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The boy he didn't know
Chapter VII
October 31
I can't sleep.
I need to sleep: my first class starts in about three hours. But I can barely close my eyes. Afraid of seeing that horrible scene once again, so I won't close them. I know I'll have to get some sleep eventually but for now I refuse to.
I found you in that lonely corridor; I have no idea of where it was since I wasn't paying attention to where my feet were carrying me.
I just stood there frozen, watching you but not really seeing you.
I remember having a flashback right there and then. You sitting in that empty compartment on the train, legs pressed against your chest, small sobs shaking your body.
The sight that met me was almost identical to the one on the train, the scene that I'm not so sure about anymore. I think I dreamed it.
I was snapped out of my trance when I heard that quiet little sob, a sob very much like the one in my dream. Sniffing slightly you pressed your legs tighter to your body, protecting yourself from the world.
I felt empty, as if I had a big hole in my chest. A hole, invisible for the eye to see, but making my whole body ache, making my body so heavy that every step I took towards you felt like the biggest effort in the world.
Still I managed to take the few steps that were needed to stand right beside you.
That was when you noticed me. Your head snapped up as I took the final step and wet emerald eyes met my silver ones.
I drew a ragged breath, deeply affected by the swirling emotions reflected in your eyes. I can't describe exactly what I saw in your eyes that night and even if I could… I couldn't.
I opened my mouth to say something. Maybe I was about to tell you that everything would be alright. Perhaps I was about to ask you if you were alright, just as I had done on the train… Or as I had done in my dream.
But before I had had a chance to form any words you spoke in a voice so broken that I felt my own throat become thick.
"Please go away". Choking on a sob your next words were barely a whisper: "Please… Leave me alone".
And with those words another part of my once whole heart disappeared in the new darkness surrounding it.
But I didn't move. I couldn't. My legs refused to obey me, not that I put so much effort in demanding them to move.
Slowly, so as not to scare you, or maybe because any fast movement would tear my body in half from the pain inside, I sat down beside you.
Ignoring me, or not noticing me, you didn't remove your head from your arms.
I moved a little closer and brought one of my arms around your shoulder, feeling your whole fragile body tremor at the contact.
Shaking, you started to repeat your previous words over and over again.
"Please go away, please go away. Leave me alone, please, please…"
Struggling to get away from me you started to rise to your feet, but instead of letting you I drew my arm tighter around you and dragged you in between the V of my legs, looking up at the ceiling all the time. Afraid of looking directly at you.
Hugging you now with both my arms I pulled your head under my chin. Your sobs increasing, you started banging your fist against my chest. All the time choking out "please".
Face still turned towards the ceiling, eyes tightly shut and my throat hurting every time I swallowed, I slowly began swaying our bodies from side to side.
Your broken whispers were ringing in my ears as the first tear rolled down my cheek.
TBC
Author:
So… tell me what you thought of this chapter. I updated pretty fast didn't I? The next chapter will actually continue directly from the last line, that's why Draco hasn't signed DM at the end.
And if you're confused by the dates, he met Harry in the corridor at night, and now he's writing about it after 00:00 so it's a new day.
And thank you to all my reviewers, it really makes me update faster
And I guess I have to say a special thanks to Clalyan too (or else she will kill me)
So thank you my deer reviewers and Clalyan I like you more than candy.
