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The boy he didn't know
Chapter VI

30 October

I started ignoring you three days ago.
I haven't really seen you for five days. Five miserable days.

I don't sleep very well anymore, too many thoughts swirling in the chaos of my mind.
Pictures of your face, bathing in the first sunrays of the day, are the only thing I can see when I close my eyes.

I don't know if I should be grateful for those pictures or if I should be devastated.
Grateful because I got to see such peace on your beautiful face. Devastated because I'll never see any emotions so pure on your face again, and my heart is breaking a little bit more every time I think about it.

But if I have to choose, I'd rather have those images stuck to my mind rather than not have them at all. Anything to see you. The real you, not the happy mask. It kind of reminds me of myself… Funny…

I don't know how long I will be able to keep this behaviour up. I don't know if I have succeeded to keep it up at all. My heart was never really in it.

I know I swore to myself that I would ignore you from now on. Three days ago.

And still whenever I enter a room, my gaze is always looking for a mop of raven hair. But as soon as I find it, I curse myself, once again turning my gaze towards the floor.
Because if I look a little closer I know that I'll see that long red hair, sprawled over your shoulder as the redhead leans her head against it.

I can't bear to see it anymore. And still when I sit down in my new seat at the back of every class, I can't help but look.

I think other Slytherins have noticed my new behaviour. Not that I care. I don't really care about many things anymore. Strange. But not really.

But they don't really care, they never do. Why should they? They, just as me, were brought up that way. The only difference if that they learned, obeyed and succeeded in learning the ways of a Slytherin. Me? The one time so perfect Slytherin, the one everybody saw up to, I am now not more than a mere flaw in the Malfoy family.

I can barely stand being around them anymore, they always remind me of how I am supposed to act. And since I can't act the right way, I try to be around them as little as possible.

This is why I was aimlessly walking along some lonesome corridor of the castle.
I think I'm doing it on purpose, every time I round a corner I hold my breath. Only to exhale with disappointment when I find nothing but another empty hallway.

But tonight, when I held my breath, I didn't find an empty hallway.

I found you.

DM

TBC

Author:

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