Chapter 7: Plans and Realisation
A few weeks past, with a strange but content friendship between Lily and James. It shocked there friends for many days to hear them calling each other by first names, and to see them actually getting on, which was strange and unheard of in itself. The same thing, unfortunately, could not be said for Sirius and Ellen.
Sirius, in the course of the past couple of weeks, had been to the hospital wing 26 times with a broken nose, 15 times with broken fingers, countless purple bruises on different parts of his skin, 6 deep cuts, 7 times where he was knocked out and taken there by someone else, a whopping 31 black eyes and 6 unfortunate cases of being kneed in a very sensitive area. (A/N: don't believe it? You haven't met my friend Ellen)
But what annoyed Ellen more, was the fact that he kept at it. Attempting to kiss her, proclaiming his love, grabbing her by the waist, attempting to get them detentions together, wrote more terrible love songs and many other things that didn't work. He even must have decided that he had no hope, so asked if they could be friends, adding to his total of broken noses. There seemed to be no hope for Sirius.
Meanwhile the idea for a Halloween Ball had been announced, and James and Lily had the responsibility of organising it. It was a good thing they were on talking basis, as they would not have got anything done if they were arguing. Still they organised the Ball's theme to be a dream come true, with everyone in ball room outfits. They also had to organise Hogsmeade weekends, and put up announcements as to when they were. This caused Sirius to ask Ellen out even more, which resulted in more trips to the Hospital Wing.
One night the Marauders were ignoring their homework, as per usual, and were sitting by the fire relaxing. Peter was off again with the fifth year Hufflepuff, who seemed the only one he could hang on to with his appearance, as she resembled somewhat a cow.
Remus and James were playing each other in wizard chess, as Remus had just beat Sirius, who before had beaten James. Sirius sat, looking extremely bored.
A girl walked up to him and sat in his lap.
'Hey Sirius.' She said with a flirtatious smile. Sirius looked down at her, trying to recall. Ah yes, Lysandra. Sixth year, known for liking a good shag, without the relationship. She was one of the Gryffindor hotties, with Long Blonde hair, blue eyes and nice figure (A/N: happy Lys?)
'Oh hey Lysandra.' Sirius said, slightly distractedly. Lysandra twirled her hair, looking at him lustfully.
'You seem a bit down,' She noticed. A slight smile crept up onto her face. 'What say we go find an empty classroom?' She whispered in his ear.
'Hmm I dunno,' Sirius said. 'I don't think I'm in the mood tonight, Lys.'
'I'm sure you would be if you were a bit, stimulated.' She said, moving her face closer to his. She proceeded in moving down to his neck and sucking on it, attempting to get him a little excited. When he didn't do anything she roam his body with her hands, slipping them up his shirt to feel his abs.
'Ahem.' Came a voice behind them.
Lysandra stopped and looked up, as Sirius turned around. Ellen, Lily, Anna and Alice were there. Ellen was standing there, hands on hips.
'Yes?' Lysandra asked in an annoyed voice.
'10 points from Gryffindor for public display of affection.' Ellen said in an annoyed tone.
'What? You can't do that!' Lysandra cried, outraged.
'Ah, yes I can! I am a prefect thankyou very much. And if you don't proceed to get off Mr. Black, I will take off a further 5!'
Lysandra glared at her, but got off Sirius grudgingly, and walked off to her friends.
'Phew,' Sirius said. 'Thankyou, Ellen.'
Ellen proceeded to glare at him.
'Yeah, whatever!' She said sarcastically as she stormed off up the stairs. Lily smiled at James before following her friend, with Anna and Alice close behind her.
Sirius sighed and put his head in his hands. James smiled sympathetically at his friend.
'You really like her, don't you?' James asked.
Sirius looked up at him and nodded.
'I don't want her just because I can't have her, or just for sex. I want her because I like her, I'm attracted to her. She just doesn't seem to understand that, no matter how hard I try to put it.'
James nodded distantly, it sounded like his attraction to Lily.
Up in the dorm, Ellen was proceeding to clean up her trunk, which was resulting in her throwing many things around the room, including some things that were breakable.
Her friends were watching her with slight amusement, while also moving when an object came their way.
'Your jealous, aren't you?' Lily asked boldly.
Ellen stopped throwing things and turned around, glaring white hot knives at Lily.
'Right,' Lily said, seeing what the answer was. 'I'll take that as a yes.'
A large overstuffed pillow flew and hit Lily on the head.
'I. Am. Not. JEALOUS!' Ellen yelled.
'Alright, alright we believe you!' Lily said, as Ellen had just picked up a heavy looking book and seemed to be aiming it in their general direction. She motioned to her friends that they should move into the bathroom, where it was safer.
Once they were in there, Lily closed the door, so Ellen wouldn't be able to hear.
'She likes him.' Anna stated.
'You got that right!' said Alice.
'We need to get her to admit it though, and I have an idea how,' Lily said, smirk on her face. 'Do we still have that stored up Firewhiskey?'
'Yeah it's under my bed, why?' Alice asked.
'Cause I think we should play a little truth or dare tomorrow night, after she's a little tipsy, which doesn't take long, at the rate she drinks!'
'But how do you know she'll admit it if she's drunk? She'll probably go and snog him and not remember anything in the morning!' Anna exclaimed.
'Not if we add a little something to hers.' Lily said, grinning evilly.
'Veritaserum!' Anna and Alice gasped.
Lily nodded.
'I like your thinking!' Anna added. 'This is perfect!'
'Only one problem,' Alice said. 'How do we get some?'
'Easy!' Lily said. 'I am friends with a marauder after all!'
'Ah so you are! Well go ask him then!' Anna cried.
'Alright.' Lily said, walking out the door to go down to ask James.
Anna and Alice were left for a moment, and it was then Alice came up with an idea.
'You know, we could benefit even more from this.' She mused.
Anna looked at her.
'How?' She asked.
'Well, its true we want to find out if Ellen likes Sirius, but don't we also want to find out if Lily likes a certain someone?' Alice asked, a grin forming on her face.
'James!' Anna gasped. 'That's a great idea!'
'And the best thing is, Lily won't have a clue!' Alice cried.
'The perfect plan. Two things we've always wanted to know, in one night!' Anna exclaimed, grin also on her face.
'Well it could be three, if there's something you want to tell us?' Alice said, eyebrow raised.
'No! Nothing I want to say!' Anna said slightly too quickly. Alice looked at her for a moment, noted a blush, but then decided that Lily and Ellen would be good enough for now. Besides, they wouldn't need truth serum to find out the truth from Anna. She was easy to interrogate.
'Alright then. Well just the two of them then!' Alice said.
Meanwhile, downstairs, Lily was completely unaware that her friends were plotting against her, and was asking James to help her.
'Hey James, could you do something for me?' She asked.
'Sure, Lily, what do you need?' He asked, examining his chest pieces.
'Well we need some truth serum, for tomorrow night.' She said.
James looked up at her with a surprised look on his face.
'And why would you need that?' James asked curiously.
'For something that your not allowed to know about.' She said innocently.
'Well I won't get it unless you tell me who its for.'
'Alright,' Lily said. 'Ellen.'
James looked at her, as if waiting for more explanation, but found that she wasn't going to say anything.
'Ok, I won't ask,' James said. 'Well it would be best to go now, why don't you come with me?'
Lily smiled.
'Alright, why not?'
Soon after they left the common room, cramped up under James' invisibility Cloak. It was a pretty tight squeeze, so they had to walk very close together. It wasn't a long walk to the potions room, but while they were walking, Lily was thinking.
She was finding, though she didn't want to admit it, that she was becoming attracted to James. Ever since he had become slightly less cocky and arrogant, she had felt herself starting to like him more as a friend. It made her feel slightly giddy being so close to him, in all his hotness. Though then she checked herself. She didn't want to turn out to be like one of those giggling girls who followed him everywhere.
Suddenly James stopped and Lily proceeded to almost bash into him.
'Were here.' He whispered behind him. Opening the door to the potions storage room, he ushered her in, and closed the door behind them, taking the invisibility cloak off.
The room was fairly small, most of its space covered with shelves of ingredients and ready made potions. James proceeded to walk to the other side of the room, looking at the alphabetic letters until he found 'V'.
Lily watched him as he bent down to look at the bottles, his muscles bulging.
Yum, She thought wait what am I saying?
I thought we had been through this already! You like him, remember!
Not you again! I thought I got rid of you when I admitted I might fancy him!
Oh no you can't get rid of me! I'm always here darling!
'Lily? Are you alright?' James asked. 'You seem a little dazed.'
Lily smiled.
'Yeah I'm ok.'
'Well I have it here.' James said showing her a dark colored bottle.
'Great!' Lily said. 'Well we should probably go now, before we get caught.'
So they left the potions storage room in silence.
They hadn't walked far before they heard a sound they didn't want to hear. A cat. Mrs. Norris to be specific.
'Oh shit! James whispered furiously. 'Quick! Run!'
They set off at a fast pace, as fast as they could go with the invisibility cloak on, until they heard a voice.
'What is it, Norris?' came Filches voice, not far from them.
James grabbed her and pulled her back against the wall. She felt butterflies at his strong arms around her waist, but tried to forget about them. It was stupid, as he didn't mean anything by it.
Filch walked straight past them, not even glancing at them, even though he past not 20cm away.
After 10 minutes they decided it was safe, and James then realised where his hands were, taking them off immediately.
'Sorry.' He said as they started to move again.
'It's alright,' she said, smiling slightly.
They got back to the common room soon after, and James handed over the Veritaserum.
'Thanks James, you're a great friend.' Lily said.
'No problem.' He said simply.
'Goodnight then.' Lily said, walking up her staircase.
'Goodnight.'
James flopped onto one of the couches, which were now empty since everyone was in bed. He sighed deeply.
He still loved Lily, with all his heart. He wanted to see how friendship went, and was glad to be closer to Lily, but still knew friendship wasn't enough for what he felt for her. But inside, he knew that he had ruined his chances. Lily only saw him as a friend now, and that wouldn't change. He was happy that Lily and he had something to share, but it wasn't what his aching heart needed.
And
I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me
somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I
don't want to go home right now
Part of him wanted to attempt asking her out again, but he knew that it would ruin the friendship they had, and they would be back to normal.
And
all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you
tonight
He placed his head in his hands in defeat.
And
I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd
understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want
you to know who I am
In the girl's dorm, Lily was lying in her bed, unable to sleep. All she could do was think about James, and the predicament she had got herself into. She knew she liked him, as more than a friend. She had given in to the constant nagging of the voice in her head, and realised that it was right. She was falling head over heels for him. But still she told lies to him, because she was afraid of what might happen if she told him the truth. She felt like crying, but the tears wouldn't come out.
And
you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of
truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah
you bleed just to know your alive
She knew that if she was to tell him she liked him, it could easily wreck there friendship. She didn't want that to happen. Not only this, but she knew that her chance was over. After so many years of rejecting him, he wouldn't accept her! She had spent so long saying no, that now when she finally realised the truth, the chance was gone. It was just like Ellen had said. She had never felt so lost in her life.
Finally, the tears came.
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause
I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be
broken
I just want you to know who I am
A/N: well I hope you all liked the chapter…the song at the end is Iris by Goo Goo Dolls…its my favourite song at the moment and I was listening to it and I was like 'wow that goes so well with Lily and James' situation' u will find I am a little obsessed with hidden meanings to songs…and applying them to situations…but o well! Hope you all liked it! Please review!
