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Authors note: Thanks for the reviews! Yay! I love you guys! I've been having a good day. My concert (falloutboy and all american rejects) is officially tomorrow (since it's 1 in the morning, haha, I'm a dork, so sue me). Anyways, I hope you enjoy this! x3
They walked into the apartment complex. "Thanks so much Troy." He smiled and kissed her forehead as they walked into the apartment. They got changed into their pajamas. Gabi sighed as she laid down on the bed and for the first time that week, laid away from Troy. Troy's face dropped as he awaited her to scoot closer to him. When he realized she wasn't going to he sighed, "What's wrong Gabs?" He said, sitting up. "Nothing." She said as she leaned up on her elbows. "Promise?" Gabi sat there for a moment thinking, and nodded her head yes. Troy shrugged his shoulders, "If you say so." and laid back down. Gabi cuddled up to him finally. He smiled as he quickly dozed off. While he was sleeping, Gabi was up thinking. I promised myself that I wouldn't get back into a relationship. I promised myself I wouldn't let myself get hurt. I don't want my heart broken before, but ofcourse theres nothing left to break. What am I saying? I don't want to get torn to pieces... again. I want to be free. I want... no need to get out of here.
She carefully got out of the bed. She rushed to her room to grab her bookbag. She tore a page out of her journal and her pen. She left a note and set it on Troy's bed where she was supposed to be laying. She sighed as she slowly exited the house and entered the dark night sky. She looked back and had a tear running down her face. She began to walk until she finally reached her apartment after 10 minutes. She entered the place for the first time in a week. There were 10 messages left, all from Alan. She froze, but then realized they were dated from a week ago. She threw her stuff down and laid on her bed, but this time alone. She stayed up all night. She had mixed feelings, she felt afraid, guilty, and bad. But she was free. There was noone that could break her heart.
That morning Troy woke up. He rolled over to find himself wrapping his arm around a pillow. He jumped as he opened his eyes. He grabbed the note.
Troy,
I'm sorry. I just can't be here anymore. I'm back home now. I'm just
not sure about things Troy. I'm sorry, I really am. Maybe someday
you will forgive me for leaving you... again. Maybe not.
-Gabriella
Troy felt a warm tear roll down his cheek and onto the paper. He walked into her room to find her journal laying on her bed. He sat down on her bed and grabbed the journal and flipped through pages.
I'm leaving. I don't know where I am going, but I have to get out
of here. Troy is a great guy, but I'm not ready for a relationship.
I just don't know how to tell him without seeming like a lame
highschooler. I love him, but I don't want to get my heart ripped
out of my chest again. I'm almost sorry for what I'm about to do.
-Gabriella
It was dated for the previous day. He sighed as he threw it down. He grabbed his cellphone and looked at the clock. He was already late for work. Great. He called Chad. "PICK UP!" Troy yelled, half of it was the beginning of their conversation. "What's wrong?" Chad said. Troy jumped, he was unaware that someone had picked up. "She left. She walked out." Troy cried as Chad was on the other line confused. "Nuhuh." Chad said, with sympathy in his voice. "Where does she live. I have to talk to her Chad. I have to." Chad gave him directions. "Thanks man." "No prob man. Good luck." He said as he hung up the phone. Troy ran out to his car and tried to remember the directions. He pulled into a rundown apartment building. He ran up to Gabriella's door and pounded on it. Noone answered. He opened the door, unlocked. This is how weird people get in, kids. He found Gabriella sitting at a table, with her head in her hands. "You really shouldn't leave your door open like that. And you really shouldn't walk out and walk home by yourself." Gabi didn't move. "Gabi. Please talk to me." She didn't move, still. "Well. You left this at my place." He said as tossed the pink journal on the table. Gabi looked up a little, her face was red and tears were streaming down. Troy pulled a chair up next to her. He wrapped her arms around her. "Gabi, I'm begging you. Just talk to me." She looked up at him. Troy looked around the apartment. "I'm not ready for a relationship Troy. I'm just not ready." Troy sat there, tears rolling down his face by now. "I understand." He said as he hugged her tighter. "That's the thing Troy. You don't know. You have no idea what it's like." He got up, "You're right Gabi. I don't." He began to walk out, "I understand you need time though Gabi." He paused as he turned around, "And I'll be waiting for you." He closed the door behind him. Gabriella got up and looked out the window through the blinds. Troy turned around several times to see if she was following him. Nope, no Gabriella. He got in his car and drove away.
Gabriella walked to her room, removing tears that ran down her eyes. She pulled a book off the bookshelf and sat down. She opened it and began to read.
I can't really explain what I'm feeling right now. But I met this
boy. He's amazing. I know I just met him, but he's really some
thing special. I didn't feel like a genius, or even smart.I just felt
like a girl. Nothing gold can stay, ofcourse. I'll probably never
see the kid. Times like this give me mixed feelings about life.
-Gabriella
She flipped a few pages.
Today was the most amazing day of my life. I realize I didn't
write for a few days, but who has time anymore? But it's 1 in
the morning, and I can't sleep. Anyways, Troy finally asked
me out. It's been amazing. And guess what? Today he kissed
me. It was our first kiss together, and my first kiss ever. I did
not tell him that though. It'd be too lame. Anyways, he took
me to a park and he started to sing to me, and we were dancing
and then we kissed. It was by far the best day yet. That's all.
good night, gabriella x3
She closed the book and sighed as she grabbed another book from her last year of college.
Sometimes I miss Troy. I wish I would have never left NM. I
wish I would have never gone off to Yale. I left behind every
thing I loved about life, and now I have nothing. Except for a
boyfriend, who I can't quite get over, even though everyone
and their mom's says I have to. They say he treats me like
crap, but I don't see what they mean. Sure we get in fights
alot, and they get pretty... rough, but I mean, what fights
don't? -Gabi
She flipped to the end of the book.
I have to get out of here. I need to go where I don't get treated
like crap, or I'm loved. And I know exactly where to go for that.
Aunt Nenny wants me to go get some anti-depressants when I
get out there. She offered for me to live with her. Hopefully
noone has changed. -Gabs
She looked down. The only person that ever loved her was Troy. And she just threw that all away. Twice. She grabbed her keys and changed into blue jeans, and ran to her car. She drove fast, in hopes that Troy was still at home. She banged on his door with her fists, with tears running down her face. He soon opened the door, his face red and sad. She jumped on him and wrapped her arms around him. "I'm sorry." She said as she held on tight to him. He sat there and hugged her. "I love you Troy." And that's all he had to hear. "I love you too Gabriella." She kissed him and then smiled at him. "Here." Troy said as he handed her a box of half full kleenexs that he was using earlier. She smiled, "Thanks." She looked at him, "Can we talk though?" He froze. That's what she said the first time she left him.
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