"Raven!...Raven!...Where did she go?"
Robin had been searching for the girl all day. Ever since she brought Terra back, no one has really seen her. Even Beast Boy has taken notice that his usual target for tormenting has disappeared. "Beast Boy have you seen Raven yet?"
"No, why, is she still missing? I hope she's ok…"
"Beast Boy I'm sure the little demon is fine, don't worry." Terra said but you could hear the slight malice in her voice as she said it.
Suddenly they heard a high pitched scream. They all turned to see Starfire come flying in so fast they almost didn't notice her. "Friends, please come quickly, there is something you must see."
They all followed her to the roof and what they saw made their blood run cold. Raven was laying on the roof, blood dripping from her wrists and legs, her chest not rising as they realized she was dead. "Why would she do this?" Beast Boy asked as tears fell from his eyes.
"Friend Beast Boy, I think you should read this… but you must read it alone."
Starfire handed him a letter which was addressed to him and was written in Raven's handwriting. He walked off into his room, and tore open the envelope and began to read.
"Dearest Beast Boy,
I know by now you will have found my body and you will be wondering why I did this. There is one explanation for it and this is the only way I know how to say it:
I
wish I could say it, but I can't.
I wish I was able to say it, but
my mouth wont let me.
I wish I was warm in your arms, but I'm cold
and alone.
I wish I could hear your voice whisper in my ear, but I
only hear the
beating of my heart.
I wish I could say I love
you, but I'm afraid.
Afraid
of rejection, afraid of heartbreak, afraid of you.
It scares me
how I feel when I see you smile, it scares me when my heart
skips
a beat when I hear you laugh.
When you hug me I get butterflies in
my stomach and I get dizzy.
I long to tell you all of my feelings,
but I can't, for there is someone
else in your life.
She
likes your smile, your laugh, everything about you, but she will
never
love you the way I do.
When she told me, I was crushed,
because I know your feelings are all for
her.
I could never
turn my back on her, so I told her to go for you.
I know you will
never have the same feelings for me, as you do for her, but
that's
alright.
I
may have given up on you loving me, but I will never stop loving
you.
Not today, not tomorrow, but until the day I die.
You will
forever be a part of my mind, my heart and my soul.
You found a
way to penetrate my barrier and got under my skin, and now I
will
never ever let you go.
I want to tell you all of this but for the
sake of my heart, I cant.
If I do, I will hurt my friend, and I
couldn't deal with that.
I would rather hurt myself than hurt her
and you, because you mean more to
me than anything.
I just wish
I could tell you...
Love, Raven."
Beast Boy stared at the letter in shock and then started to cry even more "Oh Raven………. I'm so sorry….. I'm so sorry I didn't realize what I had in front of me this whole time. Now it's too late to tell you my feelings, but… I love you Raven, and I always will."
