CHAPTER NINE
I left the doctor's office and headed down the hallway, towards the waiting room, where John was. I approached the waiting room and stopped outside the glass doors for a moment. I peered in and saw John sitting on a chair in the corner of the small room. He was leaning forward slightly, his elbows on his knees, his hands were clasped together with his chin gently resting on them. He was just staring into space, like he was in deep thought about something, and I bet I could guess what it was. I just watched him for a little while. He looked so worried. So concerned. So troubled. All at the same time. I wanted to go over and wrap my arms around his neck and hug him tightly. Why did seeing him like this make me so upset? I came to my senses and decided to actually go in to him. Making him wait like this probably wasn't helping. I took a deep breath and entered pushed the double doors open, walking into the room and over to where John was seated. I stood beside him for a long moment. He didn't even notice I was there.
"Hello! Earth to Cena!" I said sarcastically, but also letting out a laugh. "Is anybody there?"
He snapped out of his daze and looked up at me. "Huh? Oh, hi. Sorry, my mind just drifted off there for a moment." he smirked. "What'd the doctor say?"
"Nothing serious, just a mild concussion." I said. "He just told me to rest up for a few days."
"Well, that's good news." John said standing up. "I've had tons of concussions before, trust me, they're nothing to worry about."
"Yeah, he did give me these pain killers though, and so far they're not working." I said as we walked towards the exit.
John laughed. "Give them time." he said. "They'll get to work soon enough."
"Well, I sure hope so." I said, placing my hand on my forehead. "I've got a terrible headache."
John was right. The pain killers I had taken started to kick in on the ride back to the hotel. They took my headache away, but they seemed to be making me tired as well. My eyes were growing heavy and I was finding it hard to keep them open. I leaned against the car door beside me and rested my head against the window.
My mind drifted off to thoughts of what happened back at the arena between me and John. I still couldn't make any sense of it. Why had it happened in the first place? I wondered what John was thinking. Was he thinking about it as well? Was he going to bring it up? Or did he not want to talk about it at all? I groaned at all these questions running through my head. I was frustrated that I had no answers for myself. John looked over at me quickly when he heard me groan.
"You okay?" he asked.
"I'm fine." I mummbled.
We drove in an uncomfortable silence all the way back to the hotel. I didn't really know what to say, and I don't think John did either.
Once we had arrived back at the hotel, it was pretty late. I was struggling to stay awake now. I just wanted to get into bed and go to sleep. I leaned my body against John's in the elevator. He laughed slightly and wrapped his arm around me, trying to keep me upright. I rested my head against his shoulder and yawned. I inhaled deeply, taking in the scent of John's cologne as I did so. God, he smelt so good. I shook my head and pulled away from him slightly. 'Stop it, Rebekah!' my mind shouted at me.
We stopped outside my hotel room and I dug around in my pocket for my key. When I found it, I pulled it out and handed it straight to John. He unlocked the door for me and pushed it open. He released his hold on me and I stummbled forward into the room, searching for the light switch on the wall.
"Are you gonna be okay by yourself?" he asked, reaching over and flicking the lights on for me.
"Yeah, I'll be fine." I mummbled, removing my jacket, almost falling over in the process. I heard John's laughter from behind me. I turned to face him. "Shut up." I said, rolling my eyes.
He laughed again. "Well, I'll be leaving you to it then." he said. "I'll come by in the morning to check on yah, aiight?"
I shrugged. "Suit yourself."
He smiled and walked over to me. "If you need anything, I'm staying in room 325. It's the next floor up. Just come up and get me."
I swallowed hard. John was standing so close to me. At that moment, all I wanted to do was reach my hands out to touch him, but I restrained myself. I could feel that feeling again. Like butterflies in my stomach. My breathing started to become deeper as I managed to choke out, "Okay. Thanks, John." I could feel my heart pounding in my chest as he leaned in even closer.
"It's not a problem." he whispered to me.
I came out in goosebumps as he spoke softly. I had never felt the urge to kiss someone as much as I wanted to kiss him right then and there. I didn't know what to do, I just froze where I stood. He moved in even closer and placed a soft kiss on my cheek. Much like the previous night, when we had gone out and he had kissed me in the same way, my breath caught in my lungs and I felt the electricity pass through my body at the feel of his warm lips on my skin. In a spur of the moment action, when he pulled back from me, I quickly moved forward and pressed my lips to his in a short kiss. I pulled away and felt my cheeks turn a bright red. What had I just done? I cursed myself for being so weak and stupid.
When I fianlly looked up at John, he just smiled gently and placed his hands on either side of my face, leaning in and capturing my lips with his in a soft, yet passionate, kiss. At first, I was eagar to return his kiss, slidding my hands up his body and resting them on his chest, gripping his shirt slightly. My lips parted and I gasped at feeling his tongue intertwine with mine. I lost myself in the sensation for a moment, but I soon came back to reality and shoved John away with as much strength as I could muster.
"I--I...I..." I tried to speak, but the words wouldn't come.
John moved close to me again and whispered, "Ssshh. It's okay." I looked up at him and he gave me that gorgeous smile of his. "I know what you're thinking. You think this is wrong. That you can't fall for someone like me. That I'm no good. And it's stopping you from just going after something you know you want." he said gently. He was right. I did think it was wrong. And that was what kept stopping me from letting things go any further with John. "But it's okay." John continued. "I understand."
"I...I just don't know what to do, John." I said quietly.
He laughed slightly. "You know what you want to do, you just won't let yourself do it."
"It's...it's just..." I stuttered.
"Look." he interupted me. "You know how I feel about you. The question you need to ask yourself is, how do you feel about me? When you find the answer to that, nothing else will matter." I didn't reply, I just stood there and thought about what he said. "I'm gonna go. You let me know what you decide." He gave me one last kiss on the cheek and left.
I sighed and ran my hands over my face. 'This can't be happening to me!' I thought to myself. Why did drama follow me everywhere I went? I just sat on the bed and thought for a second about what John had said to me. He was right. I needed to figure out what all these feelings were before anything else.
I let out a frustrated sigh. "Why is life so confusing?" I asked myself. One minute you think you hate someone so much and then the next minute it can all change...and maybe you don't really hate them after all. I had some serious thinking to do, that's for sure.
Well, there's chapter nine for y'all. Hope you're still enjoying this story! R&R please guys!
