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The boy he didn't know
Chapter IV

25 October

In the past few weeks I have found myself up in the Astronomy Tower every single night. And every night when I push the hatch open I can see you stand there. You're always standing there, facing the place where I know the sun will rise, swaying lightly in the wind, face turned upwards. And as every other night, my breath is stolen from me.

I think we have some silent agreement; I come up there, see you standing there and sit down beside you. I tried to talk in the beginning but I was only able to get a few words out of you. But at least you didn't ignore me. I'm thankful for that.

I do not talk to you anymore, but I don't feel ignored. No, I think we have a comfortable silence between us now.

But the silence between us is only temporary. Well not for you, but for me. I still taunt you in the hallways, the Great Hall, the library, and the school grounds, everywhere but the Astronomy Tower. I have no idea why you didn't tell me to fuck off, but I know that I'm grateful that you didn't.

It's the same routine every night. We look at the sunrise together, you with that content smile that lit up your whole face, and I, watching you with the same expression. Then, when the sun is up, you leave.

I always have the same thoughts when you leave me up there. "I'm sorry".
I apologize for the taunts, tricks, sneers and insults I know I will plague you with later.

I know that I have no parents to tell me what to do anymore; I don't have my father breathing down my neck wherever I go. No. It's my image that forces me to continue my father's noble work.
And afraid of losing my respect, I obey.

But this night, just a few hours back, the small life I had, came crashing down on me.

In the early morning I, as usual, walked up to the Astronomy Tower. I pushed the hatch open, climbed up and turned to the place I knew you would be. Except you weren't there.

I know exactly what I should have done. I should have shrugged and walked back to the dungeons. However I didn't. No, instead I started running towards the Gryffindor Tower, don't ask me what I was thinking, I do not know. I only know that I knew that I had to see you.

I never made it to the Gryffindor Tower. Or maybe I did, but if so I didn't know that was it. Because after a half an hour running around in panic, I realized that I had no idea of where I was. So while feeling incredible stupid for overreacting I walked back to the dungeons, all the way trying to assure myself that you were perfectly fine in your dormitory. That you had finally overcome your need to see the sunrise and wouldn't need to see it every morning. All the way pretending my chest didn't constrict at the thought of never seeing the first sunrays hit your face again.

DM

TBC

A/N: I'm so sorry for not updating sooner and I promise that next chapter will come soon.
This chapter was actually supposed to be longer but since I haven't updated in so long I thought it would be best to split it up.
I've also decided to not write from Harry's POV I think it will be for the best if I stick to Draco's POV.
I apologize for my English, hopefully you could understand.

A few of you have asked me what's my first language is, and for your information it's Swedish.

Celece – thank you so much for your review, you understand Harry so well and I'm glad that you told me so.