'm shitting my pants, Naya! As soon as the Doctor told us, my mind automatically went to… apocalyptic scenes: the short nights, neverending baby cries, baby vomit, diapers, etc. Without mentioning how difficult it's going to be to find people to babysit three little monsters! I'm pretty sure we won't go anywhere and that my sex life will be non-existent!"
"Wow… OK. That has escalated fast!" She says, chuckling. "Look… I get it, your life is going to change and it's natural to get scared. But you know that it won't be that bad, right? The short nights… it's only for a few weeks… And it will not only be duties or chores… you will also have cute moments with your twins, just like you had with Sofia! You need to take it all into account, not just the difficult parts! How did Brittany take the news?" She asks.
"Brittany is over the moon!" I shrug. "And it's not like I was expecting any other reaction from her! She has always lived in that bubble of hers where everything is wonderful! Besides, she loves kids and she has always wanted a big family so for her… it's actually a dream come true…" I sigh. "I love her so much for her optimism but if I'm being completely honest, sometimes I wish she was freaking out a little, you know? Just so that I wouldn't be the only one panicking!"
"Ok well… I'll tell you what." Naya says. "First, we are going to drink a shot together! And then… I will tell you something which hopefully will help you relax about this whole situation. But if it doesn't… I promise you that I will spend the rest of the night freaking out with you. How does that sound?"
"Sounds pretty nice I must say…" I reply.
She orders us shots at the bar and after downing them, she suddenly put her hands on my shoulders. "Now, Lopez, listen to me." She says, staring into my eyes. "I understand that the thought of having three kids is overwhelming, especially when it was not planned. If that makes you feel any better, I would actually be freaking out too. But you have got to focus on the bigger picture here! Think of what happened between you and the network this year... Some people actually get offended by two girls being in love, some even say that lesbian couples shouldn't be allowed to marry or have kids! And that kind of crazy thinking is even more common in Ohio where the two of you grew up!
But don't you see? You went against all odds your whole life, Santana! No matter what other people think, you actually married the woman you love and you are making babies with her! And even if you were completely new to the TV business, you managed to create a successful TV show… about show choir no less! Who would have bet on that? If you can do all that, you can do anything! So believe me… you of all people are capable of handling three children! And seeing how adorable Sofia turned out, we both know that there is a pretty good chance that your twins will be just as great!" She adds.
"As for being able to go out, I have seen your friends actually fighting over who gets to babysit your daughter, so I'm not worried! You will find babysitters and if you don't, you can always count on me! It will be OK!" She adds. "Besides, you don't fool me, Santana Lopez! It might have taken you months to be fine with the idea of expanding your family, but… despite your little freak out today, I know that you want both of those mini-Britt babies. I can see it in your eyes!" She concludes, pointing to my face.
I look at her in disbelief for a minute before whispering "I hate you."
"I know, you always hate me when I'm right." She replies with a nonchalant shrug. "So… do you need me to freak out with you for the rest of the night or can we have fun?"
"You win, as always!" I sigh. "Let's have fun…" I smile, clinging my glass with hers before downing another shot.
LATER – AT THE PUB
"Why you always make me sing karaoke songs with you when we go out?" I ask Naya.
"I don't know, it's fun!" She shrugs. "I love to sing, you love it too and we always have a blast so… why not?" She adds with a smile.
I can't help but smile back at her. Having Naya in my life has actually been a blessing. Not only she is doing a fantastic job on the show but she has been such a good friend. She's the only person outside the Glee club I have opened up to and surprisingly, I feel as close to her as I do my other friends.
We continue chatting for a while and I'm having so much fun with her that I'm even losing track of time. After talking about her life and mine, we end up discussing Glee and its future.
"I have to admit that I'm curious about something." She says. "Why did you ask Heather and me to make out on camera in like every single episode if the network had already refused that kind of scene?" She asks.
"I'm actually hoping to use that footage at some point, I just have to find the right occasion." I reply. "Maybe I can write flashback scenes, or we can create a bonus video out of it… Or maybe some day… there will be a spin-off, who knows! But right now, I want to convince those network Neanderthals to include lesbian romantic scenes in Season 3. But for that, I need the viewers to ship that couple…"
"I think that fans would go for it." She replies. "You should see the messages I get on social networks, especially since the episode on which Santana confessed her love to Brittany! There is even a girl who told me that she was thinking of committing suicide and that that scene gave her the courage to come out to her family!"
"Really?" I ask, completely stunned. I have always wanted Glee to have a positive impact on the young generation, but I had no idea that it could mean so much to some people.
"Yes!" She confirms. "The whole Santana-Brittany romance is getting a lot of attention! Did you know that fans even nickname your relationship 'Brittana'?" She adds.
"Brittana?" I chuckle. "That's pretty cute!"
"It is!" She smiles. "So you see, there is a fandom out there and I'm sure that they would love to see romantic scenes! And if you're interested, I might have a few ideas to draw even more attention to that pairing…"
"Really? Well… I'm all ears, Rivera." I reply.
MUCH LATER THAT NIGHT – AT HOME
By the time I get home and shower, it's almost 4:00 AM. I don't know how we do it but whenever I go out with Naya, I always stay out late. But I had a lot of fun with her tonight and just like Brittany suspected, it did help me digest the whole twins surprise. I'm still a bit worried about how we are going to manage three little suckers on a daily basis but… now I actually see the good sides too. Brittany and I will be bonded forever by our three children and I know I will fall in love with those babies, just like I did with Sofia.
When I get into bed, Brittany is laying on her side so I lay down in a similar position, facing her. I watch her sleep for a few minutes and even though it's the millionth time I do that, it never ceases to amaze me how pretty she is. I want to hold her so bad but I don't want to wake her up, she needs her rest. So I close my eyes instead and try to catch some sleep. But right when I'm about to fall into slumber, I suddenly feel her soft lips on mine. When I open my eyes, I instantly meet hers and before I can say anything, she pulls me into a slow sensual kiss. I really, really love when she kisses me like this, it always makes me craving for more…
I unfortunately don't think that this will lead to sex because she has been very tired and nauseous lately. But I can't complain because I'm actually enjoying this little kissing session very much… My hand travels on her body but once I reach her stomach, I stop and pull away from the kiss. It's actually the first time I touch her belly since I learned that they are two in there… She doesn't show yet but that ultrasound made it a lot more real. She is carrying our babies… Two babies that will soon be there in the flesh - probably looking like her – and who will eventually call me mama and give me sloppy kisses, just like our Sofia.
I snap out of my thoughts when I suddenly feel Britt's hand on top of mine. As I look at her and see her smiling at me, I realize that I have actually been smiling all along as well. We don't say a word but I know that she understood. She knows I want them too.
A COUPLE OF DAYS LATER – AT HOME
"So we ask Quinn to be one of the babies' godmother, right?" Britt asks.
"Yes, for sure!" I confirm. When I was expecting Sofia and we had to choose who would be her godmother, it was a tie between Mercedes and Quinn. But at the time, Quinn was living in Connecticut and we wanted to give our daughter the possibility to hang out with her godparents on a regular basis. So we picked Mercedes because even though New York was her home base back then, she was in L.A very often. But now, Q lives here and I definitely want her to be the godmother of one of my children.
"Good… we still need one more godmother though…" She says with a wink.
"I actually have someone in mind. If you agree…" I say.
"Ok... Who?" She asks, curious.
"I huh... I really would like to ask Naya..." I reply. "I have been thinking about it and well... of course Tina would make an amazing godmother but we already have a deep bond with the Changs, since Alex is your godson and Mike is Sofia's godfather..." I say. "And you know that Sofia adores Naya, I mean she practically begs to visit her!" I add.
"I know..." She replies with a smile. "She is always over-excited when we mention Naya."
"Exactly! So yeah... I would like her to be part of our children's extended family."
A FEW DAYS LATER - AT THE DUCK POND
I'm holding Sofia's hand as we both walk around the duck pond. Usually she feeds the ducks with Britt but now I also take her here quite often because she keeps asking for it! I like it too I must admit... It's a peaceful place and and we always have some quality bonding time when we come here. It's where we have our most serious conversations and where she tells me secrets that she makes me swear not to tell, not even to Brittany!
As we observe the ducks, I suddenly hear her sweet little voice addressing me. "Mama?"
"Sí, mi amor?" I reply.
"Do you love mommy?" She asks out of nowhere.
I look at her, a bit confused. Where does this even come from? But OK… at least, she's asking the easiest question in the world.
"Yes, I love mommy very much." I reply without hesitation.
"Why do you love her? Is it because she's pretty?" She asks.
Why I love Britt? Gee kid, how much time do you have…
"Of course she's beautiful, but that's not the only reason, mija. There are many things about your mommy that I love." I say.
"Like what?" She asks, staring at me expectantly.
O-kay… She won't let this go! I better give her more details then… "Well... I love how sweet she is to everyone, and that she's always smiling! Mmhh... I also love how well she takes care of you... and me! And of course… I love how she dances! But there are so many reasons, baby girl... It would take me too much time to list them all!" I reply. "She is just my favorite grown up in the whole world!"
I naively think that we can conclude that topic when she suddenly adds "Oliver said that only a dad and a mom can be in love, not two moms..."
What the fuck! I know we live in a shitty world but for some reason that is not a sentence I thought I would hear from my daughter. She's not even three yet and she's already exposed to homophobic comments?
"Who is Oliver?" I ask, trying to hide how furious I feel. "Is that a boy from daycare?"
She silently nods in confirmation.
You're lucky you're a toddler, Oliver, otherwise I would beat the shit out of you.
"Oliver is not telling the truth, mija." I say. "Two moms can be in love with each other, just like me and mommy."
"Okay!" She says with a smile, obviously happy about my answer. She doesn't question it further and immediately returns her attention to the ducks.
I'm so going to find out who said that load of bull crap to this… Oliver. I assume it's his parents and that the boy just repeated it. But NO ONE is going to put shitty ideas like those in MY kid's head! How do they dare making my little girl doubt that her parents are in love?
This unexpected conversation with Sofia convinces me even more to defend my love relationship on Glee because clearly… the world needs to be educated!
I am going to include Brittana romantic scenes in the next season, if it's the last thing I do.
A FEW DAYS LATER – AT HOME – MORNING TIME
I suddenly wake up, feeling pain. When I open my eyes, there is a tiny hand right across my face. Are you kidding me... Sofia hit me in her sleep, AGAIN?
"Hey!" Britt whispers, smiling at me as I carefully move my kid's arm away from me.
"Hey…" I reply. "There is an intruder in our bed..." I mumble.
"I know… The little munchkin sneaked into our room again..." She says while spooning our sleepy daughter.
When Sofia started to sleep in her big kid bed, she also found out how to get out of it, come to our room and climb into our bed. Fortunately, this doesn't happen too often but when it does, none of us notices she's there until we find her laying between us in the morning. And that little monster manages to hit me in the face every single time! She even kicked my lady part once! And for some mysterious reasons, I'm actually the only one she hits while Brittany just gets cuddles! How fair is that?!
I look at Brittany and realize that Sofia is completely blocking my access to my wife right now… This better not become a habit because late evenings and early mornings are basically the only moments where I get Britt to myself.
ANOTHER FEW DAYS LATER – AT PARAMOUNT
"I think we can all agree that season 2 was a massive success!" Lee says enthusiastically. "The network is very happy, especially because the season finale gathered even more viewers than last year! But you know what that means, the pressure will be even bigger next season, because we have to do even better!"
I really want to get up and tell him that I don't give a fuck about ratings if we can't even talk about topics that actually matter or use the show to convey meaningful messages! Quinn probably can sense that I'm getting angry as I feel her hand squeezing mine under the table. I give her a quick look to reassure her, I know it's not in my best interest to act all rebellious right now, so I will force myself to remain quiet. My time will come soon enough anyway, because my plan is already in motion...
The only thing that keeps me sane right now is that Naya managed to get #Brittana trending on social networks by tweeting live during the season finale. It was her brilliant idea and it got even more attention than I thought it would. In the last episode, we hinted that my character and Britt's might finally become a real couple and apparently fans are completely excited.
As Lee goes through his boring ratings report, I decide to ignore his neverending monologue and check my phone instead. I have a message from my label.
FROM "TOMMY": Hi Santana, I just wanted to let you know that people have been massively buying Songbird online ever since the song was featured on Glee! It's really impressive! You have got to include more songs of yours, girl!
That's great news but I'm not surprised that the song is becoming popular. First, that song has always been well received by the audience, even when I sang it on Mercedes' tour. Second, Naya nailed it but that was a given considering how bad she wanted to sing it on the show. Third, it was used on Glee to show how much my character loves Britt, pretty much like I did in real life.
A COUPLE OF WEEKS LATER - LIMA – EVENING TIME
We flew to Ohio earlier today and will stay in Lima for one week only because after that, I have to get back on set. Normally we don't visit our family at this time of year but since Brittany is almost four months pregnant and is now showing, it was time to announce the news. We just told them that we were expecting twins and they went even crazier than I thought they would! Their enthusiasm is very touching though, and heartwarming!
"Do you know the babies' gender?" Whitney suddenly asks in an excited voice.
"Well… we know that one of them is a boy..." I reply, taking Britt's hand in mine. "But the other baby keeps hiding their private parts so the Doctor can't tell! We have to wait until the littler mister or the little miss lets us take a peek…"
As soon as I say that, they become even more excited and that was to be expected. Since we already have a little girl, I am sure that they were hoping for at least one boy.
"Do you already have ideas for that boy's name? Because I have a lot!" Abuela says.
Oh God, of course she does… I better get mentally prepared for receiving a thousand texts suggesting baby names…
A/N: About the twins: I haven't made up my mind about the sex of the second baby… That's why I have bought some time to think further ha ha. Abuela is definitely going to meddle with names again, because she has a comic potential that I love way too much!
I also have to confess that I love more and more the friendship between Santana and Naya, and that's why she is more present in some chapters, like this one. Hopefully you like it too.
So, now… over to you: what did you think about this chapter? Please review and as always, thanks for the read!
