a/n: I'm really losing my steam on this story- anyway it's swim team again and work and it really sucks, so I'll try to finish this up soon, I think there's only one chapter left and a epilouge- I think... Chapter...ugh... 42?

Hermione felt slightly stiff as she packed her bag one last time. The trains would arrive in the morning to take them all home. This would be her final night at Hogwarts. She looked around the silent room to the other girls packing their bags, their faces solomn. Hermione just knew that they were feeling the same way, that they were leaving their home. She piled the last bit of the mess in her drawers into her trunk and snapped it shut.

She had to admit she felt a kind of sadness in the way that she knew she wouldn't even be in this dormatory again after tomorrow morning. She felt that she would cry tomorrow on the train.

She set her trunk on the floor and walked out of the silence down to the very loud common room. A couple of the 5th years were throwing a party to celebrate the end of their O.W.L.'s. which several of the seventh year's joined in. Hermione couldn't tell them off, it would just be too much of a bother so she quickly made her way across the room to the corner where Ginny was knitting, a very odd thing for her to do. She seemed very stoic after the whole Voldemort thing.

"Hey, you ok?" asked Hermione, lifting up Ginny's feet, sitting down and then letting them fall again on to her lap.

Ginny looked up and quickly nodded before going back to her kniting. " Fine."

Hermione didn't like her tone. " Ginny, what's wrong?"

"It's...Nothing." she said, visiably getting emotional. She looked up with a gasp, relaxed her arms and looked at her. " Everything!"

"Well," said Hermione conjuring up a pillow and sticking it behind Ginny's head." Why don't you tell me about it?"

"Hermione, I was just so scared." she said bowing her head.

"Scared?"

"Scared. For you when you were kidnapped, For Ron and Lindsay when they went after you, Harry when he was fighting V-v-voldemort. And for you and Draco."

Hermione looed up from her lap at Ginny. "Me and Dra- Malfoy? Why?"

Ginny grabbed Hermione's hands. " Hermione, he risked his life to get you back. He said when we were traveling to the fort that he would walk on water for you."

Hermione pulled her hand out of hers. " I wouldn't have been in trouble if it wern't for him! I never want to see him again." she said standing up and stalking out of the common room towards the headgirl's bathroom. She knew she could relax there.

She didn't look where she was going and bumped into something very solid. "Sorry" she mumbled getting back up and stalking down the hallway leaving a very sorrowful Draco behind.

She floated on her back in the bathroom just thinking. She winced when she turned over, the brusies were fading but they were still sore. Why me? As if my life isn't complicated enough, why?

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Harry, Ron and Hermione looked outside their compartment window as the train slowly moved forward leaving Hogwarts behind. Hermione could've sat in the front compartment with the headboy and the 6th year prefects but she felt that since this was the last time they would be on the Hogwarts express together that they would spend it together. They turned away from the window as the turrets fell behind the mountains. That would be the last time they view Hogwarts, their home, in a long time

Hermione sat down on the bench, pulled her legs up and rested her head against the window. She looked around as Harry sat across from her and Ron beside her. " It's weird isn't it?" she said after a few minutes of silence.

"What's weird?" asked Ron looking at her.

"It seems like yesterday that we were ending our first year doesn't it. It just flew by so fast."

Harry nodded. " I know what you mean. It seems just so surreal that it's all over."

"So much has happened." Said Ron catching on to the gist of the conversation. " We've done so much and now this is the scariest thing ever. We are leaving our home, we are grown up, it's time for us to be on our own and that, I think is the scariest thing we've got to look forward too, just beginning on our own."

"It's scary, but I think we'll be able to make it. We'll always be friends. We'll always have each other and I think friendship can conquer anything." said Hermione smiling at her friends

They smiled back and leaned over to hug her. Not two seconds later did Ginny, Lindsay and Neville come running into their compartment and joined the hug. Neville hung back a bit until Ginny pulled him into the hug.

"Friends always." said Harry before leaning back to his seat. Ginny sat next to him in the seat closest to the wall and Neville to his other side. He put his arm around Ginny and planted a kiss on her forehead as she dug something out of her purse.

Lindsay sat next to Ron and just linked her hands with him. Hermione smiled. She was happy for her friends but she couldn't help but feel left out. Neville on the other hand, seemed completely oblivous to anything

They all smiled and talked. Shortly after noon the plump witch pushing the food cart arrived at their compartment smiled sweetly as she handed over the food to Harry. "Congratulations Kids." she said before going on down the hallway.

Harry turned back and look at everyone in the compartment, they just looked at him. He shrugged and started throwing candy to everyone. Hermione caught a chocolate frog and looked down at it. She didn't see the gold colored covering but her own reflection in the wrapper. She didn't look different but she could feel that she had changed. She looked up, sighed and then smiled. Shit happens, and life will go on. No matter what. She remembed what her mother had said to her a couple of years ago. "You have to take the good with the bad, smile with the sad, love what you've got and remember what you had.Always forgive, but never forget, learn from your mistakes, but never regret. People change, things go wrong, but just remember life goes on"

People change, always forgive. She thought of Draco and wondered if he had changed or if she could forgive him. She supposed she could just go on remembering what she had.

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Hermione grinned as she got of the train. She was now wearing a pair of blue jeans, a white cami and carring her jean jacket. For a few weeks she was ready to go and be just a plain old muggle. She grabbed her trunk from the baggage man, and slipped her hip pack now filled with just some old parchment, notes from her friends, and school robes that would now just hang in her closet at home, over her shoulder and turned around.

Harry stood there in jeans and a light blue tee-shirt, Ron beside him in blue cargos and green tee-shirt. She walked over to them and they smiled, they all gave eachother a hug. "Now guys remember to call me, we need to hang out this summer, now that we are fully qualified wizards." She smiled. " I'll see you guys in a few weeks I swear." They turned and walked towards the old wizard letting them all out in pairs of twos or threes.

As soon as they were outside the barrier they looked around there stood Mr. and Mrs. Weasley, Fred and George looking stylish in jean jackets, Bill, Mr. and Mrs. Granger and a formative looking ministry wizard. Hermione ran to her parents, dropping her bag as she was curled up into their arms. They hugged their daughter holding her like she was leaving forever. They were so worried about her when they got that owl from Professor Dumbledore saying she was kidnapped. They tried to get to Hogwarts but they just couldn't seem to get there everything was blocked off from the wizarding world. They couldn't explain their relief when they got the next owl only 8 hours later saying that she was returned to Hogwarts and was currently in the hospital wing resting.

He watched as Hermione was bundled up into the arms of her awaiting parents. He felt a twing of jealousy as her father placed a kiss on her temple and hugged her tight again. Her mother was crying as she brushed her daughters hair back from her face. He was brushed aside by the old wizard who reached his hand through the barrier and gave him a firm push away so the next wave of students could come through.

Ginny came out next with Neville and Lindsay and was immediatly scooped up by her father. She got out of his grasp and went to stand next to Harry who would be staying with the weasleys until he managed to get a small apartment to his self. Lindsay was a little shy as she was introduced to the Weasleys by Ron.

Fred and George laughed and poked Ron until he turned yet and told them to "Bugger off." He lead Linday around a piller and said a private farewell to her before she was swept away by her parents with the promise she'll see him over the summer.

Hermione said her final goodbyes with tears in her eyes. They all gave her a hug, she turned away, picked up her hip bag, her dad had her trunk and started to walk away.

"Hermione!" she heard her name called from behind.

She turned smiling wiping tears from her eyes. There he was. She turned her head and looked towards her parents. " I'll be right there." she said. they shrugged and continued walking. "What do you want?" she questioned Draco as he came up beside her, the formative looking wizard behind him.

"I want to say I'm sorry, you have every right to be angry with me and I don't blame you one bit, but I do want to say this. Despite what happens between us..."

" I thought we already settled that!" she said loudly.

"Hermione, let me finish," he said putting a finger infront of her face. " I love you." He took her hand and squeezed it tight. " Never forget that." he said, he picked it up kissed it and turned away with the wizard following him.

She turned her hand over and looked down. The locket was in her hand, the chain repaired. She opened it up and on the inside was a peice of parchment on it with familair handwriting. It was his address. Always forgive, Damn you mom. she closed her hand over it again and slipped it into her pocket and turned to walk down to the entrance with her parents. what to do now?

Ok guys, there's chapter 42, but since i'm not in an editing mood, there might be some mistakes in spelling, and for that i'm sorry, but I promised myself i'd post a chapter before I took my shower this morning so here it is.

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