Thanks so much for all of the reviews, I hope this chapter will be longer then last. Sorry it took so long to update I'll try to update every week not month >. I should try to update more. Don't worry I will update Lunar promise, eventually. Anyways back to the story
Disclaimer: Gundam seed doesn't not belong to me, and it never will. But this story does belong to me so please no remakes of this.
If only...
"You said you wanted to protect me!" Her voice was slightly cold, "Just like Tolle said, but Tolle's dead. He was killed by him, the boy I just caught you making out with. You promised to protect me Dearka Elsmen and here you are; you're the one who's hurting me." She glared at me and getting to her feet as I stood up
Mir, Mir, please wait." I yelled but she didn't stop. I stood there for a few minutes, not moving before giving a sigh. "Damn it!"
I felt two arms wrap around me softly.
Since when have you loved naturals?" He cooed in my ear.
I tried to push him away; I has to say sorry to Miriallia. "Athrun, not right now." I lowered my head.
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No, I didn't! But you did you betrayed the only person you really cared deeply for. I shook my head muttering 'no, no, it's not true.'
I can't believe I betrayed the one I stayed to protect. I sat on my bed, running my fingers through my unruly blond hair."Mir.."I mumbled. I stood up wearing the red Orb jacket that I had been given. The door opened when I walked towards it.
I made my way towards the hangar, maybe fixing up the Buster would make me relax, it could be time I could use to think. I could hear sobs, probably from Miriallia, I stood next to the door unmoving. It only mad me feel worse, how could I do that to the one I used to love? I shook my head, there was no way I could face her now.
I stayed a few more minutes listening to her, every tear she shed, made me feel like killing myself. I had stayed for her, but Athrun. I loved him more, I always had. But I never once thought about anything like I did now, back at the Vesalius. I made my way from the door, and towards the hangar.
The only sound in the quiet halls were those of my footsteps. I knew that if anyone passed, they'd see me sulking. I closed my eyes and gave a sigh. How could I choose between the two? There was Miriallia, someone I was risking my life for every time I fought for the Archangel. And then there was Athrun, the man who also betrayed Zaft. Who was someone I've known for a long time, someone I've loved secretly. I bumped into someone without noticing it, I fell to the ground. Glancing up my eyes locked with Amethyst, ones.
The brown haired coordinator who had once been a enemy stood above me, "Hi." I said quietly, "Kira right?" I asked. I'd only seen him a handful of times around the ship.
He nodded holding out a hand to help me up, the brunette didn't say anything as I took his hand. He pulled me up and turned. "You're Athrun's friend aren't you?"
I hesitated, Athrun's friend? Wasn't I more now? "I guess that's what you would call me." He had walked away after that. I glanced back at the retreating boy, how did Athrun know him? My pace stayed the same as I entered the hangar. My eyes caught the Justice and Freedom, they belonged to Athrun and Kira. Why did the two of them get such amazing mobile suits while I still had the Buster. The Mobile suit I stole from Heliopolis. Shaking my head I grasped the elevator rope and let it slowly pull me to my cockpit.
A lot had happened since Helipolis, Nicol died, I was captured by the archangel, and Athrun now appearing at the Archangel.. What happened to our once amazing team? Where was Yzak? I was asking far to many questions, I concluded as I climbed into the cockpit. Flipping a switch the machine came alive, I rested my hands on the keyboard, as thoughts fled into my head from this confusing world I had gotten myself into.
"Oi Dearka?" Athrun's voice rang out, I ignored him as I worked on updating my machines Operating system. "Dearka, I know your up there."
I sighed, "What is it Athrun?" My voice faltered as I said his name. Just hearing his voice made my stomach feel like there were butterflies about. When I glanced up I saw his face close to mine.
"What happened to you yesterday?" He asked simply, "You looked guilty of something, did I do something wrong?"
I faked a smile, "You did nothing Zala." My fingers still typed and I turned my attention to the screen. "I did something to upset Miriallia."
"You love her don't you?"
"I-I.." My voice trailed off as he asked. "Athrun, Kira called me a-a friend have you told him about us?" I quickly changed the subject, I didn't know if what Athrun and I had meant more to me than Miriallia just yet.
"You're changing the subject." He said simply, those emerald eyes stared at me intently. I shuddered slightly.
"No I'm not." I made my hands skim the keys, as I began to type.
"Yes, you are."
I paused, feeling his warm breath on my face. "Athrun, C-could you back up?" I couldn't believe those words escaped my lips! How stupid could I be to deny him? Focusing on the screen and not my teammate..no my commander, I sighed. I hadn't noticed that my hands trembled only slightly, but they did.
"What?" His voice broke the silence of me typing.
"Athrun could you back up?" I repeated, mentally kicking myself. I had to figure this out before anything else happened. I couldn't hurt Miriallia again, until I knew what I wanted.
The other pulled away, "Fine, if you want to talk..." His voice trailed off, it full of confusion. "I'll be talking with Kira." He left as silently as he came.
I shook my head, and continued to work, on enhancing my mobile suit.
How was it? Good? bad? Please Review , I'll try to update withing the week, I'm so sorry for the long wait. Also sorry for any grammer/spelling errors, I decided not to have my friend edit it, seeing as she was not online when I finished and I wanted it posted ASAP.
-kena-San
