HEARTS DIVIDED: Seperated

by tarskeewee08

Evangeline awakens to tiny fingers on her face squeezing her nose. Opening her eyes she stares into her son's crystal blue eyes. His black thick eyebrows and long black lashes framed his eyes making him look Angelic. He sucks on his pacifier and looks at her. She sees it in his eyes. He misses his daddy too. Last night when they arrived she went straight to her old room. She didn't bother to alert Jessica or Vikki that they were here. She couldn't face anyone.

KJ spits out his pacifier and stares at her "Daddy? Where's Daddy?" he says in his tiny voice. Since John's been with him he was speaking more and more. She touched his round cheek and felt his baby soft skin. She doesn't know how to explain that John is gone. That they may never be a family again.

What he did to her. They way he attacked her destroyed her faith in him. She didn't want to be near him at all. Hearing a knock on the door both she and KJ turned and looked as Jessica stuck her head in.

Evangeline glared at her sister. Jessica came in smiling timidly "Hey, mom told me you guys were here and I had to see for myself."

KJ sits up laughing "Jess!" he squeals.
Jessica comes to the bed and KJ stands with his arms stretched to her. She pulls him into her arms and hugs him. Looking at Evangeline she knows that John must have received the tape.

"Van I can explain"
"How could you!" Evangeline hissed.
Jessica rocks with KJ and kisses his forehead. The door opens and Vikki appears. "Good morning I had to come and see my baby!"

"Mamah!" KJ says stretching out his hands. Vikki takes her grandson and kisses him. "I have missed you so! You are such a big boy!"

Evangeline sits up "Vikki, can you take KJ and give me and Jess a moment" she says handing her the pacifier. Vikki walks over get the pacifier and KJ quickly snatches it popping it into his mouth.

Looking at both her girls she frowns "Is everything okay?"

"Fine mom!" Jessica says smiling. She walks over and kisses KJ's jaw. "Just some girl talk that's all."

Vikki sees the way Evangeline glares at Jessica and knows better but turns and leaves her lavender house coast twirling around her feet as she exits the room. Jessica makes sure the door is locked before turning to Evangeline. "Now before you say anything let me explain!"

"Explain what? How you could intentionally hurt a man that you barely know? How you could send that nasty tape to my house and blow my world apart without consulting me! I told you to stay the hell out of it! I could kick your ass Jessie!"

"What about us Van? Your family! You left town and didn't say a word to us. Mom was worried sick. You married this man with no warning and snatched KJ from our lives. And I hear that you are changing KJ's name?"

Evangeline shook her head "That boy is his son, Jessica! What I do with my son and his father is none of your concern!"

"It's not? Oh excuse me for thinking we are a family. Excuse me for loving you!" she shouted.

Evangeline looked at her with tears in her eyes "You have no idea how much pain you have caused Jessie. What you destroyed."

Jessica blinked at Evangeline's tears "My god Van are you in love with him? A man you've only known for month?"

"And if I am? I don't owe you any damn explanations! I'm a grown woman. That man has been loving and kind to me. You hurt him because of your selfish need to keep us close to you. That way you don't have to face your own life. I wish you would direct that energy that way!"

"I only wanted to help"

Evangeline wiped at her tears "I want all the tapes Jessie and I want you to stay out of it. I don't know what happens now but you will stay the hell out of it! Are we clear?"

"What about Kevin? What about your commitment to my brother? You moved that man into his house. Took him into his bed!"

"Kevin? I have no idea who Kevin really was. What I had with him was all a lie!"
"Where are you getting this from?" Jessica asked her heart pounding.
"I found out Kevin was part owner of Telico. He endorsed the torture of helpless poor people even kids"
"That's a lie!"
"It's true Jess…"
"No who told you that? That cop? That ex-agent? Did you ever stop to think that he could be lying Van. You knew Kevin and yes he could be a hard ass but he never would do those things Van. Think about it."

"Maybe not….John could be lying about this. But it doesn't change the fact that Kevin is dead and I have to move on. You have to stop trying to protect me!" Evangeline shouted back.

"Van, listen sweetie. I did this because you don't know John McBain. Spencer Truman was angry that he had to let Kelly go. He used John's sperm to inseminate you on purpose. You were set up!"

"So was John Jessica! My god the man's wife cheated on him and convinced him to raise another man's child. He's a victim in this!"

"Really? If he's a victim why are you here?"

Evangeline looked away. "Things fell apart because of your interference he was in shock."
"Did he hurt you? Did he hurt KJ?"
"God no!"
"Van…why leave? You did it because part of you knows I'm right you don't know him."
"Stop it Jess! If you keep on like this I will take KJ and leave. I mean it!"

Jessica burst into tears. "Van please…..we are a family. Can't you see that?"
Evangeline leaned over and touched her hand "Yes, but KJ has a father and we were becoming a family. You had no right to rip that apart. No right." she said tenderly.
"I'm sorry"
Evangeline reached and pulled her sister into her arms. Jessica wrapped her arms around her laying her head on her chest. "I wish you had come to me first Jess…"
"I only wanted you and KJ back here. I already lost Kevin. I didn't want to loose you too"
"I know"

Jessica sat up. "Is it over between you two?"
Evangeline heart burned from the pain of last nights events. "I think so."
"Do you love him?"
"I do"
"Then maybe you should tell him."
Evangeline smiled weakly. "Some ugly things were said Jess, I don't know if it will be enough."

"I lied Evangeline."
"What?"
"Kevin was involved in the Telico scandal."
Evangeline touched her face lovingly "I know"
"It's worse than that"
"What do you mean?"
"He brought Dr. Truman here to do experimental testing."
"What?"
"Van….he never gave the fertility clinic a deposit. It was a ploy to cover up his visits. He wanted to be cloned."
Evangeline frowned "Where are you getting this from?"
"I have tapes…"
"Tapes? Evidence? Like the ones of John's wife?"
"Yes"
"Oh my god.."
"I'm sorry Van…"

"Oh my god.." Evangeline said in shock getting up. How could she not know her own husband?

"How is it possible that I don't know my husband? That I lay next to this man and loved him not knowing who he was?"

Jessica watched her pace the floor "None of us knew"
"It's all so pathetic and disgusting" Evangeline said tears falling.
"I know…I know"
"I need to be alone Jessica. Can you keep an eye on KJ….I just need to be alone."
Jessica stood up. "Of course.." she said walking over hugging and kissing her sister.

When Jessica left Evangeline stumbled to the bed. She held it together until Jessica left. Before reaching the bed her body was racked with sobs. She fell on the bed and cried so hard she fought to breathe.

Kevin was a monster. What did that make her? Oh god how could she have ever loved him. Crying and screaming into her pillow she tried to hold onto her sanity.

John thought she was some kind of elitist bitch that used money as a way to destroy people. She couldn't blame him. The life she led was fake, pretentious and to think she made herself a shrine to a man that had that kind of cruelty in his heart.

She wanted to escape it all. Crying so hard now her head pounded she moaned in the wake of all she had lost. She cried for her and her son.

John pulled up at Lakewood. Turning off the car he sat outside looking at the house unsure of what he was going to say. He spent the night in a motel up the street and he watched the tape in its entirety. How could he blame Evangeline for what his wife did to him? How could he scare his son like that? He didn't know if he could face them. He didn't know who he was.

His marriage was a lie. The baby she carried wasn't his. He had tortured himself over a woman that abused his trust and faith in family. Looking up he saw Antonio coming out the house and frowned. Opening his car door he stepped out and walked around to greet him. "Hey man"

Antonio looked up and smiled "John…"
"What's going on?" John asked knowing that Antonio rarely came to the house.
"I was closing up the house."
"Closing up the house?"
"Yes Evangeline left with KJ"

John felt as if he'd been slapped "She left? Left for where?"
"Back to Llanfair. I got a call from Jessica to close up the house"

John's blood boiled at the mention of Jessica. "Did you?"
"What's wrong?"
"It appears that Jessica Buchanan has a problem with my marriage."

Antonio shook his head "Jessie is a complicated woman. That brother of hers screwed with her head John. Don't take it personal. Besides Van is a smart woman Jessica can't stop her from falling in love with you."

John rubbed his jaw. "I may have messed things up pretty bad with her man, I said some cruel things to her."

"Why?"
"It's a long story."
"Do you love her?"
"Yes"
"Then tell her."

John looked at Antonio and wished it was that easy. He didn't even know if she loved him. She never said she did. "I need to get away for a few days man, do me a favor if you talk to her tell her that I love her"

"What? Leaving is not the answer bro" Antonio said
"I know…but a lot has happened not only with us but with last wife. I need a break. I need to give Van a moment to digest what she learned about her husband."

Antonio nodded. "Okay man.."

That night

Evangeline remained in bed. She hadn't eaten the soup that was brought up to her. She was too sick. Jessica came in with KJ and she turned around. KJ lifted his arms for her to pick him up to the bed and she was too weak to get her baby. Jessica came over and lifted him laying him next to her. She snuggled her pumpkin who was fresh from his bath. Evangeline mouthed thank you to Jessica as she left the room.

KJ stared at her with his round blue eyes and Evangeline saw John in his face. John hadn't called all day. He hadn't even tried to see them. She cried knowing that he must hate her now. She never even told him that she loved him. Rubbing her sons face she was exhausted from heartache. Spending the entire day in bed crying she knew played their fight over and over. He was just in pain. If he wanted to destroy her he could have refused her proposal and used that evidence he had on Kevin. But he didn't. He was a good man. He was her man. And now he was gone.

Hours ago she'd decided if he came for them she would leave. She would go wherever he wanted. She didn't want Kevin's money or name. Instead she wanted her new husband. She wanted her family.

KJ closed his eyes drifting to sleep. Evangeline rolled to her back and looked at the ceiling trying to make sense of her life now. Where was he? Was he thinking of them? God she hoped so. She prayed that he would come back to them.

John walked into his mother's house. The first person he saw was Caitlyn.
"John…what are you doing here?"
"Not now Katie"
"Where's Evangeline and KJ?"

John headed up the stairs to his old room. Going inside he closed the door. He was exhausted. He'd driven all night. Falling down on his bed he thought of his son and wife. He wanted his family back. But he hurt them and he didn't know how to fix that. He didn't know if could. The more he thought about it the more he realized that maybe KJ was better off without him. His temper and rage that he carried inside spilled over to his child.

He would never let that happen again. He'd let him go first. Closing he eyes he felt tears roll out. He wished he could do it all again and moaned at the thought that his one shot at happiness had slipped away. His life was shit.