/TRIGGER-WARNING/

Everything in this chapter is technical consentual however it may upset some individuals. Proceed with caution. I will add a summary at the beginning of next chapter in case anyone would rather skip this.

P.S. To those who seem a bit angry at the direction this has taken, just bare with me. I love this couple almost as much as I love my own husband and I am not a psychopath who likes to watch the world burn.

BPOV

"Hello?" I heard on the other side of the phone.

"I think I made a huge mistake. Are you free?"

Leah said to meet at Sam's. She spent her weekends there and Sam asked her to move in but she was putting it off until after graduation.

"Tell me what happened?" Leah said, the second she opened the door.

"I'm an idiot. Last weekend after we left here, Jake and I, well, we uh…"

"Oh no, Bella please tell me you didn't. Neither of you are mentally ready for something like that yet."

"I know. I was just feeling so down and it felt so good when he kissed me." I put my head in my hands, I knew I screwed up, even before today.

"Wait, he pursued you? I can't even see that. The way his mind was after I showed him his memories of you guys, there was no way he wanted a physical relationship with you."

"You are correct. Apparently he wants a physical relationship with everyone."

"What does that mean?"

My voice didn't want to say the words but I knew I had to. I needed a friend. "I just caught him making out with some random girl out by the store. When I confronted him, he said I wasn't his girlfriend."

"God damnit girl, I am so sorry and I will kick his ass myself." Leah said, and I could hear the anger in her voice.

"That's probably a horrible idea. Given his uncaring attitude, he'd probably fight back with purpose. Why is it that there's always something? Nothing is ever easy. We finally have Victoria off our backs and now this? I just can't do this anymore. I need a break from the bad."

Leah pulled me into a hug and I took that moment to finally release my emotions. I cried into her shirt, wishing I could go back and do something different.

/Sunday/

"Happy Birthday!" We all yelled, knowing the party wasn't a surprise. Quil's birthday wasn't for another two days but celebrating on the weekend was just easier. With Jake being away from the pack for the most part, there was no way to keep the party a secret.

I was actually surprised Jake even decided to show. I hadn't seen him since he took off outside the store the day before. He hadn't apologized and I wasn't expecting him to but whatever was going on, he was keeping to himself.

"Damnit, I was really hoping you might pull my imprint out of a cake too." Quil joked but I knew deep down he wished he could find his soulmate as well, not that having your soulmate was always the best.

"I love you too, Quil."

/JPOV/

My wolf growled in my ear as she said she loved Quil. My wolf wouldn't shut up. After we had sex, it was quiet, peaceful. Then when Bella left the wolf started getting antsy, like having her gone was some horrible thing.

I was hoping that my time with Chelsea would have shut it up, proven that there are other ways to get off, but the wolf just got angry with me, especially after I yelled at Bella. I felt like I was going insane, and the louder it got, the harder it was to think clearly. I knew Bella was technically my girlfriend, but my brain wasn't functioning, and I flipped out, then took off.

That just made me more adamant though. No supernatural thing was going to force me into something with basically a complete stranger. If I was going to be with a complete stranger, it would be on MY terms. Which led me to Chelsea

I found Chelsea afterwards and explained that Bella was just a crazy ex-girlfriend that wouldn't let things go, and when she was done her shift, I went back to her place. She was a few years older than me, but she didn't seem bothered. It wasn't like I was some child. I was the leader of a werewolf pack and the next chief of the tribe. I mean, just look at me. I definitely did not have the body of a 16 year old.

So when we got back to her place, things took off pretty fast and as expected the wolf in me wouldn't shut up. The closer I got to having sex, the louder he became until it was all that I could hear and again I felt like I was going crazy and Chelsea looked like she thought the same. I took off, and the wolf quieted.

Now it was in my ear again, trying to convince me to be with her. Fuck I was horny and Bella seemed to be the only thing that would quiet the wolf.

/BPOV/

Quil finished opening his gifts and seemed pleasantly surprised when he opened mine. I bought him two tickets to his favorite band that was playing next weekend. He was ecstatic. He kept telling me about the concert and how he didn't have the money for tickets for the past few weeks, so before they sold out, I made sure to grab a couple.

"I can't believe you did this for me! Thank you."

"What are friends for? Who are you going to take?"

"Well," He glanced toward Jake who was staring at me before responding. "Jake loved them too, Embry likes them but not as much but yeah so uh, Embry. Up for a night on the town?"

"Hell yeah!"

Everyone was hanging out and listening to music outside Sam's. It was the most normal that life had been in weeks.

Jake grabbed me by my wrist and pulled me toward the woods. Leah gave me a weird look and I just shrugged.

When we were out of eyesight and earshot of the pack, Jake pushed me up against a tree out of nowhere, picking me up by my butt and his lips crashed into mine.

I couldn't have said no if I wanted to but to be honest, I felt drawn to him, even this version of him. Once his lips touched mine it was game over. Any hesitation I might have felt just dripped away. This was where I belonged.

Jake's forehead rested against mine as he finished inside me with a loud groan. I could see a peaceful smile on his face and everything that was happening between us seemed to disappear in that moment.

"I…" Don't Bella. Shut up and don't ruin it. "I gotta go." I tried to get out of his grip but he growled and held on tighter.

"No. The wolf doesn't like that idea… and he's finally quiet. I just need a little bit longer with silence."

What the hell was he going on about? The wolf? It spoke to him? I never heard any other pack member say that they heard their wolf talking to them.

"Wait… Did you have sex with me just to shut your wolf up?"

"You're the only one he wants. Practically made me admit myself to a mental institution when I tried to fuck Chelsea."

"W-What?" my voice cracked as I asked what he meant, knowing I didn't want to hear it.

"The girl, from the store. I went over afterwards and he got so loud in my head when we got close that I couldn't think straight."

Who the hell was this? Why did he think telling me this was okay?

"I really need to go."

"No!" He screamed, making me jump. Then his voice was lower. "No. You can't. This extra voice in my head makes me feel crazy and my thoughts are all over the place. I just need some silence so I can actually think clearly."

"Jake, you're scaring me."

"I'm sorry, I can't take all this noise anymore and when you threaten to leave, he gets angry. I can't even hear my own thoughts through the sound of his voice."

"Okay. I won't leave. Maybe… could we go back to the garage?"

We left the party, so I sent a message to Quil, hoping he was having a good time and explaining that I needed some time with Jake.

I sat with Jake in the garage as he finished the last few things with the rabbit. Soon it would be ready to sell.

"So… going to elaborate on your wolf talking to you?"

"It started pretty much right after I woke up. Little things would get to me and the wolf would growl, and make me agitated but then it started to talk. When I upset you after you brought me dinner. I told you I needed to be alone, and he got angry with me. Then when you left that night.

"He talks to me, like right now." He walked to me, placing his grease covered hands on my upper arms. "He's telling me to fuck you and I really want to. You just… you smell so damn delicious."

I couldn't help the small moan that escaped my lips as he said those words. Jake's words. I didn't know if he meant it or if he was just accessing the memories Leah showed him so he could get under my skin but whatever it was, it was working.

One of his hands moved to my neck and I noticed the car's grease on his hands leaving marks along my skin. His thumb lightly pressed just above my collar bone in a way that Jake would always do.

"W-what else is he saying? I asked, biting my lip.

Jake gave a lopsided smirk that just oozed with confidence. Then he showed me all that the wolf wanted.

It was getting late and I didn't want to worry my dad so I told Jake I needed to go.

"I told you, you can't leave." Jake said, still working on the car.

His words scared me, like I was a prisoner to him. I picked up my stuff and walked quickly to the door. He was faster. He stood in front of me.

"No!" He screamed.

I backed away from him, tripping on something. If it wasn't for his reflexes and inhuman speed. I would have fallen backwards and cracked my head on the concrete floor. He was there though, and caught me but instead of setting me on my feet. He lowered me further, placing me on the floor. He climbed on top of me, his legs on either side of my hips and his lips crashed into mine.

My body reacted instantly, and I knew he could smell my arousal. My brain however yelled at me to run. I knew it was wrong, but I just couldn't say no. His lips were aggressive against mine and when his mouth reached my neck, I knew I'd end up with a hickey. He lifted my dress, and ripped my leggings and panties in one move, exposing my butt to the cold concrete floor before sliding easily inside me.

"Fuck, Bells. You feel so perfect."

I part of me knew that I was in danger as long as I stayed in this garage but another part of me knew that this Jake needed me. He was losing his grip on reality and I was his sanctuary.

Jake thrusted into me, his movements speeding up as he slammed harder into me. My body couldn't take anymore and I came hard, screaming his name. He moved to his knees, pulling my lower half up with him so my feet rested on the floor as he thrusted deeply into me. His thumb found that little bundle of nerves and circled it, prolonging my orgasms until I couldn't take anymore. But he continued, relentless as my body shook against his.

"That's it baby. Fuck you're beautiful."

I whimpered as his other hand found that spot on my neck again, his fingers curled over my shoulder keeping me still as his thumb pressed into my throat in a way that turned my body into mush. It didn't hurt, well sort of, but in a good way and seemed to heighten my senses as my body hit wave after wave of pleasure until I exploded into the most amazing, heart stopping orgasm ever. My body was so overwhelmed and overworked that I couldn't even manage to talk if I wanted to.

Jake finished inside of me and stayed there for a moment before shifting to lay beside me.

"That was… holy shit." He said, and I forgot for a moment he wasn't the Jake I know.

I still wasn't able to talk but I don't think words would have mattered in that moment.

What the hell do I do?

When I was all cleaned up and Jake was back to working on the car, I sent Leah a message, knowing there was no way I was getting out of here on my own. I know Jake needed me, and I wanted to help, but I felt like my help was only a band aid. When he wasn't looking for my attention it was easy to make logical thoughts and the more I sat there, the scarier the situation seemed.

/Help/ Send

I watched as Jake continued putting parts in their appropriate places and looked down to see the light on my phone flashing.

I checked my phone which I realised was on silent. Four new messages.

They were from Leah.

/What's going on?/

/Bella, is everything okay?/

/Has he hurt you?/

/Me and Sam are coming over/

Right when I read that, Leah and Sam walked in.

"Hey. Care for some company?" Sam said.

"Nah. We're good." Jake replied.

I sat there, my arms wrapped around myself. If I could see myself, I'd probably say I looked similar to those months without Edward.

Sam looked at me and knew instantly that something was wrong. He was after all the man who saved me from myself in the woods.

"Bella? Do you want some company?" He asked.

I started to nod slowly when Jake jumped up from his milk crate seat.

"I said, we're good." He spoke louder than necessary and I jumped, a small whimper escaping my lips. I closed my eyes, hoping none of the wolves in the room could hear me. I was being ridiculous, because when I opened my eyes Leah was staring at me, concern written all over her face, while Sam and Jake glared at each other.

"She asked to come back here. We don't need you coming in here, butting your faces in where they don't belong."

"What is wrong with you?" Sam snapped.

"This fucking wolf is what's wrong with me."

Leah inched closer to me and Jake let out a menacing growl, the edges of his body blurring as he held off phasing.

"Stop!' I said to Leah, hoping she'd listen. She did.

"Are you still hearing your wolf?" Sam asked. Did he know what was going on with Jake?

"He won't shut up unless she's near. I don't know what else to do. I'm going crazy."

"It's okay man, we'll figure out what to do." Sam said, holding his hand up in front of him. "But you're scaring Bella. I'm fairly certain that the wolf cares for her. You need to calm down before she ends up getting hurt, because then you will never hear the end of it from him."

"I know. Damnit, I know. I just can't think straight when he won't shut up."

"I get it, but let's find another approach. Let's go outside and phase. Let me hear what's going on in there."

"I'm right here, Jake. I'm not going anywhere." I encouraged him.

"I need to be able to see you. Come outside with us." He demanded and I agreed.

I couldn't figure out anything that was going on between the two men as they sat there, full wolf in the middle of the yard.

Jake and Sam both kept looking at me and I just wished I knew what they were saying to each other. I was also hoping that Jake wasn't sharing what we'd just done together for Sam to see.

"Are you okay?" Leah asked and I could hear a low growl come from Jake but I answered anyways.

"No. Not at all. He brought me to the woods. I never told him no. I did want it, but I'm also definitely not in the right state of mind to be agreeing to sex with this Jake. When we were done… he told me he hears his wolf talking to him. He said he felt like he was going insane." I left out the part about that Chelsea girl, she didn't need to know about that anymore. We had bigger issues to worry about.

"I'm also really worried about him. About what might happen if he gets his memory back. The Jake I know wouldn't want to remember the things that's been happening. Not this Jake and what he's done, or the way he scares me. And not that I gave in to him so easily either. I know a part of that has to be the imprint pull but I also know a bigger part is just me. Me and my hope that he's in there and then I just get proven wrong over and over again."

"Hope isn't a bad thing, Bella. I have hope that Jake will come back to us, and you're right. He's going to hate himself when that happens, but we'll be there for him. He'll know he has the support he needs to get back to normal."

Jake and Sam phased back, and I averted my gaze to give Sam some privacy.

I felt Jake's hand caress my cheek and I flinched before I could stop myself. He took his hand back and swore under his breath.

"This isn't what I wanted, Bella."

"I know." I said, and I did. I refused to meet his gaze though, knowing that seeing his eyes would bring me to tears.

"Sam's going to stay with me, monitor how I'm doing. He wants you to go, and against everything in me, I'm going to let it happen. This wolf is going to drive me insane, but giving in only keeps him quiet for a bit. I need a permanent solution. Go, before I change my mind."

I stood up, probably a bit too quickly and got into my truck. I took one glance at Jake, who was shaking with his wolf's anger and drove off.