A/N: Wow, haven't written anything in a long time… This story is a desperate attempt to drag myself out of this lazy spell I've been under for the past…how many months? Lost count, but who cares, enjoy.
Disclaimer: Sadly, I don't own any of they characters of Kingdom Hearts, because if I did, you can better your Riku plushies there would be a heck of a lot more yaoi in the series.
Still Smiling
I knew this was going to happen. I knew they were meant for each other from the start. Ever since Kairi arrived, Sora would never stop talking about her. I remember how they used to exchange those special little glances and how some days they would disappear for hours.
Despite all this, despite what my brain keeps telling me, my heart seems to ignore it all. I can't help but feel a little jealous and bitter toward Kairi. Before she came, it was just us two, Sora and I. Now, all I am is the third wheel.
I keep telling myself that it was never meant to be. They are happy together and I have no right to interfere. I should be happy for him – for them, but every time I see them holding hands and smiling so lovingly, I feel like I'm dying a little more inside. It's an empty happiness that eats away your heart from the inside out. No matter how much I suffer on the inside, I force myself to smile. I smile for him – for them.
That's what I'm doing now as I watch them split their paopu. Smiling, because it's the only thing keeping me sane. Crying, because it's the only thing left to do when my throbbing heart is finally broken.
At first I tried to hold the tears back but they came spilling out as Sora and Kairi took their first bites. My eyes burned as hot tears ran freely down my cheeks. I stuck out my tongue and caught a falling teardrop. It was salty like the harsh ocean breeze against my face. I knew this was going to happen, so why does it still hurt so much?
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My eyes are dry now but I continue to smile… for him – for them.
Please don't hate me! >
