Author's Notes: Good Morning/Goodnight/Good afternoon to everyone! I'm LaDiDaaifan and I would like to give you an update to this crazy love story.
Warnings: Angst
Disclaimer: I don't own Gravitation
Chapter 10
It's all my fault...
It's all my fault...
I'm dead...
"Don't leave me, Yuki."
W-Who is this? Who is Yuki... Why would he leave...?
"If you die, I'll die with you, I promise..."
I'm not dead...?
Why would you die with me..? It's all my fault...
"After all, what else than love was created that night we met? What else but love? It's never going to end."
What else... but love...
I am Yuki...
I am alive...
But... who are you...?
Tohma lay comfortably next to his wife, Mika. A satisfied smile played his lips as he held her close. He'd never been this happy before.
And suddenly—as if on cue—the phone rang.
Tohma let out a tired sigh, as he shifted his body to ease out of the bed.
"Hello?" Tohma asked, curiously wondering who would call him so early. "What..!" He yelled into the phone, causing Mika to stir. "When..! All right, I'm coming right now."
"Tohma..? What's wrong?" Mika asked, picking up on Tohma's excitement.
Tohma turned, his smile brighter the sun. "It's Eiri... he's awake!"
She gasped, happy tears filling her eyes. "He's awake..."
Tohma, Mika, K, and Tatsuha all went to the hospital. It was a busy day but everything was put off, after all, this was Yuki.
"Hello, everyone, I'm Doctor Fujishima. Heh, It seems you've brought the whole family with you." He smiled, but then frowned slightly. "Eiri-San as suffered a lot over this year. The plane crash, hundreds of broken bones, massive surgeries, and a coma." He started. "But, this morning, he woke up. He was a bit frantic but after he calmed down, we asked him if he remembered how he got there... he was completely lost at first-"
"Does he remember now?" Tohma cut in. "Does he know who he is?"
"Yes. But don't be surprised if his memory is still a bit choppy." With that, Dr. Fujishima led them to the room of Eiri Yuki.
"Eiri-san?" Tohma whispered, peeking into the room before stepping completely into it, followed by Mika, Tatsuha, and K.
Inside, Yuki was sitting up in his bed. The sun filtered into the room with unconditional light.
"Eiri-san?" Tohma said again. Yuki's eyes were closed as the group came upon him.
A moment of silence past.
And as the silence became eerie, Yuki's eyes shot open.
"Those fuckers won't let me smoke." Yuki finally said. A second past and the entire room burst into laughter, all except Yuki of course. "Is there a reason you all are mocking me with laughter?"
"Aw, come on, Yuki! We're all just happy you're back to your normal, healthy self." Tatsuha beamed, patting a gentle hand on Yuki's back.
"Moron." He distastefully murmured before turning to the rest of the group. "If you keep staring at me I'll catch cancer." He growled.
"Eiri... are you okay?" Mika asked slowly.
"Why shouldn't I be? Aside from the fact that I can't smoke and the nurse keeps trying to start a pointless conversations, I'm just dandy." Sarcasm dripped from his mouth.
"The doctors say you might have suffered memory loss..." Tohma said slowly, his eyes studying every movement the novelist made.
"If I had suffered anything from my time here it's that fact that I'm here. Period."
"Eiri!" Mika begged, it was something she rarely did, EVER.
"I can't remember why I'm here in the first place." Yuki said calmly, not caring much about the problem at hand. "And here comes more silence. I should be sick more often, then more of you would keep your mouths shut."
"You.. don't remember why you're here?" Mika repeated in awe.
"Is there an echo in here?" He said, irritated with his sister's ways. "Is anybody going to tell me or am I going to have to beg?"
"He doesn't remember Shuichi..." Tatsuha said, a gasp was heard and they all turned to him. "Did I say that out loud?" He smiled nervously.
"Shuichi? Who's that?" Yuki mused, looking around. He knew someone was missing but who is that?
"Eiri-san, you should get your rest. We'll be back later." Tohma smiled, holding Yuki's hand for a moment before leaving.
"He has the right to know." Mika said mournfully.
"He has the right to be safe... and Shuichi will just make things worse. He just recovered, why not let him be stress-free for the time being?" Tohma said, in an all- knowing voice, which only made Mika's blood boil.
"He also has the right to remember the one he loves!"
"Eiri forgot him, and remembered everyone else. That's not love."
"You're a cold bastard..." She closed her eyes sadly. "And you've changed... into a person I don't want to know."
"Mika..?" He held his breath.
"You're selfish... and what used to be the best choice for Eiri...has become what's best for you."
The blond held his head low, carelessly allowing his hair to cover his dampened eyes.
Silence consumed the room and the couple merely stood there.
"Am I wrong...?" He started slowly, lifting his head to meet the brown eyes of Mika. "Am I wrong... to love him to the point of being selfish?"
"You answered that question when you denied Shuichi of the same thing. Tohma... we could end this thing... we could end this drama-filled story."
"I'm sorry..." He whispered, tears running down his face.
Mika sighed, pulling her husband into her chest. "I'm sorry too."
"So, he's forgotten about him?" K frowned at the thought.
"Yeah... can you believe it! My brother only letting one person enter his heart—completely forgot about him!" Tatsuha sighed.
"What did Mika say?" K questioned.
"She said nothing. I bet she was mad though, her nose always flares up when she's mad." He said with a slight chuckle.
"Okay then. I guess I'll have to take things in my own hands." K grinned pulling out a semi automatic.
"What are you going to do?" He gasped. "Kill my brother?"
"Nope, even better... I'm going to make a phone call."
The park. A place where good and bad things happen.
A place where children have the time of their lives, a place where lovers share beautiful moments of their lives, a place where love was created one windy night.
Hiro stood alone near one of the park benches, watching anonymous faces float past him.
Moments later he was greeted with a warm kiss by his lover, Shuichi.
"Don't you just love the park?" Shuichi beamed, kicking his feet back and forth as he sat on the bench.
"Yeah, I do." Hiro sighed, throwing an arm around the boy and pulling him close.
"Um, Hiro?" A delicate voice whispered awkwardly.
"I'm leaving you, Shuichi..." A second passed, allowing Shuichi to register what he just heard. He struggled against Hiro's hold, finally freeing himself and staring into his eyes. Hiro smiled, trying hard to focus on what he knew what was right.
"Hiro... why..?" The pink haired singer cried out, clinging to Hiro's shirt like a new born baby.
"Shuichi," He started, not bothering to hold the singer as he sobbed. "I've held you back long enough. I've been selfish long enough."
Violet eyes stared into brown with shock. "But I love you!" Shuichi screeched, tugging on Hiro's shoulders. But the guitarist merely glanced in another direction—away from Shuichi's piercing, sad eyes.
"I'm a selfish person. I was lucky to be with you for this long... and I loved and cared for you every second of that time. It's not fair to you... that your here and the one you love is across town, in a hospital bed, all alone."
He smiled gently, petting Shuichi on his head. This was hurting worse than he thought, but Hiro knew it was time. Time to let affections go, and have things fall where they were meant to.
"I don't understand. Why are you leaving me?"
Hiro's smile brightened. "Because I love you. And I won't stand here and let you think that you're the one who's done wrong."
Hiro pulled out a piece of paper, and slowly read out loud the bitter words. Shuichi couldn't help but feel a sting of sadness in his heart for the unknown writer of the lyric.
"What was that?"
"It's what made me realize something I didn't want to admit, Yuki Eiri, isn't the guy I thought he was. He isn't the person I hoped he was. I wanted to hate him... but in the end... I wanted to hate myself."
"...Yuki... wrote it..." Shuichi muttered to himself before looking back up at the person who was leaving him, Hiro.
"I'm not the one. I will never be. And I understand that now... because whatever you shared with him... I can never beat or replace. I know your heart, and I can't make you stay where it doesn't want to be." He paused, completely forgetting to breathe for a moment or two. "I cant make you stay with me. I can only let you know that I'll love you anyway."
"Hiro..." Shuichi couldn't help but fall completely silent to Hiro's words.
"And if you ever change your mind, you could come back anytime. For now, though, go to him... be with the one that truly makes you happy." A single tear fell from Hiro's eyes. "I'm letting you go, my Shuichi." Hiro smiled, looking down to the vocalist, who smiled warmly back at him with weeping eyes.
"I love you Hiro! I always will!" In the blink of an eye, Shuichi kissed him. A sheer, chaste kiss, the kiss that ended their relationship and start anew. "Thank you... foe everything!" He whispered quickly before he made a dash out of the park, and to the one he loved, Yuki.
Shuichi knew he could never be able to repayHiro for whats he's done for him...
Hiro as saved him more than once, and he'll never forget it.
Author's Notes: Err... I guess this won't be the last chapter after all. Darn it! If you all didn't notice, the beginning of this chapter was Yuki's subconscious. Because I believe that when someone is in a coma, they try to wake up but aren't able to wake on their own. Oh, and don't worry, this won't be some super-duper long "Yuki lost his memory" fic. This story is about Leaving Affections and that's how it's going to be. And I started another story, it's a Hiro-Yuki pairing, hehe. And um...er...oh! The next chapter will hopefully be the last!
