HEARTS DIVIDED: Death

by tarskeewee08

Evangeline

Evangeline watched the green ball bounce and come down in triangular formation beeping at the same rhythm of her husband's heart. The continuous beep was comforting, it was evidence of the life that still pulsated through his veins. Looking over to him in the bed his head bandaged and the ventilator tube coming from his mouth her heart aches for the love of her life.

Touching his hand gently it felt cold in her hands. When they met fours years ago she remembered vividly his powerful warm handshake. His crooked smile and hearty laughter held her mesmerized. She fell for him immediately and their marriage has been the best thing that has ever happened to her. Now he lay there dying and there was nothing she could to save him.

Rising from her seat next to his hospital bed she pulled at the crease of the sheet and tucked him in securely. He had on the navy pajama set she bought him last Christmas. She laughed to herself, he hated that set. Lowering her head she kissed his forehead and it felt cool and clammy under her lips. The private room she had for him was cool and airy. The walls were a soft green bordered in white. The floor was a hard marble concrete pattern that echoed the clicks of her heels as she moved around. His bed positioned in the middle of the room had him lying with several wires and tubes connected to him.

She looked into his handsome still face and willed him to open his eyes for her. To see her again. God please make him see her again.

The cancer when initially diagnosed was supposed to be operable. They were only two years into their marriage and discussing the possibility of kids when he was diagnosed. Both of their careers made no room for kids but she was sure that they would always have time. When he was diagnosed with testicular cancer, her fear of not having children pushed him to deposit sperm in a reserve for her. Now two years later she was grateful he did that.

The cancer after the removal of his testes spread to his lungs and now brain. He hadn't said her name in a week and hadn't opened his eyes since the surgery yesterday. The doctors informed her that they were unable to remove the tumor and that they stopped the surgery sparing him the lobotomy required to remove all of the diseased tissue. She didn't believe it though. Their love was bigger than this. Bigger than cancer. He would wake up and come back to her.

Walking away from the bed she went to the large window shielded by the heavy emerald green draperies. Pulling them back she looked out into the street and watched the people and cars go by. She remembered their discussion of death.


"Baby, I'm fine the surgery was over 6 months ago" he said pulling her back to the bed.
"You have blood in your urine that can't be fine…." she said her voice cracking.
"Evangeline come here." pulling her onto his chest he stroked her silky hair. "I'm not going to leave you, we have so much more to experience with each other. I know the last year has been rough and scary but the doctors said I will be okay."

Rising up from his chest she looked into his eyes as tears fell down her face. She loved this man more than life itself. She would rather die with him than be left alone. "I love you so much…" she said weakly

Pulling her face to his he kissed her sweetly. She felt the warm soft taste of his tongue rolling into her mouth and was taken by the passion he forced from her body with his kisses.

He rolled her onto her back putting his weight on her and sliding his strong hands over body. Slipping his hand under her shirt he grabbed and massaged her breast smiling through their kiss at the way she squirmed under his grip. He still commanded her body and each time he made love to her was like a new experience.

Sliding his hands down the side of her body to her panties he rolled them off her while kissing her neck. His need for her so bad he could barely get out of his pajama pants before climbing to between her legs.

Their love making was always tender. He would exhale every time he entered her from the extreme wave of relief and passion that raced through his veins. She would purr in his ear and hold him tightly with her strong powerful thighs forcing him into her deeper with every thrust. Knowing each others body they would climax in unison and their passion would be quenched for the time being.

When they were done she would lay in his arms thinking about their wonderful life together. This night she cried. Something was wrong with him. The blood in his urine was an omen and she was terrified. God please don't take him from me she repeated in her head over and over. But apparently god wasn't listening.

Turning and looking back at the bed she saw his eyes flutter. Rushing to his side she grabbed his hand. The heart monitor started to beep loudly and several nurses came rushing in. He was having a seizure and his eyes rolled in his head while his body thrashed around.

Evangeline stifled the scream in her throat as a nurse pulled her away and doctors rushed into the room. They were pounding and working on him and her head was exploding. He couldn't leave her not now. She wasn't ready. God no she wasn't ready! Shaking uncontrollably she looked at the machine next to him. The one that comforted her with evidence of his life and saw the ball had stopped bouncing. There was a flat line. That's when she screamed.

She screamed and screamed. Her husband the man of her dreams the love of her life was dead. What kind of god would take him from her? Why were they being punished like this? "NOOOOOOOO!" she shouted while the nurse held her as she slid from the chair to the floor. "NOOOOOOO!" she screamed again. "GOD NOOOO!" she screamed this time so loud her voice cracked.

The doctor came over to where she was rocking and he and the nurse helped her up off the floor. He turned her to face him. "Ms. Buchanan, your husband is gone. We've done everything we could do to save him. I'm sorry. Shall well call the family and get someone here for you."

Evangeline shook her head wildly as tears streamed down her face "Kevin's not dead. Take it back!" she shouted and then pushed free of the nurse and doctor.

"Kevin!" she cried climbing into bed with him and getting tangled in the wires around him. "Kevin baby wake up….its me baby wake up" she said kissing his face the tube from his mouth preventing her from kissing his lips.

"Please baby, they think you're dead. You got to show them, remember you wouldn't leave me. Remember?" Feeling hands on her pulling her off of him she started to scream. She kept screaming his name and fighting as they dragged her across the room. Her mind snapped and her life was over.

John

John rushes through traffic. She wanted him there for the baby shower and if he was late he would never hear the end of it. Driving through traffic in Atlanta was a headache. I-285 never moved at 4 in the evening and he had 10 minutes to get there. She was going to kill him.

Even with his impeding death at being late to there shower he couldn't stop grinning. Next month they were going to be parents and he was going to have the family he always wanted. He came from a large family 12 bothers and sisters. Kids were always a dream of his. She was from Llanview, Pennsylvania and he was from New Jersey. They met three years ago when he was doing a sting. She was hosting a charity event when he and his men stormed the Palace. They busted her major contributor and she got in his face heated over the intrusion.

He watched her slinging her long mane around her shoulders as she gave him a piece of her mind and he fell in love instantly. He pursued her relentlessly until she finally gave in and he considered himself the luckiest man in the world because she did.

The only problem with their love affair was her difficulties in conceiving. The renowned Dr. Spencer Truman managed to save the day. John deposited the sperm and he went to work. He can remember the day they were going to be parents. When Spencer told them the news.


"Well guys I got some news…" Spencer said looking at the cautious look on both their faces.

"What is it…" She asked her voice cracking. John looked over at her and saw her bottom lip quivering. He loved her so much and the pain on her face at the possibility she wouldn't be able to give him a child broke his heart. As desperate as he was to have a large family he was more desperate to have her. Rubbing her arm gently he braced himself for the news.

Spencer smiled at them. "So do you want a boy or a girl?"
She screamed jumping in his arms and he held on tightly to her hugging her close to his chest. "Are you sure?" he asked

"Positive!" Spencer said.

Walking down to the car she talked non-stop about what she wanted to name the baby what type of schools he/she would attend. It was all so cute. They got in and he delivered his own news.

"Baby I have something to tell you"
"What is it John?" she asked concerned.
"I got my orders today. Within a month we have to relocate to Atlanta."

She grew silent and looked away from him out of the window. Llanview was her home. She wanted to live and die here. Leaving her family would be hard but leaving pregnant would be even harder.

John grabbed her hand and squeezed. "Baby, it will be a two year assignment then I can get us back to Pennsylvania, I promise. Please don't be upset with me."

She smiled at him "We're having a baby!" she gushed.
"I know and I'm so happy that we'll do it together."

Easing up in traffic he looked at his watch. Reaching for his cell phone he called her friend Charlotte. She'd made friends so quick in the 6 months they'd been here. It felt like it was more people coming to this shower than the entire town of Llanview. Laughing I heard her partner in crime pickup.

"Hello"
"Hey, is she mad?"
"John she isn't here..."
"What?"
"I spoke to her an hour ago, she should have been here by now."

Looking up at the traffic moving along John frowned "She's probably stuck like me.
"An accident?"
"Yeah looks bad I see lots of lights a mile up."
"Well she isn't answering her cell" Charlotte said a little frustrated.
"I tell her all the time to keep that phone off vibrate."
"Okay, well since neither of you are here I guess I'll do handstands to entertain the guest."
"Come on Char, we're on our way don't be like that."
Charlotte starts to laugh. "Just hurry up!"
"Bye"
"Bye"

John threw the phone on the seat next to him and popped in his cd that she made for him. It was just one of the many sweet things she did to take care of him. He loved her so much his life with her had been amazing. Being loved by her was the best the thing that ever happened to him. Even now with a swollen belly she was the most beautiful woman in the world to him.

"I love you" he said touching her belly and kissing her on the cheek.
"I love you too baby" she said turning to him and kissing him passionately. He could swear her libido had intensified with this pregnancy. She rolled over on top of him and kissed the inside of his neck.

John closed his eyes and sighed at the feeling of her soft lips and warm breath on his neck. She was the only woman who through a whisper could make him melt with desire. She sat up straddling him and he held onto her hips as she position herself to ease down onto him. He looked up at her in her pink colored maternity night gown clinging to her porcelain like skin and saw her love for him glistening in her eyes.

She moved up and down and he felt her belly knowing that their love was growing inside. His heart so full with love he found it hard to breath under her. She rotated her hips and made him weaken even further. Leaning down to him she kissed his forehead and then his lips. He kept up with her rotation and his eyes rolled into his head as he neared his breaking point. She leaned into his ear and whispered "I love you so much John…"

Her voice was the final button to push that sent him completely over the edge. Moaning loudly he exploded inside of her squeezing his eyes shut.

She woke him every morning this way. And he looked forward to it. She was his everything.

After showering he came back into the room to see her laying in bed go over her check list.

"Do you think we should have some wine at the shower?" she asked sweetly.

He smiled at her. She was so excited about this shower
"Baby I want to give you my gift now"
She looked up her eyes big "No John! Wait until this afternoon at the shower!"

Walking over to his side of the dresser he retrieved the turquoise tiffany box with the thick white ribbon.

"I want you to have it now."

Giving her the box she looked at him confused. Slowly she removed the satin bow and opened the box. Inside laid a silver thick link charm bracelet with one charm. A baby bootie. Looking at him with tears in her eyes she was stunned.

John sat down on the bed and pulled the bracelet from the box. Taking it out he took her dainty wrist and clasped the bracelet around it. "The first 10 years of our child's life I will add a charm. Pretty soon you won't be able to wear it" he said chuckling.

She threw her arms around him and hugged him tightly tears rolling down her eyes "You have made me the happiest woman in the world."

"No baby, it's you that's done that for me." He said kissing her forehead.

John neared the accident and frowned. It was a SUV on it's hood with the front of the vehicle completely caved in. Looking at the car that looked like hers he saw the license plate HERS 429. It was her license plate with their wedding date. Slamming on his breaks from the shock the car behind him rear ended him. Since they were creeping along the impact though sudden wasn't too damaging.

Either way it didn't matter. Jumping out of his car in the street he ran toward the vehicle. He had no idea he was screaming until he saw the frowns on the officers and firemen faces! Running to the car two officers grabbed him trying to keep him back but strength he didn't know he had took over and he shook them off like rag dolls. Falling to his knees oblivious to the glass on the ground he saw that the inside of the car was empty and some of his sanity came back. It was okay. She was okay. She probably just got a little scraped but she was okay.

An officer touches his shoulder and he turns around with tears on his face. "Where's my wife. She already at the hospital? We're having a baby." he said weakly.

The officer reached and pulled him up and John saw the look on his face shaking his head. "Where is she? Where's my damn wife!" Pushing the man away he sees the ambulance and the body on the gurney. The sheet stained with blood covers the person face and he shakes his head. That's not her. It couldn't be her. Noticing her arm hanging from the sheet he sees the charm bracelet he gave her this morning.

"KELLY!" he screams running to the gurney. "BABY NOOOOO! KELLY!" Pushing the EMT out of the way he snatches the sheet back and sees her swollen bruised face. Screaming he pulls her into his arms. "NO, GOD DON'T DO THIS TOO ME, PLEASE GOD NO!"

Everyone stands around him staring. The cars on the street that inch by have passengers leaning out of their windows gawking at the macabre scene. Even the man, who's been blowing his horn and cursing because John caused him to rear-end him, is shocked into silence.

John lifts his head to the sky and screams a bloodcurdling scream that could be heard in heaven.