Author's note: READ THIS, PLEASE. Alright, so here is where it gets tricky. There is a new variable in this little equation (yes, math talk), Cloud, and I don't know where I want this to go. I only have about a chapter so after this typed up and I don't know if I like this. So, I am going to ask all of you who read this, tell me what you would like to see happen afterwards. I will gladly retype the next chapter if people have different ideas that I like.
I am still looking for a title, and thanks to those who have given their opinion. I am not going to chose one yet, I suppose more of the story should be written before I decide. So still suggest titles
Oh and sorry if this chapter doesn't make much sense, like it's choppy, because I sort of pasted Cloud into it. In the beginning it was Riku alone in his house, but I added Cloud in for fun.
Disclaimer: I do not own Kingdom Hearts or any Final Fantasy characters.
Warnings: This chapter is pretty tame, nothing to racy, just a partially naked Cloud.
Sora had locked himself in his room for most of the day; the only time he came out was to take a shower, he was at 10 or something already for that day. He felt dirty, for using Riku in the first place, and for going that far with him.
Why did he have to screw everything up so much? Asking Riku to help him with his date was definitely the biggest mistake of his life; not to mention sleeping with his best friend was bad as well. He had gotten through his life that far without being in a relationship, why was it so important now? He didn't need to go on a date with Kairi, it wasn't like he was going to die if he didn't. God, he just wanted to take it all back; everything from asking Riku for help the day before after school, till that very morning.
The phone had rung a couple times throughout the day, but Sora never answered it, and if his parents came to his room to tell him the phone was for him, Sora would just yell at them to go away. He needed time with his thoughts.
He really hadn't wanted to go that far. All he wanted was Riku to touch him and prove to him it was ok to be a 'bottom'. And, well he figured out it definitely was fine to be a bottom; quite pleasant as well.
Sora knew one thing for sure; he enjoyed it whenever Riku touched him. But that was it. He didn't think he had feelings for his best friend. Then, there was also the fact, last time he checked, he was straight. But... god he was so confused. He just wanted to talk with Riku, get help figuring the mess that was his life. But, Sora was almost positive Riku didn't want to speak with him, especially after running out of the room that morning. Thoughts just rushed through his head, making him so confused his head hurt. Now that he had time to think about what had happened, what he and Riku did... it didn't seem so bad, except for the fact they weren't actually dating or anything. Perhaps he overreacted, it was just sex after all. Sora just thought of himself as a slut now. Nothing too bad; but he did find it funny how he went from a complete virgin, to a slut.
There was a knock at his door, and all Sora did was groan; did people not learn he wanted to be alone? "Go away!" He yelled, curling himself deeper into the ring of pillows he had made around him.
"Sora, please let me in." It was a girl's voice, but didn't sound like his mother. Kairi? What was she doing here?
"C-Come in..." Sora called out slowly, sitting up on his bed, staring curiously at the door as the small girl slipped inside his room. "Kairi, what are you doing here?" He asked, noticing her blush. That was probably due to the fact he was still dressed in only his sweat pants.
"I called earlier... but your mom said you weren't taking any calls." She explained softly, a small smile gracing her lips as she clasped her hands in front of her. Taking a couple steps towards the bed, she chanced a couple looks up at Sora, laughing softly to herself, until she was standing flush against the end of the bed. "I just wanted to tell you how much I enjoyed last night. It was really fun." Kairi explained, but couldn't seem to keep eye contact with Sora.
"Oh, well I am glad you had such a good time." Sora replied uncertainly. Why did she need to tell him this now?
Lifting up one leg, Kairi put her knee down on the bed; not something a girl in a short skirt, like her, should do. Sora found himself looking away that time as she brought the other knee up and crawled to the little circle of pillow guarding Sora. "And, well, I was wondering if perhaps you would like to go out on a true date with me." Crawling over the pillows, Kairi latched herself onto Sora's arm, lightly running her finger over his chest. Sora was dumbfound, what was she doing? "It is hard to meet nice boys, like you, who aren't only after one thing." Oh god, she was making Sora want to puke. Were all girls this clingy?
"Uh... K-Kairi?" Sora stuttered, moving away from the girl on his arm. "I don't r-really know... I mean, we j-just met." He added, desperately trying to think of a way out of this.
Kairi just laughed softly, "Sora, you're so cute." She giggled. And then it happened, she leaned in and kissed Sora. It was nothing like the kisses Sora had shared with Riku; it was more of a peck, like she was expecting Sora to do something.
And Sora did something, just probably not something Kairi wanted. Lifting both hands, Sora pushed Kairi away. "Kairi! What do you think you are doing?"
"I am kissing you, silly." Her voice was still full of cheer, like she was doing nothing wrong. "Don't you like it? By the way you were acting yesterday, I thought this would be what you wanted."
Sora just shook his head. "This isn't what I wanted. I was just doing what Riku told me to do!" Hm, he didn't know if it was best to have said that.
"Riku? Who's Riku?"
"He's my... uh.... Best friend. And well, I have never actually been on a date before so I asked him for help..." Sora confessed. He expected Kairi to laugh at him, say he was a loser; and well, she did giggle, but still thought he was cute. "Listen Kairi. You really are a nice girl, but... I just don't really know if I want to be in a relationship... right now..." Oh man, Sora really had no clue what he was talking about. But then again, that was better than saying 'I want someone to dominate me, like Riku did last night'. No, that definitely would not be good.
Kairi did seem saddened, but soon perked up again, were all girls this perky? "That is alright Sora. I can understand." They didn't talk much after that and Kairi left close to suppertime. So from the time Kairi arrived and left, Sora had also figured out, he didn't like to have the control, he liked someone else to lead. But really, he already knew that, so really he was back to where he started.
Sora skipped supper, just staying in his room, staring out of his window at the side of Riku's house. Talking with the other male would help so much; he would be able to figure things out that way. Maybe he could go over, and Riku wouldn't be mad at him for leaving so abruptly, and they would be able to talk. Yeah right, and clouds were really made out of cotton candy... But what else was he to do? They had always been able to talk before, why not now. A little thing like sex shouldn't get in the way... right? Well, maybe, if sex actually was a little thing. Pushing those thoughts out of his mind, Sora climbed off his bed, determined. He was going to talk to Riku, he had to; if not, well, Sora was going to have to buy a fridge for his room.
Still dressed in only his sweat pants, Sora marched his way over to Riku's house, standing at the front door, taking a couple deep breaths, his hand hovering over the door. A couple minutes passed and still his hand hovered. Holy crap, why couldn't he just do it? Closing his eyes tightly, his knuckles made contact with the door; a hollow thud reverberated through the house. Finally opening his eyes again, Sora waited for the door to open; waited and waited. It seemed like hours had gone by, when it had only been a couple seconds. Just as Sora started to turn away, the door opened, a dishevelled blond on the other side.
Sora was confused, there were no blonds in Riku's family; so who was this guy. Looking over at his house next door, he obviously had the right house. Did Riku move? No, he couldn't have, Sora had seen him less than twenty-four hours ago, and there was no way he could have packed up and moved in that time.
Turning his attention back to the man in front of him, it was obvious he had to be in his twenties, Sora felt himself blush. He hadn't actually noticed what the other had looked like. His blond hair was sticking up at every angle, much like his own, giving him a 'just out of bed' look. Bright blue eyes were half hidden by his eyes lids, and a well defined brow was arched curiously. A simple white button up shirt was practically falling off his body, every button undone and the material seriously wrinkled. His pants were at least done up, thankfully, but his belt wasn't. Nothing covered his feet, and Sora just had to wonder what had happened to him.
The blond man looked at Sora expectantly, reaching an arm up and resting it against the doorframe. He took a quick moment to look over the brown haired boy, and his also barely dressed state. "Can I help you?" He said at a length, figuring the little kid wasn't going to be saying anything on his own.
Sora just blinked as he continued staring at the man, not sure what to say. A noise coming from inside the house pulled Sora from his trance, and he looked inside to see Riku coming down the stairs, shirt in hand and his appearance as equally tussled at the other man's.
"Sora?" Riku called, noticing the brown haired boy at the door. "What are you doing here?" The expression was nearly one that matched Sora's; complete surprise. Riku came to the door, pushing the blond out of the way, and taking a moment to glare at him. "I though I said not to answer the door, Cloud." He stated, bitterness in his voice.
Sora just watched both males in the house; so Riku hadn't moved away. "I... uh, just wanted to talk... but it looks like you are busy." He mumbled, turning to leave, but felt Riku's hand grab his arm.
"Don't worry, I am not busy." Riku assured, looking over at Cloud. "Go take a shower or something, you smell horrible." Sora didn't want to think how that Cloud guy had come to smell so horrible. He wasn't that stupid, Sora could put two and two together. Riku and... Cloud had been doing what he and Sora had done the previous night. Great. Cloud just shrugged and began walking up the stairs, mumbling something about how Riku probably smelt worse. Without even waiting for an answer from Sora, Riku pulled him into the house. Cloud was right, Riku did smell pretty bad. Riku smelled like sex, plain and simple, and it made Sora want to run away. "Let's go talk in the living room. Are you ok? You left in a hurry this morning..."
Sora made a beeline for the couch, sitting himself down and waiting for Riku to join him. When Sora felt the weight on the couch beside him sink in, Sora started. "I don't know... I am just confused." He replied quietly, staying perfectly still on the couch.
"Oh... Well why don't you tell me what you are confused about." Riku suggested, moving closer to Sora, wrapping an arm around his shoulders. The weight added onto his shoulder made Sora want to scream, despite how much he loved the touch. How could Riku do that just after having slept with Cloud? Quickly Sora reached up and quickly, but gently, removed Riku's arm.
"That is what is confusing me." Sora stated, sighing out of exasperation. "You... your touches confuse me. I don't... When you touch me, I don't know... I don't know what it is I feel..." God, this wasn't helping at all, Sora couldn't even form sentences. "And how you can you be with Cloud so shortly after me?" There, a sentence, a rather angry one, but still a sentence.
"What are you talking about, Sora?" It was obvious from Riku's expression, he had no clue what Sora was talking about. But no, how could he? He probably wasn't confused about his feelings.
Well, how was he going to explain this? Was he at all? It would be so much easier just to forget this, forget everything. But Sora couldn't forget; he didn't want to. "Well, I suppose I should... just start from the beginning." Focusing his eyes on the floor so he wouldn't have to look at Riku, Sora took a deep breath and tried to organize his thoughts. "It all started yesterday, when I asked for your help. I thought nothing of what you and I would do; it would be just like school. You would teach something to me, and I would attempt to learn. But..." Sora paused, sighing softly. "Something happened... I don't know what, but when you touched me, even just brushing your fingers against my skin... shivers ran up and down my spine... I can't explain it; all I knew was that I liked the feeling. It was the same thing with the hug..." Near the end, Sora had just begun mumbling, his head hanging lower; but oh, he wasn't finished yet. "Then the date with Kairi... and then I came over... and everything went wrong."
Riku almost looked hurt. He wouldn't have minded if it was some random stranger who didn't like the sex, but this was his best friend.
"I didn't want things to go that far... it's just, when you touch me... I always want more. God Riku, you are like a drug... and I don't know if that is a good thing or a bad thing. I don't know if it is you, or your touch, that makes me feel this way. As you said, I am not a dominant person... I am so confused. And who is Cloud?" Sora was out of things to say, he was just repeating himself anyways.
Riku had turned to the side slightly to look over at Sora. "Well, if I knew what your feelings were, maybe I could tell you; but I don't. Only know if what you are feeling, and only you know if you are feeling these things because you actually care for me." He replied, which did little to help Sora in his current situation. Sora also noted Riku completely avoided answering who Cloud was...
"But... isn't there a way I can find out?" Sora asked, an exasperated sigh passing his lips.
Riku didn't want to suggest finding someone else to dominate him, so he came up with something else fast. "Well... maybe if we spend time together, not just hanging out like we used to, but more as... a couple, you will see if just being around me, or simply being held in my arms can bring about the same feelings." He had to admit, he came up with good ideas on the spot.
"Or, you could always just fool around with someone else, and see how you feel." A voice came from by the stairs. It was Cloud, standing in only a towel that was barely hanging onto his hips. His spiky hair was plastered down around his face, the water turning it a darker shade than it was normally, also making Cloud's treasure trail far more visible than before. Sora felt himself blush again, as he got a really good look at Cloud's firm body. He wondered just how much Cloud had heard of their conversation...
Gluing his eyes to the floor in front of him, Sora contemplated Cloud's words. "What do you mean?"
Sora could hear Cloud's footsteps approaching them. "What I mean is, find someone else who is more of a dominant person than you, and fool around with them. That way, you will be able to tell whether it is Riku that makes you feel that way." He explained, coming to a stop right in front of Sora. "I thought Riku would have explained that to you as another option, but I don't think he wants you fooling around with anyone else." Cloud stated, reaching out and lightly grabbing Sora's chin and lifting the younger boy's face so they were looking each other in the eyes. "But then again, who would want to give up someone as awesome in bed as you? Or at least, that is what I am told." Cloud's eyes darted to the side, looking over at a very pissed of Riku.
He told?! Sora was flabbergast, hurt, angry, embarrassed and almost everything else! Riku had told Cloud about what they had done. Turning to look at Riku as well, Sora glared at him. "RIKU! You told him?!"
Riku's expression soon fell, realizing Sora was no longer pleased with him. "Well... uhm, you see... er.... God..." There was no way Riku could save himself. He had told Cloud; that was plain and simple, no way around it.
Sora looked hurt, not able to believe Riku had told someone what they had done. Chewing his lower lip slightly, Sora got up from the couch and made his way out of Riku's house quickly, the second time that day. Making his way over to his own house quickly, Sora stopped right in front of his door, just leaning his head against it. He hadn't even wanted to have sex, and know someone else knew. God, he was so angry with Riku right then. He heard some yelling coming from the house next to his and a few minutes later, Cloud was being pushed out of the house, towel still barely covering him, and his clothes in his hands. Cloud muttered a few curses before noticing Sora leaning against his door.
Walking over to Sora, Cloud shuffled his clothes into one hand and reached up his newly free hand and placed it lightly on Sora's shoulder. "Are you ok?"
Sora jumped slightly as he felt Cloud's hand on his shoulder and heard his voice. Turning quickly, he looked at Cloud, once again unable to say anything.
"You really shouldn't be angry with Riku, Sora." Cloud stated, a soft smile on his features. "You know what kind of a person he is. Riku is just in it for the sex, no emotions involved, and he has to brag about it to keep up his reputation. If you are going to have sex with him, you can't get emotionally involved; or you will just get hurt."
Sora was surprised at how wise Cloud seemed to be. He seemed to know Riku better than Sora did, well, at least when it came to Riku's sex life. "I know... but I hadn't even meant to... it just sort of happened. I just wanted to know if there was something wrong with me because I like being dominated. And now I am so confused about whether or not I do actually feel something for Riku..." Sora's eyes dropped to the ground as he finished, ashamed for being such an emotional wreck.
"You are only confused because you are new to this whole relationship thing, right?" Cloud asked simply, earning himself a nod from Sora. "Well, before you know what your feelings truly mean, you will have to experiment a little, be with other people." To Sora, everything Cloud said made sense. How Cloud had become so wise, Sora didn't know, but he definitely was thankful.
"Thanks Cloud." Sora whispered softly, looking up at Cloud through wet eyes. "What you have said has really helped me a lot." Flashing Cloud a small smile, Sora turned to head back into his house, but Cloud stopped him. Fishing around in one of his pocket in his clothing, Cloud produced a pen. Grabbing Sora's hand, he quickly scribbled a phone number down.
"Call me if ever you need to talk again." And with that, Cloud let Sora go, turned and began walking down the street, still dressed in his towel. Sora stayed outside a moment, just staring at Cloud's retreating form, then at his hand. Looked like at least someone in this world cared more about his feelings than his body.
Smiling to himself, Sora quickly headed into his house; calling out to his mother to tell her he was back.
