I Lie Inside Myself for Hours
A/N: Please don't kill me…I bring you another chapter as a peace offering…
Pan's eyes fluttered open to stare at a white ceiling.
"Where am I?" she muttered, a bit disoriented again.
The black haired girl glanced to the left side of the room. Where she was began to sink in. Then, the previous events of the day came flooding back.
"He looked so confused," she sighed. "I shouldn't have said anything."
"Why?"
"Ahh!" Pan shrieked, falling off the bed.
Trunks got up out of his chair and walked toward her.
"What are you doing in here! I was thinking!"
"I heard that, and I'm sorry for interrupting your reverie, but why?" he questioned, his features held no expression.
"Why what?" she growled, getting up.
"Why do you think you shouldn't have said anything?"
She stood up straight to face him.
"You know exactly what I me—" Pan's glare hardened when she noticed how close he was. "Trunks, what are you—"
He leaned down to capture her lips with his. Pan's eyes shot open when the contact was made. Her eyes began to close as his lips lingered on hers. She wrapped her arms around him, pulled him closer, and deepened the kiss. The back of her legs hit the bed making her fall back onto it taking Trunks down with her. She opened her mouth a bit to lick her lips. Trunks parted his lips to allow entrance, which made the kiss even deeper.
"Trunks," she whispered. Her eyes widened at the realization of what was happening.
She pushed up against him breaking the kiss.
"Trunks," she sobbed. "Why are you doing this?"
Pan writhed out from underneath him and ran out of the room. She stumbled down the hallway to a guest room. Trunks blinked confused watching her run out leaving him behind.
"Pan-chan," he whispered. "I'm sorry, Pan…"
Pan was in another room face down on the bed. A few hours had past since the incident. She laid there staring at the wall. Despite her emotionless features, her insides were raging harshly. The raven-haired girl breathed in deeply and sat up.
"I have to leave…" she said to herself.
As she decided, she heard a knock on the door. Bulma poked her head in.
"Pan, it's dinnertime," she said, softly.
"I'm not hungry…"
"Pan, you've been up here for hours. You have to come out, and you have to eat," Bulma replied.
The teenager sighed and walked over to the door. She did want to see everyone one last time before she left. Pan let Bulma lead her down the hallway. They walked into the dining room where everyone was sitting. As they entered, the people at the table looked up and stared. Bulma left Pan's side to take her seat. Pan looked around and noticed that the only seat left was beside Trunks. She forced a smile and went to claim her chair.
"Shit…" she hissed to herself in between her teeth.
She sat down quietly and stayed silent.
"Pan, are you okay?" Gohan asked.
Pan nodded.
"Honey…" Videl added.
"I'm fine, Mama."
Gohan and Videl looked at each other and decided not to question her anymore. Everyone went back to eating and their discussions. Trunks glanced down at Pan. She was picking at her food and eating it in little bites. Pan seemed lost in her own world. Trunks placed his hand on her arm and gave a slight squeeze. Pan jumped and dropped her fork on her plate making a loud clatter. Pan blushed mostly because of the touch but also because of everyone turning to look at her.
"Sorry," she said, softly. "I lost my grip."
The majority of the people went back to eating dinner. However, Trunks had his attention on Pan.
"Pan-chan? Are you alright?"
The black-haired girl looked up at him under her eyelashes.
"I'm fine."
"Pan…I…"
"Trunks, it's okay. Let's just finish our dinner."
In actuality, Pan wanted to confess her love for him, but life is not usually like a fairy tale. As dinner came to an end, Pan looked around at everyone's faces trying to memorize them as they were that evening.
"Good night, everyone. I think I'm going to call it a night," Pan spoke up. "I'll see you guys in the morning."
The last line made her heart break. When they woke up, they would be missing something.
"Good night," they all replied.
Trunks stared at her retreating figure still confused about the earlier events.
Trunks retired to his room soon after Pan did. A few minutes later, Lani walked into his room and sat on the bed.
"Hey," he said.
Lani smiled at him.
"I'm going to go get ready for bed," she said.
She went into the bathroom, and a few minutes later, she walked out in pajamas. Trunks stripped until he was just in his boxers and his undershirt. They both laid down on the bed. Trunks wrapped his arms around her.
"Trunks, I'm sorry…about making a scene earlier. I just…"
"I know, Lani. You might want to apologize to Pan tomorrow though. If not for anything else, do it for me. She's my friend."
Lani nodded silently. A few moments of silence passed until she started talking again.
"I'm so excited," Lani said, looking down at the ring on her finger.
"So am I," Trunks responded, quietly. "So am I."
However, his thoughts drifted to a young, black-haired girl that he knew he hurt.
Meanwhile, in her room, Pan was writing her goodbye letters. She didn't like how it turned out like this, but she couldn't stay and watch the love of her life get married to someone else.
"It's better this way," Pan thought. "Trunks will be able to marry the one he loves, and I wouldn't have to suffer seeing them together."
Pan hated that she had to do this. However, it was the only way. She knew that Apocalypse might show up again, and she'd be there to fight along side the others. But…she could not stay.
Word after word of what she felt spilled out onto the papers. This was the end of everything she knew. Pan was no longer the same girl. The tears fell leaving small blotches on the pages as she continued writing each personal letter.
Thank you—
LauraNeatO - It was my hormones making Lani bitchy. I swear. But, now that I gave birth to Layla, it's all good. XD!
Zhealy – This story has three parts to it. This part has one more chapter to go, but the other two parts will unravel many other things.
little ookami – well, it's nice to know you weren't expecting anything in the last chapter. I hope it entertained you though.
BballAnimeLover89 – Hahaha! That was a nice review.
CrAzY-Fan-Fic-Addict
beautiful crimson – uhh…drops of this chapter and runs
kasusandera-jie – glad you liked it
Chibi-Maggie – I enjoy the feedback I get on Lani as well. And this chapter is sure to make people pissed off at me. hides oh yeah, and it's going on 8 months…grins
random reader – Trunks can do that because….well…because he's Trunks. XD
Wraith Ghost – you'll see…
Juunanagou4ever – I love you…runs to avoid being choked to death by one of her favorite authors …but seriously…you need to finish Guiding Light (hooray Watership Down!) and I'll Never Forget. Look…I'm updating for you. It took quite a while, but I did! huggles runs and hides again to avoid the chokehold of death
Dark Witch Pan – Trunks is being stupid at the moment…
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