AN: I don't own Sailormoon but everyone else and situtation I do.

It came about from my musings- also it's in first person.

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It was all for her; that pretty woman with the pale white hair and her pretty blue eyes with those silver speckles in them. It was her fault that she was so beautiful. It was her fault that she had kindness with that beauty.
If she had been even a little crueler…a little more self-serving, then I wouldn't have loved her so.

But, she was and I did.

I watched her danced across the floor with that prince from the Northern star kingdom- Prince Orion.

I didn't like him, I never would. I hated how she laughed at his jokes. I hated it even more when he pulled her closer as they danced the waltzed.

Serenity…would you ever know my feelings for you?

"Princess Nehelenia…?" It was Prince Morpheus. He was a pale man, with inky black hair that was straight and came down a bit past his waist. He wore an all white tuxedo to this party with a simple silver circlet around his head and a teardrop black pearl that rested against his brow.

I was wearing white as well, the bodice clung to my figure as did the silky clothe skirt that outlined my hips and fell shapelessly down to about an inch from the floor allowing my white satin shoes to peek out. My shoulders were bare and I wore white satin gloves on my arms. On my forehead were my insignia- three crescent moons. On gold with a silver one next to it and another silver crescent moon underneath both of them I had no berets in my hair- but I did have two white bows nestled against my buns.

The party was a celebration for my engagement to Prince Morpheus and everyone who was anyone was here tonight. I wondered if this engagement was more of a sting to myself then the need to cement things between our kingdoms.

"Oh, erm.." I flushed, really I hadn't meant to daze off and watch the pretty angel waltz with another. "What were you saying?"

"I do believe your bride to be may have been a little too much in her cups." Vivian said to him with a small laugh. Vivian was a twin-well at least one of them. She and her sister were exactly what you imagine twins would be. Their coloring was the same: Their skin tone was dark brown, with matching ruby eyes and rich sapphire blue hair.
From there they were different. Vivian wore her hair up in a ponytail with a braid wrapped around it. She also had a hair clip- a little ruby star with silver lining it.
She wore a red dress that left her shoulder bare and over laying the bodice was what looked to be a black corset.

While her sister, on the other hand, she wore her hair down in mini braids with a bejeweled beret in her hair. The beret was in the shape of the sun with a sapphire in it and lined with gold. She wore a blue version of what her sister wore along with a black choker that had a sapphire heart. She seemed to shake her head at her sister.
"Or mayhap you have waggled your tongue a bit much, sister?" Seraphina smiles coyly at her.
"I do not."

"Please, you two; be at peace." Morpheus smiles affectionately at them. They were his guardians-ironically named the Morpheus Senshi.
One of my Senshi- I believe it to be Sarita, snorts. "You heard your prince, shut your traps."
"Must you be crude?" Hebi's golden eyes turned to the black haired Senshi. "Honestly, they won't be able to tell if you were a lady or not!"
Sarita blinks her purple eyes and laughed. "Well I don't care what anyone thinks." She then took a sip of her wine. "After all, we're not looking for husbands are we?"
Tora, who hadn't been paying attention either, smirks. Her vivid sapphire eyes held amusement as she caught the tail of that comment. "I don't know, 'rita." She brawls, "I think husband hunting now would be a great opportunity to us." She flicked a dark red strand back from her peachy colored face. "I mean we're all good looking. We could find someone special too!"

Morpheus only shook his head at them, "Well if you ladies would excuse us, we're going to take the last few dances."
I allowed him to take my glass and his and set it on a tray that was heading back to the kitchens and then followed him to the dance floor.

She was still there laughing with Orion. Princess Serenity…she was wearing a pale blue dress –well it was more like a sheath like dress that just happened to cling to her curves and was strapless as well.
Two buns graced her head with pigtails trailing behind hair. I wonder if the pale hair of hers was as soft as it seems? Though I should know that answer…

They were staring at us- Morpheus and I- as we twirled across the floor. My skirts billowing around me at each spin as I let him lead me in the dance. I could let my mind drift again to my private obsession even as I danced with my fiancé.

What would she think if I told her? We had been friends- nay companion- since we were old enough to talk. How could I tell her that my feelings of friendship towards her had changed somehow? That it turned to something…. more?

Time seemed to fly by that night as the party wore on. My fiancé and his group were staying for another few days to finalize the date and discuss where the wedding would take place. I knew my mother would have something to say about it. She always did.

Fortunately for me- or maybe it was unfortunate- Serenity and her group were staying as well and would keep us company. Of course, our Senshi were going to use this time to train off all the food they had consumed tonight.

That night found me in my best friend's room, getting my hair brushed when she suddenly said, "Hey, Elenia?"
I felt her stop brushing my hair-a small ritual we did whenever we were staying over at each other's homes. "What is it, Sere?" I turned slightly so I could see her. I could tell she was happy about something. There was a twinkle in her deep blue eyes that told me she was about to divulge a secret to me.
"Well…" She leans close; I could smell the faint perfume of lilacs that still stayed fragrant on her body and the wine from her breath. She must have drunken more before she went to bed. "Guess what?"

I rolled my eyes and picked up one of the smaller pillows and threw it at her, "Just tell me, Sere!"
She grabbed the other one, "Well, if you're going to be like that, then you must battle me for it!"
"You're on!"
And for the next five minutes we laughed and screeched as we hit each other with pillows while jumping on the bed. Finally I pounced on her, pinning her body to the mattress holding the pillow up as I tried to catch my breath a bit before I could say, "Concede to defeat?"
She laughs and nods, "I give!"
Cheered by this, I let the pillow down but the moment seemed to change slightly as I looked down at her. She was only dressed in her thin nightgown. I felt my mouth go dry looking down at her with her cheeks still rosy and her hair mussed up from our pillow fight. I didn't know how long I sat there, straddling her hips and feeling that strange ache that started to form. The tension was becoming a little thick.
Was it cold in the room…? I didn't know myself.
After what seemed like an eternity, I rolled off her and tried to put on that friendly smile. We were friends. That's how it had to be.
"So, what was it you wanted to tell me?" I asked her and prayed she couldn't find the difference in me.
She props up on her elbows and looks at him with that same mischievous look. I hated that look. It made me want to kiss her til that look went away and hear her moan and feel that lithe body of hers pressed against mine….

"Well," She started with a smirk; "You know how mama is trying to pair me off with all those silly princes at court right?" At my nod she went on, " Well, at the last few balls and events…oh Elenia I've been seeing Prince Orion."
I was very glad she had looked away and at the ceiling with that dreamy expression. "He's asked me to marry him!"

How could I have not seen this? It was true, aside from me; Prince Orion and her Senshi had frequented the palace. I schooled my face and hoped she hadn't noticed- though I think she did.
"What did you tell him?" I knew I shouldn't hope. Terrible traitorous thing hope was especially when the heart is involved.
"I said….yes! Isn't it wonderful?" She asked me before lying back smiling, "Maybe we could have a double wedding?"

"Yeah…" I said weakly before getting up. I could feel it, the stinging of tears in the back of my eyes. I was going to cry. For what, I wasn't all together sure about it. What I was sure about was that I wanted to go to my room before I started sobbing.
"Well, I must go to my room before Matilda looks in on me."

She sat up, watching me with those innocent blue eyes of hers. I looked away reigning myself in. I had to hold it til I got back to my room. I just had to.
"Good night Elenia." She says to me. I could feel her eyes on me as I left her room.

Quickly I made it to my room and closed the door, leaning against it. My bed was freshly made and turned down for me to get in. The fire still going, casting its cheerful colors in the room. Even my window was cracked opened and the wind chimes were still at the moment.
I only slide down the door, sitting on the floor as my nightgown pooled around me. I felt the first of many tears fall from my eyes that night.

And I couldn't stop them…the tears