TITLE: Alluded Distress
AUTHOR NAME: Marlena R. Snape
CATEGORY: Drama
SUB CATEGORY: Romance
RATING: PG-13 for language and such.
CAST: Marlena Dubois, Ashleigh Morgan, Chris Sabin, A.J Styles, as well as mentions and appearance of others throughout. ( Tons of cameos! )
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DISCLAIMER: I don't own anything, y'heard? I only own Marlena Dubois, as minus the last name and picture base? She IS me. Ashleigh is credited to one of my best friends, Candace. Brooklyn Dubois ( the few parts she's in I should say ) is credited to my friend Angel, while Marlena's parents, and her sister Patricia are my real family. Chris Sabin, A.J Styles, and the rest of the NWA:TNA superstars in this story, are to my best rendition of their real selves, but I don't know them, or own them. ( However a girl CAN wish! ) Chris Irvine ( 'Jericho' in the WWE scene ) is not mine either…oh how I wish. He makes a few appearances as well, as do a few other WWE superstars. I own jack shite, okay? So don't sue me for letting my imagination run wild! :-P Enjoy the story.
Lyrics and name of the Allen's POV chapter, is from "Breathless" by 40 Below Summer, off their album "The Mourning After".
Chapter Ten: Breathless
Allen laid in the guest room bed, like he had many times over the past few weeks. He laid with his hands behind his head, staring aimlessly at the ink black ceiling, lots on his mind. He still was having trouble believing that he had told Marlena how he felt about her. But he didn't even tell her the extent. Was she mad at him? That was the only thing that crossed his mind.
He had wondered, if maybe or not he should have waited. But he had promised himself, no, that he would tell her if a month passed and they were still close. Allen thought now, they were closer than ever. This was perfect. But was it, really? He felt like - Marlena would have hated him by now. She went silent when he told her, or near it. It made him uneasy, no matter how stone his expression was laid in.
"C'mon, AJ, suck it up…" He grumbled to himself, as he walked over to the window. Opening the drapes, moonlight spilled into his room, as he looked out over the pool. "Maybe she doesn't like ya, but ya know what - that's alright, man." He was speaking to himself, barely above a whisper. "Just give her time, she'll tell ya either way… she's not the shove-off type… she's a good gal…"
Allen knew that, and he knew he had to believe it. He had to keep his faith in her. Why was he losing such now? Just because she didn't know how to take it… Allen could have kicked himself for being so stupid. He probably would have, if the door to his bedroom didn't open.
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You believe every word I say
and always took the time to understand
You took my breath away,
is that you slipping right through my hands?
Just like a shooting star
falling from the sky
I wait for you to land
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It closed just about as quick as it had opened, but something was left on the nightstand. Allen walked over to the nightstand, where he saw an envelope. Sitting down at the edge of his bed, he turned on the stand lamp, and noted "Allen" written across the envelope face. He knew the hand writing, thanks to all the autographs he had seen of hers. It was obviously Marlena's.
He tore the envelope open gently, and pulled out the letter. It was a couple pages long, and he slowly began reading through it. Various things came to his mind as he read her words, he frowned. He made her confused. And she didn't think he could like her? Did she think she wasn't worth it? That actually built a fire in him, as he grew very lightly angry. How could she not… she was incredible…
Okay, so honesty was the best policy, he reckoned. He came to the part where she said she still adored Charlie. He didn't let that jealousy get to him, as he continued to read it. It wasn't love. There was a breath of relief. He wouldn't have said another word if she was in love with someone else - it wasn't his style, at all.
Each word he read, seemed to make him more nervous. He wanted to go into her room, grab her, confess to her just how MUCH he liked her, kiss her… hold her… take away her worry and doubt. He hated making her so uncertain… it bothered him like nothing else in the world. He felt horrible for making her second guess.
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Fly away
don't shut me out,
cause I can't be without you
Run away
come with me,
cause I can't be without you
be without you.
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He couldn't even explain how he felt when he read that letter. She was so lost, and confused - or at least that's how he perceived it. Maybe he should have just kept his big mouth shut. He thought she might like him though, like he liked her, so he couldn't lose hope. Until she told him to leave her alone.
Allen put the letter in his wallet, folded gently, as to not to rip it. He even folded the envelope. It was something he'd cherish, just because it was from her. He was more than just infatuated with this girl, he was considerably in love with her. She was all he thought about at any given time… it was strange. He had never felt like that about any woman. Especially someone he met through his job. At first he thought it would be like the relationship he had with Ashleigh, but that all changed after the first two months of knowing her.
He sat on his bed, looking down at the floor. Allen was stricken with thought. He still wanted to go into her room, and tell her it was okay. To rock her back and forth, hold her, take away all of the trouble he had given her since what he had said. He still felt like it was his fault that all of her uncertainty came about. In fact, it probably was. As much as he wished he hadn't had talked, he was glad he did. He would have been miserable keeping something like that to himself. It would have eaten at him like a cancer.
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When I wake up everyday
I need to know you're not so far away
Just like a shooting star
Falling from the sky
I wait for you to land.
Fly away
don't shut me out.
Cause I can't be without you.
Run away
Come with me
Cause I can't be without you.
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Allen stood up. He couldn't take this anymore. Opening the bedroom door that lead into her room, he slowly walked in, and noticed she was laying in bed. She was curled up under the blankets, her angelic face cradled by her long blonde hair. He wasn't sure if he should have disturbed her, after all, she looked so peaceful.
He just sat on the edge of her bed. She didn't move, and she didn't seem disturbed. He pushed her hair out of her face, taking a quiet breath. The moonlight seemed to light up the room just enough for him to see her sleeping face. She really did look like an angel.
Allen tucked a few strands of her hair behind her ear, her face seemingly pushing against his hand. Was she comfortable? Did she know it was him? Allen stayed still for a moment, but she didn't wake up. Or at least didn't look like she did. He let out a relieved breath.
"You know how to make a guy's heart jump…" Allen whispered, not thinking anyone would hear him. Especially Marlena. "I'm a bad person, 'specially to you…" He was speaking like she could hear him, whether she did was the thing. "I feel horrible for makin' you second guess everything…I wish you were awake so I could apologize to ya…" Allen sighed softly, as he brushed her bangs away from her closed eyes. "Tomorrow mornin', I'm gonna tell you everything. And I'm gonna ask questions in return…I hope you don't mind…"
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Open your eyes
and open your life
And just fly away
Don't shut me out
Cause I can't be without you.
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"I can't help it, even though I probably should. I know how you feel about Charlie…but I also know you wouldn't go back with him. Well, after all, that girl Donna, and all…" Allen said, as he took one of her hands into his. She remained asleep. "I feel bad for confusing you, that was the last thing I wanted to do… I really do wish you were awake so we could put some closure on this…" He continued to speak softly. "But you're so beautiful when you're sleepin'… beautiful when you're awake too…"
He still held her hand, tracing the contours of them with his free hand index finger. He traced over the small diamond ring she had on her right middle finger, and then over the small gold band she had on her pinkie finger. Allen wanted to just shake her awake, and beg her to forgive him for being so selfish. He knew he'd have to get to sleep though, he sighed.
"You're everythin' to me…and I'll do whatever it takes to help you know where you stand. I've battled with myself for over a month, trying to muster the courage to tell you. I didn't mean to make this so hard on you. I've just, I've never felt like this about anyone, so that makes me a bit nervous…" He in fact spoke nervously, as if she was awake and looking at him, her bright baby blue eyes judging him as he spoke. "I just hope, that when it's all said and done, you can look at me in the same light you looked and look at Charlie in." He smiled softly, as he leaned down, kissing her forehead gently. "Sweet dreams, beautiful."
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Fly away.
Don't shut me out.
Cause I can't be without you.
Fly away.
Come with me.
Cause I can't be without you.
Cause I can't be without you.
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Allen placed her hand on her bed, as he slowly stood up. He glanced at the clock on her night side table, and noticed it was nearly 2 A.M. He walked back to the door, leading into the guest room where he slept when he stayed at Marlena, Ashleigh, and Chris' place. Technically, it was his, so they all said.
When he laid back down in his bed, he felt a slight burden relieved. It wasn't as if she listened to a word he had said, but he felt as if he gained some sort of closure on his own uncertain feelings, but speaking what he thought to someone other than his own shadow. The only problem with the whole ordeal was, only Allen didn't know…
You can't wake, what wasn't originally asleep.
[A/N: There's something to think about at the end of this chapter. Hope it was enjoyable, next chapter of course, is working up until the pay-per-view, and the big TNA event. Hopefully y'all are still tuned in up in here.]
