JPOV
"Shhh." Bella smiled at me and shook her head which always looked like she was always disappointed in me, but I knew she wasn't. I laughed quietly at her reaction then kissed her. "Take your clothes off." I said. I was surprised by how willingly she did what I asked, well kind of demanded. She knew she had a choice, I hope. Fuck. "Bells, you don't HAVE to…"
"Shhh." She mimicked, her finger to her lips and an adorable wink. When she was down to her underwear, which was a super fucking sexy white lace set, she started tugging on my clothes, first the hem of my shirt which I gladly pulled over my head. She was way too short to even try. I had at over a foot on her. Then she undid my shorts and slipped them down. I stepped one foot out before using the other to toss them into a pile with my shirt. Her eyes glanced at my boxers then she bit her lip nervously.
Then she smiled and undid her bra in literally half a second, when it took me like 5 hours, a bottle opener, and a wrench set. I took it as a sign that she was comfortable and dropped my boxers to the floor. Her fingertips slipped inside her panties, toying with the edge while looking at my body. It took everything in me not to take them off of her myself but I stayed patient. My patience was rewarded when I once again got to view her magnificent body without any annoying fabric in the way. She sauntered over to the bed then laid down, smiling at me shyly while she gestured to the space beside her. Well, didn't have to ask me twice.
I hopped next to her on the bed, quietly to not wake anyone up then kissed the shoulder nearest to me. "You alright? You look unsure about something."
"I am sure, I just um," she cleared her throat and gave a little nervous laugh. "I want to um, well, I'd like to…" what could she possibly want that would make her nervous? She took a deep breath. "Make love to me?"
One split second. That's all it took for my stomach to be in my throat. "What? Are you… sure? You really want… um…"
"Please?" Oh fuck, she was begging. I needed to pace myself. If I listened to her without giving myself a moment, I wouldn't last 5 minutes. I took a few deep breaths, I can do this. I decided to listen to the advice of my brother's, don't just go right to the sex, it doesn't work that way. Guys can think about sex and get hard but a girl needs a bit more time to prepare. My hand went to that sweet spot between her legs that made her purr louder than any car's engine and after only a couple of minutes, she was definitely ready. I gave myself a couple quick pumps then positioned my hips between her legs. "Shit! I don't have any condoms. Give me five minutes. I just need five minutes."
"Jake, it's ok. I'm on birth control and since neither of us have um… been with anyone else. I think we're good without the barrier between us."
I swallowed, hard. I'd never been so nervous about anything in my life. We were really doing this. I nodded my head and inched closer, lining myself up with her. When I started to ease in, I heard Bella quietly take a sharp breath in, her nails dug into my arms.
"Bells, are you okay?" It took her a moment to respond but when she did, she nodded. I gave her another moment before trying again, but got the same response. Now I knew that was normal but I hated it. The wolf in me hated it even more. I didn't want there to be ANY pain our first time but that wasn't realistic.
I decided something needed to change. I flipped myself off of her and laid down on the bed, my upper body lazily laying against the wall that was the head of my bed, while the lower half was laying flat on the bed. "Come here." I said, helping her up to sit on my legs.
"You need to do this. You need to control the speed. I can't… hurting you is killing me. This imprint bond can sometimes be a bit over the top." She nodded but still didn't say anything as she positioned herself above me, reaching down to make sure everything was lined up and I have to say that it was the sexiest thing.
She lowered herself down onto me, going excruciatingly slow. Her hands held onto my shoulders to steady herself. After a few moments and Bella wincing a couple of times, the noises she was making turned into the sound of pleasure. I still didn't move, afraid I'd hurt her as she lowered herself more onto me, a low moan escaped her lips. It took everything in my not to thrust up when I heard her. "Bella, baby, I…"
"sh-hhh-shh." She attempted to shush me but my hand found that spot again, hoping the added pleasure would help minimize any more pain as she adjusted to my size. Every bit further she went was driving me crazy. She was so very close and I couldn't take it anymore. Another minute went by and right as she reached her peak, she lowered herself the rest of the way. I kissed her, silencing her moans but didn't stop touching her. Her body shook as she came undone. "J-ake. Please. I-I can't…"
Can't what? Her hips ground into me but her knees were shaking when she tried to do more than that. Oh. I flipped us over, carefully, holding Bella tight to me to not cause her any pain now that she was finally feeling some pleasure.
I thrust in and out, the feeling was beyond anything I could have imagined. My own hand, and even hers did not compare to the pleasure and warmth this particular part of her body provided mine.
Things didn't last long, I may have the endurance of a wolf but I was still a beginner and they way she felt quickly brought me over the edge. I laid there for a moment as Bella tried to catch her breath before finally moving away.
"Wow." Bella said, almost too quiet for even me to hear.
"Wow." I repeated.
"I don't even want to move. It's so… perfect here."
Memories of my packmates unwillingly flashed through my brain before I looked over at the happiness on Bella's face. "You should go pee, and clean up. Just uh, toss on an old shirt to cover yourself. I can hear both our dads still sleeping."
"Can't I just stay here?"
"Uh, that probably wouldn't be a good idea. The first time can be pretty messy."
Bella looked down and noticed a small drying red spot on the sheet. Her eyes went wide as she took deep breaths through her mouth.
"Oh yeah, you don't do good with blood. How you ever ran with vampires makes no sense to me. Get up, go get a shower and I'll take care of the sheets."
"Well you can't RUN with vampires. Oh, Hydrogen Peroxide." She said, then slipped on one of my baggy shirts and left the room.
"Huh?" I took the sheet off the bed and replaced it, piling the dirty one on top of my dirty clothes hamper. I made my bed and sat down to read a comic while waiting for Bella to come back.
"Hey." Bella whispered, slipping quietly into the bed. "That's doesn't seem like a comfy way to sleep."
"I… fell asleep?"
"Mhmm." She nodded, her face lit up with happiness. I slid down the bed, the comic falling to the floor and pulled her into my arms, kissing the top of her head. She must have brought her own shampoo because she smelled perfect as ever and nothing like my AXE 3 in 1 hair and body wash.
"Bells?"
"Mmm?"
"You're happy that we had sex, right? Like, I don't need to worry you're going to regret it?"
"Why would I regret it?" She said, yawning into my chest.
"I dunno, just sometimes people do things and then later regret it. I just wanted to make sure." I played with her hair, which was slightly wet still.
"Jake, if I wasn't so exhausted, I'd probably be bugging you for some more. I don't regret it. Do you?"
"No. I couldn't be happier. Get some sleep."
