A/N Thanks for the reviews! oh and to person I shall not name, I did make up the IWCD so technically it is original...and thats not even the main focus of the story, so try to concentrate on the things that actually matter in the plot!
Disclaimer: not mine all JK Rowling's...except for the IWCD, and um plot...lol ok on to the story!
Chapter three; Confused, Confusion and Harry
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Hermione Granger's DiaryThursday 7-19-05 7:30am
Well Ron and my relationship has been going great over the past two days, we seem to snog on a daily basis...and sometimes nightly…lol but I can't seem to push that conversation I had with Bill out of my head. I mean it's not like he likes me, and I certainly don't like him, but then I have all these crazy feelings when he looks at me, and his laugh sends shivers up my spine. But I don't like him, I really don't. I mean it. Oh bugger, he's 25 years old, that's 8 years older then, me so that means there's no way he would ever like me, or me him. So there that kills my worries.
Oh I wish it did. I won't lie to myself I think a tiny part of me…likes Bill, I mean he is so cool with his pony tail, and cool clothes, and the fact that he's older, and so, so loveable amongst the tough guy exterior. Oh I hope this never falls into Ron's hands. I would die, and so would my heart. I love Ron I really do. And yet I can't stop this feeling…bugger on it all!
-Confused Hermione
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The Journal of Ginny Weasley
Thursday 7-19-05 10:30 am
Hohum, that's how I would describe my life right now…if it wasn't the crazy roller coaster it's become. One of my older brothers eloped, and the other is making eyes at my best friend…then the other is dating said best friend, and Harry and I are flirting more then ever on IW! I am ecstatic about tomorrow, and I'm pretty excited about meeting Charlie's wife! She'll be here around 11:00, which is in about 15 mins. Harry's coming tomorrow Harry's coming tomorrow! I shall do a little dance in his honor!
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Ginny hopped off her bed and started dancing around the room singing Just The Girl by The Click Five. When Charlie walked through the door. "Oh good you're alright…" He said grinning goofily "I thought someone was murdering you in here, from all the screaming" "Charlie get out!" Ginny yelled chucking her pillow at him; he laughed loudly shutting the door just in time, "ARRGGG!" Ginny screamed frustrated "there is no privacy around here!"
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Stupid brothers. I have way to many of them, I'm glad Fred and George aren't here yet, everything would be absolutely insane, compared to the mere crazy it is now. Sigh I really can't wait till term starts again, its my sixth year! Which is totally cool, cause I don't have to worry about OWL's or NEWT"s, although I can't wait to get my owl scores, so I know what classes I'll be taking this year…if I didn't wanna become an auror or a healer then I would totally drop potions. But since those are my choices at the moment its pretty important that I get into the NEWT potions class. Ooo I gotta go Katrina will be arriving soon.Random
phrase; A marshmallow ate his friend
Lenny
after dipping him in scalding hot chocolate.
-Ginny
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Ginny closed her journal and slipped it under her bed, where she sometimes kept it. And left her room - turning of the light and shutting her door - she went down stairs and into the kitchen and joined the rest of her family at the table. "She'll be here any second!" Charlie said happily, right after that there was a small 'pop' and then a knock on the door. Charlie jumped up throwing the door open, and embracing the woman in the doorway. They kissed passionately for a moment, and then Charlie pulled back and turned to face his family with a tremendous smile on his face. Wrapping his arm around her thin waist he said, "everyone I'd like you to meet my wife, Katrina!" She smiled shyly, "hello." Everyone stood up and crowded around her, offering congratulations, warm smiles and hellos.
Hermione looked on the scene holding back slightly and appraised the new member of the family, that she sometimes felt as her own. Katrina had long black hair that reached her small waist. She had a perfect coke bottle figure, without appearing to thin, she looked to be about 5' 6" and only reached Charlie's chin. But she stood tall, and confident, even if a little shyly. She had brilliant green eyes, not unlike Harry's…in fact she could be his older sister. Hermione gasped as this thought came to her. Her features were similar to those of Harry's and her eyes and hair were identical. It was probably just coincidence she was sure.
Hermione finally moved forward as the Weasley's calmed down, "Hi, I'm Hermione Granger…Ron's girlfriend" she added as Ron draped his arm around her shoulder, "Nice to meet you Hermione, I guess we should probably stick together, being the odd ones out." She said laughing, and giving Hermione a pretty smile, her white teeth gleaming in the light. Hermione smiled back and laughed nodding her head in agreement, "Although we will have one more tomorrow, Harry's coming!"
"Charlie told me about Harry he sounds really great!" Hermione liked Katrina already, she was sweet, and open, you would never guess that she was a dragon tamer, at first glance, but when you were up close, you could see her well-cut muscles that were strong, but soft in a way. Her Red tank top and black jean shorts, showed off her legs and arms in a pleasant non-slutty way.
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Ron kissed Hermione deeply as they sat outside by the lake, his hands pulling her into his lap. Hermione responded but not with the usual passion she usually held. She couldn't help but think of Bill, He had sat across from her at lunch and she felt his gaze on her when she talked to Ginny, Ron and Katrina. Ron had held her hand through most of lunch, and she sensed that Bill knew it, and was scrutinizing her and Ron. It was intimidating and thrilling. She couldn't help but think of his bright blue eyes, and the depth they held. And how every time she looked into them, he seemed to look into her head, heart and soul. Ron pulled away from Hermione a confused look on his freckly face, "what's wrong Hermione? You've been distant lately." "No…no nothings wrong I've just had a lot on mind lately is all." Hermione stood, and said 'she wasn't feeling up to a snog session', and asked if Ron 'would mind terribly if she just wrote in her diary for a little.' He smiled getting to his feet as well, "no that's ok Hermione, we can spend time together later." Hermione smiled gratefully; glad she had such an understanding boyfriend.
Hermione and Ron walked back up to the house, holding hands; Ron kissed Hermione before she climbed the stairs, and went into her room, she grabbed her diary and quill, leaving the room again she went further up the stairs before reaching the attic, where there was a window, with a ledge and a ladder. She climbed up it and onto the roof, to her sanctuary. Ginny had showed it to her in her 3rd year, and she came up there when she needed to think. Hermione sat down and leaned against the short wall running around the roof, where she could look down on the Weasley's yard. She saw Katrina and Charlie, sitting against a tree in a secluded section by the lake, Ginny and Ron were climbing onto their brooms, with a Quaffle going to practice for a bit.
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Hermione Granger's diary
Thursday 7-19-05 3:30pm
Well I'm on the roof of the burrow, there really is an excellent view from up here…well anyway I was sitting by the lake, snogging with Ron, but I didn't feel the same, it felt like it wasn't enough. I really doubt I've gotten over Ron that fast but what else could it mean? Is it possible that I never actually loved Ron, but more of loved him like a brother? And then there's Bill. He makes me feel like Ron never did, he makes me feel special, like a woman. Which is odd cause the only time he's touched me is the two odd times we bumped in the hallway or kicked each other under the table by accident. So really he has done absolutely nothing to make me feel this way, except look at me. In that calculating way that he does.
I feel like I'm cheating on Ron, even thinking about Bill, maybe I should break it off with Ron and just try being single again, even if it's only been 3 days since we started going out. I feel terrible. And so confused, but at the same time, I feel
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Hermione looked up from her journal startled by the sound of boots on the ladder. Bill's head appeared over the wall, and he climbed the rest of the way up, swinging his leg over and walking over to Hermione. "Hey, I didn't know you knew about this." Bill said, "yeah Ginny showed it to me 4 years ago. I think of it as my sanctuary among the madness of the Weasley household." She said smiling as Bill sat beside her leaning against the wall casually. "Hey! I take that as an insult!" Bill said pretending to be offended; Hermione pushed his shoulder gently, laughing. "You know what I mean!" "Yeah I do, I just like messing with you!" Bill said smiling at Hermione. They both fell silent after a moment, just sitting in companionable silence. Then Hermione spoke up, "Bill?"
"Yes?"
"Why have you been staring at me all the time? I mean, I've just noticed you look at me a lot…"
Bill sighed, "well I didn't think it would go unnoticed forever. Hermione, I know that I'm 25 and your 17, but I think…I think I fancy you."
Hermione looked taken aback at first, but her features softened and she said "well Bill, ever since our conversation the other day I find myself less willing to be with Ron. I instead find myself thinking about you, I've even written about you in my diary a few times. So I guess in a way I fancy you a bit to."
They both sighed simultaneously, "It really wouldn't work out between us would it?"
"No, even though I really like Ron, a part of me feels stronger for you, and wish's it could work."
"Well what do you say to just one kiss?" Bill asked hopefully
"On two conditions…Ron never finds out, and it doesn't happen again." She said smiling back.
Bill leaned forward and brushed his lips lightly against hers, and then applying more pressure has they became more passionate, soon they were completely lost in each other, as Bill pressed his body against hers. Hermione and Bill broke apart gasping, "Oh god, oh god, that got way out of control fast." Hermione said panicking slightly. Bill shushed her, and pulled her to her feet, "Hermione, its all right." Hermione took a deep breath, "Oh no it isn't, I just cheated on Ron! I am a horrible, horrible person."
Bill enveloped her in a comforting hug, "no you not, Hermione I'm sorry I asked you to kiss me, well no I'm not. But I'm sorry I kissed you when you're dating my younger brother. I promise you it won't happen again…unless things change." Hermione hugged Bill tightly and then pulled back, she straightened herself up and picked her diary off the ground where she had left it, and smiled at Bill, "I don't know what to say, but I really do know that I like you, and this has all meant a lot to me, even though nothing can come of it." Bill smiled sadly, as he watched Hermione descend the ladder and climb back in the window. He sat down heavily 'what have I done? Kissing her was so stupid! Now its just gonna make me want…well more, I've betrayed my little brother, and I've crossed a line from friendship, into no where, and strangely I have no desire to move back even if I could.'
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That night Hermione and Bill both lay awake in their beds, thoughts running through their minds;
'I can't stop thinking about him, and I know this is so wrong! But part of me wants this, and the other knows I can't have it. I keep thinking the same thing over and over, but as hard as I try to push these thoughts away, the faster they come back. AHHHHH' Hermione's brain was on over drive, the only time she thought this hard was before exams, and this sure felt like a test to her; a test of loyalty, love and passion. And she had a feeling; for once she wasn't going to pass.
'This feels so wrong yet so right! Hermione is so beautiful, smart, and perfect, and no matter what I do, I know deep down I love her. Which is just Ironic…me coming for Charlie, because he fell in love and made a mistake, and here I am falling in love myself. But how can anyone not fall for her, She has brains, she's pretty, and oh god that body! Her curves so ravishing, her skin so smooth, her perfect legs and- god I need a shower!' Bill got out of bed and practically ran into his bathroom. He couldn't let this happen, he couldn't do this to himself or Hermione. He turned the water on and undressed, stepping into the shower. A split second before he turned the water to cold, he changed his mind. And decided to go along with what his body wanted. Giving into his needs, which at the moment seemed greater, then his loyalties to Ron.
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Harry hit the snooze button on his alarm for the second time, and finally opened his eyes. He reached over to his nightstand for his glasses, his hand bumping into a picture, Harry pulled his glasses on, and peered down at the frame he almost knocked over; it was a picture of him, Ron and Hermione. The picture had been taken last year in Hogsmeade, Hermione was standing between him and Ron, and they all had their arms thrown over each others shoulders, practically falling over from laughter. Harry smiled, as he remembered that day, then suddenly something clicked! Today was Friday he was going to the burrow! And he set his alarm so he'd get up and have time to pack! Harry jumped out of bed and ran to his dresser, pulling on a pair of jean shorts, and a Linkin park t-shirt, one of his favorite muggle bands. Harry then proceeded down the stairs, and into the kitchen.
"Harry, your up early" His aunt said, peering at him suspiciously, "Yeah." Harry said bluntly, "I'm going to Ron's today." Aunt petunia's eyes opened wide, "They aren't coming here to get you are they? Are they?" Harry bit back a laugh, as his aunt practically burst into hysterical tears, "well I reckon Ron might, yeah." And he stuck two poptarts into the toaster. The toaster binged and his poptarts popped up. He pulled them out dropping them gently on a plate, and walking back up to his room. An owl was perched on his windowsill tapping on it impatiently, with its beak. Harry opened the window and as the owl flew in, it dropped a letter at his feet. He bent down and picked it up, and walked to his bed, crossing one leg in front of him as he sat, letting the other hang over the edge of his bed. He picked up one of the poptarts, taking a bite as he opened his letter, he immediately recognized Ron's untidy scrawl, as he began to read;
Harry,
I'm so excited! I can't wait for us all to be together again, Hermione and Ginny our behind me, they say hi. But anyway, dad said me and Hermione could apparate over to pick you up around noon if that's all right with you. Use Bill's owl to reply back, see you soon mate!
-Ron (and Hermione and Ginny)
Harry smiled and walked over to his desk, pulling a piece of parchment towards him, and picking up his quill. He wrote a quick reply saying that noon was good for him, and tied the note to the owl's leg, sending off back to the burrow. Harry finished his poptarts, and looking at the clock, saw that it was 9:30 already and began to gather up, all his schoolbooks and supplies. Actually packing them into his trunk for once. Around 11:00 he had all his clothes, and things packed, and was getting Hedwigs cage together. Harry then went back down stairs for lunch and awaited the arrival of his friends.
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"HERMIONE!" Ron called up the stairs, where he stood impatiently waiting for Hermione to come down, so they could go. "I'm coming!" Hermione called back down, and she rushed out of Ginny's room slipping a flip-flop on her foot. She ran down the stairs, coming to a halt right in front of Ron, "I'm ready!" She said smiling up at him, Ron laughed, and the stepped into the kitchen. Saying goodbye to their family and said they'd be back in a bit. Ron and Hermione stepped back from Mrs. Weasley's giant hug. They waved goodbye and apparated to Harry's.
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There were two simultaneous cracks, and two teenagers appeared in the Dursley's living room. A boy wearing a brown Relient K t-shirt and khaki cargo shorts, his bright red hair contrasting with the brown, he stood next to a curly haired girl, who was wearing black jean shorts and a black and pink striped tank top.
Harry stuck his head around the kitchen door, and grinned, "Ron! Hermione!" He said, and Hermione ran over to him throwing her arms around him, "Harry! I missed you!" Harry laughed and greeted Ron, and after a couple more hugs, the three went upstairs to collect Harry's trunk, Hermione picked up Hedwigs cage, and Harry gathered his IWCD and Journal up, stashing them in the over large back pockets of his jeans. And helped Ron carry his trunk down the stairs, and back into the living room.
"Well I won't be seeing you!" Harry said brightly, "Since this is my last year at Hogwarts I can move out…well I suppose I will be back to collect the rest of my belongings, but I'll choose a time when your out!" He said, and he, Ron and Hermione apparated back to the burrow.
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A/N well this chapter is shorter then the last two, but I thought this was a good place to end it.
