A/N: Ok, just quickly before y'all read this chapter I just wanna say...yes, I have changed my pen name from TwistedTransistor to xtwizzlerxgothx

I just felt that I needed a pen name that suited me better:P So, to people who read this and any other of my fics, don't be confused...it's still me (Kat)! LOL! Anyways...on with this story...

CHAPTER NINETEEN

My eyes fluttered open to the sound of the shower running. I yawned and rubbed my eyes, then looked over at the clock. It read 9:15am. I sighed and pulled the covers over my head to block out the morning light. I had about an hour before I had to leave for my hospital appointment. I shut my eyes tight and wished I could stay there in the warm for the rest of the day.

I suddenly heard the water being shut off and my eyes immediately opened. I smiled, knowing full well who was in my shower, and that thought made my heart flutter. I heard whistling and a deep male voice coming from inside the bathroom and couldn't help but laugh to myself. John always struck me as the type that sung in the shower. I pulled the covers down and just listened to him for a few minutes, before he went silent. Then the bathroom door slowly opened and John appeared in the doorway, wearing a towel around his waist, with water running down his chest and dripping from his hair.

"Ooohh." I whined. "I wanted to hear the second verse."

"Maybe tomorrow." John winked, causing me to giggle.

He walked over and layed down next to me on the bed. He leaned over and brushed the hair from my face, ducking his head down to press a gentle kiss on my lips.

"Morning sleepy head." he smiled warmly.

I just laughed and reached my hand up and placed it on the side of his face. Suddenly a drip from his hair fell down and splashed on to my face.

"John!" I exclaimed. "You're all wet!" I laughed, pushing him away with one hand and wiping the water off my face with the other hand.

John just laughed loudly as I sat up in the bed and gave him a glare, but I couldn't keep from smiling as well. I pushed the covers off me and stood up.

"It's not funny." I smiled as I walked over to John and playful pushed him backwards on to the bed and made my way to the bathroom.

John drove me to the hospital and held on to my hand the entire time we were in the waiting room. After the doctor had finished checking me over, and telling me I was doing fine, he invited me and John in to his office and he then proceeded to explain to us a little about pregnancy and having a child, since this was mine and John's first. He then gave us and opportunity to ask any questions. I looked up at John, since we had a question that I was certainly not going to ask.

"Well, yeah..." John began. "Umm...you see, we were wondering last night if...if you can still...umm..."

I looked down at my lap, putting my hand over my mouth and giggling slightly as John squirmed in his chair, trying to get his words out. He just snickered slightly and nudged me in the side as I tried to stop myself laughing. I looked up at John and rolled my eyes.

"I think what he's trying to say is, can we..." I paused to try and phrase it right. "Ummm...sleep together while I'm pregnant?"

The doctor laughed slightly and nodded his head. "Yes, well, it's safe to...but it's entirely your decision as to whether or not you're both comfortable with it."

Me and John both had a few more questions to ask, and I had to book another appointment in about a month for my first scan, before we left.

On the drive back to the hotel, John talked about when the baby came. I just sat there and smiled widely as he spoke. It made me so happy to see him so excited about it. I didn't have the heart to stop him and remind him that we hadn't even gone public with our relationship yet, let alone the fact that we were having a child together.

When we pulled up in the parking lot, John suggested that we go and have lunch together in the hotel restaurant. I was hesitant...but I didn't want to fall out with John over this again.

He must have seen the uncertainty in my eyes, because he reached over and took my hand in his.

"If you're not ready yet, it's okay...we don't have to, I don't mind." he reassured me.

"I...I don't know." I said, giving him an apologetic look. "I mean, I want to...but..."

"Hey..." John interupted. "It's really okay if you're not there yet. Listen, I'll go in first and if you wanna come in and join me then you can, but if not, then that's fine and I'll just meet you upstairs in a little while, yeah?" he suggested.

I paused for a minute and nodded. "Okay." I whispered.

John squeezed my hand and gave me a smile before he stepped out of the car and walked off inside the hotel.

I sat and thought for a long time. I didn't want to keep my relationship with John a secret...but I was still afraid of what people might think. I knew what other people thought shouldn't bother me, but it did. I felt so bad, because it felt like I was letting John down. It hurt me to think that he might actually think I'm ashamed of him. I wasn't ashamed of him...not by any means. I wanted to be with him. I wanted to be able to hold his hand in public and not have to worry in case anyone saw us.

I let out a sigh and unbuckled my seatbelt. I got out of the car and locked it up. I stood there for a minute, letting things run through my head one last time before I made my decision and headed in to the hotel myself.

Okay, so I decided that I'd make this story a nice even 20 chapters! LOL! Soooo, that means this isn't the last chapter and there will be one more after all:P Hope y'all enjoyed this one:) R&R please guys!